got ride of the bad smell. cleaned the flate although it is not very tidy it is clean. and have now been sitting reading bibles all afternoon. that is not a complaint i have actualy had a really great time with them this afternoon grown in my understanding of dueteronomy. on the down side still not sure how to put this essay together and havn't even started on the comentaryes yet. tomorrow meeting Bill and will get on with it get the frist draft written don't have much prep to do for Sunday.

my new TV's here yay it was very heavy but all set up now. great fun am now watching friends and able to talk to people on MSN. AT THE SAME TIME!
yay lots to do today should really get sarted.

am home head it full. darals classes have a tendancy to make me feel light headed and very very tired. but they are good and challenging which is more than i can say for some of the leactures this term.
but not gonna grip God is good and i am were he wants me at this time.
had a good day today really gonna leave it at that

sitting in Kats room bit wired being on msn and being at college good though. just done all the readying for tomorrow although i had meant to start the essay i do not think my head can take anymore tonight so will get down to it friday have the books out or at least some of the books out so it want be that hard.
get it done over the weekend yikes the first essay off the year don't even feel like am properly back at college yet.

i just missed my train playing around on evotions ooops will have lunch before i go now and spend all afternoon and evening in College instead of all morning and afternoon.
something smells bad in here not sure what it is though.

tired it is that lightly un-healthy feeling tired that happens after college. although it has been a good day. although like i usealy do i forgot that i was suposed to bring goodies for fellowship groups so had a run around the corner to the shop and bought a box of qualty street.
also got a wireless network card which means i can sit on msn in the college i will let you amagin the possiblityes of that. :-)
so now the only thing between me and bed is time it is good.

just had a really good Monday night YF we had some new members and chated about how we can do the ecrad chicken thing. they are very exsited about the hole thing which is possitive.
have washing up to do don't really want to do it but such is life.

This is Mr Darcy my prezie from Gordon to keep me company when i have bad dreams *smiles to self feel all warm and fluffy* 

had a really good day yesterday!!!!
the service went well was so nervouse with my talk never done one quite that tecknecal before i mean never used powerpoint before but it worked really well ment that everyone was consentraiting more on the screen than on me.
was very blessed by the people at church. they did the normal embarissing thing of sinning happy birthday. But also don't think i have ever received that many presants and cards was so lovely.
I came home and started my roast dinner talked to my mum and Gordon came over. we spent the afternoon evening watching x-men.

Band practise went well although don't think i am 100% couse i felt rotten for a very good part of it hope that i can get through tomorrow and monday not keen on missing work messing up my scedual was not the PLAN oh well such is life.

well what a week. wenesday was a mix of both good and bad situations.
I was on my way to college and talking to my mum when she lets slip that my dad had had a heart attack a not that sunday gonge but the sunday before and was still in hopistal waiting on some tests. so that was not plesant i am still in abit of shock. But the party was good great to see Steph even though i sent her to the wrong restrant and the lots of people came so that was good.
thrusday felt ill all day possibly due to all the stress. but the delourse concert helpt with that you know exersize and all that and my young people are great they always cheer me up.
Yesterday didn't really have any will to do anything work realted so i moved furniture around and cleaned the flat it needed it although didn't get as far as the bathroom but will do that this eveing that way i will have a lovely clean place to chill out in tomorrow afternoon after the frist youth service so exsited.
Am i the most boring person in the world couse all i want to do on my birthday is slob about and watch dvds with my boyfriend? think some people think i am oh well.

bissy day today but not much happend to exsite people it was just college. although spent the most of the day avoiding coffee drinkers like the plage bit of a jippy tum (ladyes issues).
yesterday went shopping for the party and sorted out Kats prezzi but want talk about that till she has opended it. :-) going to bed soon yay

wow talking to morris on-line isn't amazing you can be sitting in Glasgow talking to someone in rwanda as if they were in the next room. love morris he is a great guy. one of the big brothers from my time in Uganda

this was a good day. smiles all round.
The pathfinders session went well this morning we had a good meeting about the service next week quite exsited about that.
then had to cancel YF which was a shame but it was for the best ment the stuart got the night off which was best couse he wasn't very well.
feeling quite warm and fluffy just watched mansfeild park exerlant film gonna do the dishes and go to bed and read.
study day tomorrow such joy.

just back from band practice it was good it was long but good. sadly lots of people who said they were able to go did not go so it was not as good as it should have been.
oh well not much one can do about it so i am not gonna do anything about it other than remind everone about next weeks practice.

