motovation

went and cleaned gordons flat yesterday took ages mainly because i was completely laking in energy which meant i had trouble knowing were to start wereas when i am cleaning i uselay start from one end and work towards the other.
the other reason was that it was a state but i can't talk i am about to get up the energy to clean my room and i have less space for it to be this messy urk.
church this morning was okay have discovered the joys of podcasts and so got to listen to the news on the way in really enjoyed my walk. but i don't know my energry was completely gone by the time i got there and by midway through the service the room was spinning so badly that i felt sick.
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