not feeling well

lying in the bath this morning and started feeling terribly dizzy got out went through the normal routeen of getting a large drink of water and going back to bed for half and hour feeling alittle better now but still not wonderfull.

think it is back to the stress thing been holding it together for a wile now and am exsperancing my bodies normal payback but hey if its just that which it is i know it will go in a few days hours ect.

been a bussy few days been helping gordon move and with some of his youth work played altamate fribee with some young people and so forth and did the driving him back and forth thing.

The Secret of Poi Flowers

God is Good

well it turns out that the desision that i would have had to make if i had been offered the outwards bounds leader job would not have been so hard anyway.

had a very nice day in the sun at clan yesterday and it looks like it was going to be the only sunny day they get so thats good. had a chat about the job although felt alittle like i was being interveiwed again. mainly because they have been reading this (hello people from gateway :) ) and wanted to make sure that i was serouse about this job. i hope i reasured them.

am now looking forward to the next year and feel like i have a purpose again which is really really really good have to go and re-set up all my direct debits again though. need to stop making snap desisions.

Clan its self was brill although it is not as jam packed at Soul Surviour some good teaching although did come away with some real questions that i will be delving into my theology books about very soon

helping Gordon tonight and tomorrow life doesn't half move fast does it.

low

didn't get the job as a trannie instructor they said that they had to look at the overall mix of the team not really sure what this means. but i guess it means that they don't feel that i will really fit in. am gutted but i guess on the possitive side it makes choices much easyer later on.

feeling very low though not the best wish i was still at camp.

intresting

just had one of those mornings when you get into a good book and completley lose track of time. just read 'the shock of your life' which was brill. all about death and what happens next. bought it on camp it was recomended by chris did start it there but only got a very little way in so have basicaly read the whole thing this morning.

it has really made me think about what type of christian i am and what i want to acheive in my service of god. and where my life is at the mo there is alot of refection to be done on this book so may come back with more. but what is first in my head at the moment is that God is amazing and his grace through Jesus is undescribable!!!!!

if you are one of my friends who doesn't know this yet please read this book or the bible or just talk to me and find out more. i wanna see you dancing at the throne in heaven with me.

the case of the dissapering week

just back from the motivate camp which was great!!!

it was so lovley to be working with neil cat kenny and ped again as well as caching up with some of my old college mates and making some new ones can't wait for next year for that.

but of course the best bit was running around enthusing helping and chatting to the young people who came. we only had ten young people at this camp but it was brill. chris and i had three boys in our groups who where all 'special' as they themselves kept saying. we had a great time chatting just being around for these boys.

we did all the normal things of camp archery, low ropes (which chris broke hehe) running around the woods, bbq and so much more not to mention messy games last nights. the thing that hits me know is that even though i am nackered beyound belief i can't beleive that the week is already over i am actualy up for going beck tomorrow rounding up all the kids and spending another week having a laugh. can't wait for next year

although there where good bits and bad bits i did a face plant right early on in the week and have loose teeth a big nose and a big lip just wish i had a video clip of it because i know it was funny. i also got a call from con and i have lost my job at the restraint (its all political) but on the possitive side i have heard back from the gateway and they are offering me a position going to see them on monday tuesday to see what they are really hoping for although i still have not heard from whithaugh park so i may have a hard disision to make this week eeeeek. will stop brain dumping now

whithaugh park

last few days have been a bit crazy but good fun all the same. went for an interview to become a trainee instructor at whithaugh park down in the boders it is part of the barnabas adventure centres and if there was ever a job i wanted i want this one. but we shall have to wait and see although it should not be to long before i find out whats going on.

the interveiw was fun we got to do high ropes and lots of other cool things so it was well worth going just for that.

came back and filled in for one of gordons volunteers taking some young people to the beach which was nice although i so hate sand we found loads of crabs and various other things which where cool. gordon showed how brave he was when we found a butter eel that protested to being picked up it fliped and he was a distant dot on the horizone very funny indeed although i can't say i was that much braver.