My evening with steph was great we went to Wagamungas (behind the tron church if people in Glasgow want to know) in memory of Noelle. such a good restrant. then we went to the Cehlie which was so much fun danced every dance exsept one and that one was only due to lack of partner. Think the college Cehlie is such a good idea it breaks down barriers and is the start of meny friendships.
looking forward to next years already!
then came home and waited for water to heat up as i was not going to bed with out a bath. and even if i was would not of been able to sleep couse my back was really really badly hurting gonna have to go to the ciropractor i think getting rediculouse.
today is fun fun fun. study session have to go the college for that and then band practice and then well prep and sleep i guess. Gordons back today :-) but wont get to see him till monday :-( never mind such is life.

My evening with steph was great we went to Wagamungas (behind the tron church if people in Glasgow want to know) in memory of Noelle. such a good restrant. then we went to the Cehlie which was so much fun danced every dance exsept one and that one was only due to lack of partner. Think the college Cehlie is such a good idea it breaks down barriers and is the start of meny friendships.
looking forward to next years already!
then came home and waited for water to heat up as i was not going to bed with out a bath. and even if i was would not of been able to sleep couse my back was really really badly hurting gonna have to go to the ciropractor i think getting rediculouse.
today is fun fun fun. study session have to go the college for that and then band practice and then well prep and sleep i guess. Gordons back today :-) but wont get to see him till monday :-( never mind such is life.

had a really good day at college yesterday the frist lecture was abit weak but never mind that for the moment. Kat and i skipt worship and went had a accountabliaty time and prayed for each other was really cool felt so much better afterwould.
We met the new lecturer in our placment ceminar Graham was on heart and soul which was really cool. He was the guy who came and encoured me when i was having a really bad night so glad that he is on the staff.
then darells leacture was exerlant!
after all that helta scelta down to the train station for tea with the patons which was stue love stue.
Finaly was totaly blessed when pheona took me to argos to get a heater for my bedroom and then to ikea and spoiled me rotten because it is my birthday soon.
so had my frist good nights sleep since the nights got colder feeling so much better for it as well. everthing looks nicer when you are not suffering from sleep deprevtion.
today have loads to do and am not sure were to start but never mind am missing Gordon but he is back Saterday although not sure when i will see him but it will all come out in the wash and that is the only thing i am alittle sad about today. so for a change it really truly is all good

Went to see De-Lovely this afternoon with Holly sent shivers down my spine from the very start it was a brillent film to the point of tears at the end because it really was that sad.
My brother is skating on thin ice at home which is making me very sad he is being missguided it is not him. But it is him who is allowing this person to guide him away from his family. Actualy really really upset about it all it is the frist time i have ever phoned him and he hasn't been on the other end of the line.
so rather sad this eveing this is one of those times i wish i was closer to home.

was so tired this morning when getting out of bed was a mega event i think its harder when your room is cold but nethertheless i got out of bed and maniged to reach the train.
college today was great really really enjoyed the classes today law and naritive with Ted in the morning and human development with Ken. lucky Teds was intresting really or i would have fallen alseep. badly need to sort this sleep thing out now can't live like this i know i complain about being tired all the time but at the momet every time i leave my bed i feel like i have done a 12 hour shift maybe getting a heater for my room will help i hope so will keep you informed of course you exspected nothing less.
was going to go pics tonight but there is very little i have not seen and iver would go to at all or would not go to on my own. just a big wimp arn't i never mind better go cook my dinner ttfn.

arrrrrrrrrrg YPFC were arrrrrrrrg tonight well really they wernt that bad. But arrrrrrrg well we had a really good session then they raised the name question again at the very end. the wish to change the name cose they don't like YPFC anymore. I have problems with changing it because all the adverting is YPFC but because it was the end of the session i said we would talk about it the next time but still the arguments raged. so slightly cross and stressed with them all.
the rest of the day was okay my student loan hasn't come in still and i found out why they forgot to put me on the list of people for the college to aprove so i was not aproved so i am again stint not my folt though this time yay.
best go to bed and be ready to get up in the morning for college.

just come back from caterlys it was really good the guy was a good speacker and said some really insightful things on relationships. although not quite sure about some of the rules he laid down 'don't take your shoes of' seems alittle exstreem.
band practice was good tonight although we need them to focus more. it is all good.
then in the middle of the Alpha talk had this sudden vission of the oven turned on and a horrid feeling in the pit of my stomerk. was given a lift home to cheak and much to my releife i am not that stupid it wasn't on just look like a bit of a pleb. oh well it's nothing less than what people exspect from me.

