last day of term

well it was our last day of our last first term today and it was not the best really. started off okay not having any classes to go to and a placment seminar with steve which was good although was told to keep some of my negitiaty about life to myself.
then came back upstairs and wrote the intro the my final essay which was good.
then christmas lunch which i love it is always such a good spread although every year we have had to leave early slightly unfair as first and second years haven't don't know about Gordon's year.

this is wear it all goes down hill though we go upstairs our pudding in hand as there is not time for us to eat it in the actual lunch. to find that the college had acutaly forgotten the indignaty that they had inflicked on us by giving us an assesment on this day and not provided a video camra to record said assesment and not given us a projector so that all our clever videos and powerpoints could not happen. so our assesments started only after an exstra half an hour of people fafing about and not bothering to leave the lunch to help us grrrrrrrr.

i was last and it didn't go so well got a bit confused through most of it but ho hum its over now.

it never seems to end

just had a few very hard days infact a very hard week. the room is spinning currently which is not good and had a high tempterture last night.
i think it must be the end of term i am so tired i could quite happly curl up and go to sleep for a month was praying this morning that Jesus would come back just so i didn't have to cope any more guess i should really have taken today off ill but they finaly got round to interveiwing me in the church so thats over and done with only have been working there four months.
we have caturlyst tonight as well which i had forgotten about but i have one more week to survive with as much grace as possible (that is not losing my temper getting oveerly stressed and not getting drasticly ill) then i go home admitadly not the most restful of place but well sometimes a change is as good as a rest and i am looking forward to seeing my brothers.
yesterday was good although i spent most of it asleep on gordons bed not well i don't know. but it is nice that that is somthing i can be around him in a way not having to put a brave face on stuff all the time is what makes us work. went to see narnia which was just like i emangined it from the books was so pleased. not pleased to leave Gordon at the bus stop though i hate leaving but i guess you have to leave to have to exsitment of coming back. looking forward to next saturday which is when i am next seeing him for definate.

hummmmm

i may have finished the two essays for the 13th which is good i am in two minds about handing them in maybe i should keep them and re-read them tomorrow and hand them in although there is something to be said for not having them there any more aspeshaly since we have this visit from steve tonight which may be stressful. hummmm not sure not sure not sure. there is also the fact that Gordon was gonna have a look at the exergsis and tell me if i was thinking in the right dirrection. hummmmmmmm
i don't know i may phone him in a minuet and see. although i doubt weather he will pic up as he is at this confrance thing.

next chrismas number one buy it

the JCB song yay

a great night

SRG was wounderful tonight the kids were lovley we decorated a christmas tree made cards hovered and enjoyed ourself witht he kids.
and we had a nice chat and cuppa although i only drink water afterwoulds.
feeling better

ouch

so had another tuff meeting and went out with linda for some retail theopy got Robs prezzie and part of Gordons yay. but in tescos as i was putting down the bags i was carring to get somthing from the shelf i think i pulled a mussel i am now stuffling to straiten my arm ouch ouch ouch.

straining agenst the walls that trap me

feeling frustrted with church life the people i work with everything in essance. don't you hate it when people don't do the things that they are supposed to and then tell lies to get them out of troble. arrrrrrrrrrrrrg
then i come back to the college to find that andy is putting up a notic calling my kichen to his flat for a meeting to discuss the discusting state that it is left in all the time i walk in there and nealy cry i am so angry it is fowl horrid i can't cook in there i have only cooked in there twice this week and i refuse to clean up after people i am sorry that is not my job i have enough trobble keeping my own life strat.

okay possitive stuff i have to stop rnting Gordon and i had a great day yesterday did our christmas shopping although that was stressful it is so nice to have the most of it out of the way and done yay only two gifts to get now.
then we had a very nice tea with one of the local ministers and her husband but so tired after all that stuff. urg

from one thing to another to another to another

so i had diffculty getting out of bed this morning but i maniged got to school to find the teacher off ill and another teacher there i sat and talked to her and some of the other support staff for the first period and then went and talked to some young people in the corner for the second it was great fun we covered lots of stuff from art theater to realtionships.
then i came home to prepare disipleship group and Gordon Phoned and confused me about trains but it was all okay now although it meant disipleship group was not as well prepared as it could have been.
But dispite that it went well.

Free Ipods

Hey if you click on the link above (the bit that is in oringe and says free ipods) and sighn up for it you may get a free ipod which would be really cool. It is Gordon who has friends who have tryed this out and they have received and there are some good deals on the sight anyway have a look. aperntly you have to get five people to sighn up for it.

601

I just glansed at my blog post count and I have reach 601 posts my goodness how sad am I.

so had an okay day yesterday was not able to settle down to study in the morning becuase i was so exsited about going to see Gordon. So i packed up my books and traveled over with the intention of studing there.
well it did happen after cleaning up Gordons flat. It was so nice to see him although he was really tired *roles eyes*
we went out to a shoping sencter in livingston which was okay personly would rather have stayed in aspeshaly since the time we spent there ran over and we ended up on the wrong bus and so i ended up staying later than we had intended and i am now exsorsted.
but it all worked out okay in the end we talked about some important stuff.

now i just have to get through the rest of the day with grace and smiles when my body is saying sleep or cry.