sudnay morning and should be doing writing thought for the week but am having a thinking moment so blogging is okay. honist
had a bissy weekend we went to the commisioning service on friday night had a mega fit of the giggles for most of it. James lead the worship which was exserlant and at the end played your love is amazing to a I think it was a nivana tune it was a great way to end and so not troditional.
then Gordon and i went to the pics and watched man on fire which was quite grusam but okay.
sat and talked with the girls till the early hours. was not suprised when i woke up not feeling my best really. then we had a four hour study session with simon and ian was really helpfull means that when i do the reading it want just go in one ear and our the next. went to see shark tale not the best film i have ever seen really not that funny.
came home had a bath and went to sleep without doing any of the work i was supposed to do so on to the devotion. yay

spent my morning running around garages with fraza they are not keen on taking my mini on. think it might be dead but will keep trying.
just had a rather large lunch with Gordon and have come back to the college feel more and more like i live here all the time i know that that is the joke but honistly this is getting silly.

yay frist day of lectures down and have survived. although head is alittle woosy from all the information it has just received.
Really strange being in with the 3rd years though oh well will soon get used to it.
although our frist leacture this morning was a clasic as we had to sit in a semi circul and i was close to the leactura so felt alittle stared at and so wished that i had a cushion to hide behind next week will just sit with laptop on my nee problem solved. well sort of.
had a giggle fit in worship which lasted through placment seminars such is life.

went into town today to get a book for college and drink hot choclate with Gordon which was nice.
then i went and bought some clouths hate clouthes shopping and am rubbish at it. as today showed as i didn't get all the things that i needed oh well such is life.
pottered around this afternoon and did the food shopping.

day of fellowship today was okay bit long really though and felt very very very tired all the way through. infact i felt like i had just done a week of camp thats how tried i am.
But it was good and i met my buddie could be fun doing this hole buddie thing.
then went and got my car from garage and find that they have pocked a load of holes in the wing could they not just have pointed out it was rusted through now when i go between garages to get quotes i am quite likley to be pulled over by the police not amused not amused in the slightest.
now am home and it is a mess but i don't realy care will clean tomorrow gonna do something mindless and stress free for a bit have a bath and probly head for my bed and an early night. the joys

My life back at college weired seeing everyone and a load of new faces but most fun as well.
very tired again but such is life i don't really remeber when i have been to college not being alittle tired so thats just normal.
band went really well yesterday although Big John who is leading it wants them to be ready to go at four as aposed to being there by four and ready at four fifteen thats okay. Looks like i am singing mind maybe not the best but there are not really enough vocals for me just to sit and be a audeance.
can see pictures of the practice ending up on the internet Liz was in with a camra it is all good really it is.
the young people were really high after being at fire starters that weekend or thouse of them that are going this year are really high anyhow. quite exsiting looking forward to seeing the grouth spurt in them yay.

Good service this morning Harvest is always nice and we had so many young people in church that we didn't quite fit into the pews that we normaly fit into quite cool. although slightly annoyed with them that they wernt dancing during the bouncy worship that we had this morning they all stood very dignifyed and sang nicley hummmmm.
over sleept this mornign woke up at seven rolled over the next thing i new it was ten fifteen eeeek needless to say i was in alittle bit of rush.
but am very tired, still have sleept alittle this afternoon. but not much not good at sleeping during the day. frist youth worship band practice this afternoon quite exsited about that. yay

youth cafe was great tonight we had some new faces and some old faces and lots of things for both types of faces to do.
still stressed will all look better in the morning will bath then sleep and that will sort it all out. hope nothing else happens tonight thats all nightmare alurt worried that will sleep badly tonight don't think i can really take a bad nights sleep.
bissy day tomorrow ttfn

cars are a pain as well. problem being that i am slightly more found of my car than i am of the internet. It has failed the MOT and guy in the garage ses that it is not wise to fix it but Rob ses that it is so i have given him the number of the garage and will let them fight it out. been crying so my eye hurt not in the mood to do all the thing that i have planed to do this afternoon. but i have to because my time will be limited on monday as we are at college all day which means the things i normaly do on a monday have to be done today. have to be emily they do (she trys to motavate herself without much sucess) oh well devtions here i come.

the internet is a pain in the behind and that is no mistake. aspeshaly when your spelling is not the best in the world.
oh well such is life.
sitting on needles at the mo as i havn't hurd back from the garage about my MOT so peterfiyed that there is gonna be something drasticly wrong with my car that would suck really it would.
had my hair cut this morning which means it feels all nice but i bet as soon as i leave to house it will rain and so it want feel quite so nice anymore.
not much else going on really.