shouldn't really still be up

shouldn't really still be up at all but have so much still to do and actauly so awake that i will not be asleep. so making packed lunches for the train in the morning. oh what joy.

college was good yesterday went to a japaness restraint in the eve which was nice and then you would think i would know to sleep but didn't so sleepy today went and got the reading for next weeks class and have sat at home and gotten on with it wile just not feeling 100% again. urg
my meeting with pat this morning was good i really enjoy siting and chatting with her.

good good

the pathfinders session went really well this morning it was really rad couse it fitted in with what Gav talked about in YF tonight it is amazing how God works through the most odd situations.

my lunch with fiona johns was really nice as well we took Sarah and her friend to a fun day at a sports center and found randomly that Cara from my schools placement was painting faces it was really nice to see her outside of work.

holly and gav hung out for a wile and we had a good long chat about life love and laundary which was nice.

Pats party

So we had a really good time last night Pats Party was really cool. they had a cehli (am really gonna have to learn how to spell that word) although the band didn't call the moves during the dances which made it quite hard for the English amoung us and i think for some of the Scots as well. Gordon came and it was great fun to dance with him. although we had to leave early as the last train went a long way before the party ended.
but arrrrg came home and checked my mail just to find that somewere along the line communications had brocken down and i was meant to be leading pathfinders in the morning but ho hum got out the youth work magazeen andstarted addapting one of their ready to use prorams. could have done with out that but it doesn't matter.

its not my birthday

had the most random post this morning got a birthday card. which is random couse my birthday is in October but thats not the truley random bit the truley random bit was that they were concratulating me on my 80th birthday hummmmm.

just had a supervsion meeting with bill but have messed up the times or the days or something in my head as it is saturday and i was meaning to go to the libery after this meeting which takes me an hour to get to and closes at 1 in the afternoon so i would only get about ten minits before i was kicked out so gonna clean the flat and go in the libary monday morning instead.

Pats party tonight which should be good looking forward to getting dressed up for it.

tired

the meeting went well last night it wasn't as painful as i was exspecting at all. spent the morning in college talking to steve and then gordon and i went out for lunch. at a very badly run chinees restront was not impressed. then went to govon hill which was good althought he kids were totaly random all night am already starting to develope good realtionships with them and i have only been there one day i like this work. gonna spend the night curled up watching west wing and eating chocolate now though.

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feeling quite sentimental about uganda today think it is because i scaned most of my pictures in and have them on my screen saver. but it was the best time of my life ever never had so many friends never did such random things like washing onse hair in the rain and it made my relationship with God so much stronger than it had ever been before. YFG love you all miss you wish i had a decent picture of all of us. 

essay sucsess

well it has been a good day today which is really good after the total low that i have been brought to over the last few days.
talk to steve and he sorta reasureed me about tomorrows meeting but i think i have come to terms with it with alot of help from God and my Friends. we will see
then got my curriculum desing essay mark back 70% which is a A!!! then i found out that i don't have to re-right the church meaning and mission essay although that is only pervisaly it might change but if i don't hear anything about it again i don't have to do anything about it again.
so that is such good news only have one more essay that means before i am all cought up which rocks. again so much God he is so wounderful.
then had a really nice meal with joyces across the road and a really lovley talk with my mum in which she proved that she can be a dippy as me yay i am not alown.

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sorry world

been so ticked off have been taking it out on anyone and everything that happens to get in my way so if i have hurt your feelings today i am sorry. still feeling grotty from yesterday.

well today has been alittle frantic got up went strate into college to the libary to find the reading for tomorrow one of the books wasn't there which annoyied me but i am reasured that it was not the most important book.
then went upstairs and got stressed with Gordon for no real resion other than i am in bad mood.

came home and got on with editing a video for tonights group it is not the best but it will do it is sertainly better than anything i have done for this group before. now am gonna finish preparing this group and get on with reading for tomorrow and the next essay.

my mum is weired

yes she is she just sang the intire song 'oh lord its hard to be humble, when your perfect in every way.' to me hummm

arrrrrrrrrrrrrg

okay am not impressed with my church today. but will start at the start and end at the end as always.
spent last night at college it was nice to see Gordon although he was so tired was kicked out of his room quite early so he could go to bed. Kat and i had a nice natter before we went to sleep.
then Kat and i walked down to the station together and i went into work. the pathfinders session went well and i had an enjoyble after church period getting people to say what features they had inherated from their perants.
this is when things went drasticaly downhill dougie takes me into the old youth room and leaves me in there to go get bill. then they tell me that we are going to have a meeting and that the college knows about it and that the college had told them to tell me to bring a friend.
am quite worried by all this just been on the phone to various people claming myself down. i need to find someone who is free on wenesday to come to this thing with me, which is harder than it seems most people i trust are working.
I don't know i am probley making a mountain out of a mole hill but if this is not a bad thing then why did they tell me about it in such a formal way nothing we do is normaly done in such a formal way.

so excited

my dad just sent me two cds and a dvd but the exciting bit is the first cd i unraped from the large amounts of sallitaped bubblerap. THE MAGIC FLUTE which is the first oprea i ever went to see admitadly i have only been to two operas but i have listened to quite a few on cds and radio and so forth. but i love the magic flute it actualy makes you laugh so much. and my origonal copy was stolen some years ago with all the other contents my bag so am over the moon and whats even better is that this version is in english.
the dvd was the merchant of venice which is also very cool so looking forward to seeing it again as i would have loved to see it more than once at the pics but didn't manige it.
oh oh oh my clarinet will be fixed soon as well.

last night was a blast lots of music and really nice to catch up with steph from my monday night YF she has changed so much God is so good.

vegie tales rocks

so its been abit of a bissy day really got up and and went up to Suzies collecting Kat on the way and we had a meeting about how we can help Kat with Audio Epidemic which is good. then went into college got out a load of comentreis on exodus so that i can get on with writing the next essay on monday with no hassle. Not gonna write it this weekend couse i could do with a bit of a breack from accidemeor.
then had lunch with Gordon which was lovley although we went to pizza hut but i can deal with that. oh oh oh and he gave me two veigie tales sing alonge cds which he then assursed me didn't cost much they are really cool :-)
then have gone to the church and tidied up the youth room got ride of all the out of date posters and notices from the wall also cleaned up the shelves and found a lot of craft stuff i didn't know i had score!!
tonight going to cafe neos at newton mearns with steph none of the other kids could come but it should be a laugh anyhow. i am quite happy today which makes a nice change.

just for my lovley Jo bean here is a picture my Gordon. isn't he lovley :-) actualy love him so much 

3 down 4 possibly 5 left

here is the next istalment on the hole essay writting tally. history is done its not done well but none of them have been and the fact that i was without all my history books that are gethering dust in rushden didn't help. but i feel better with it sitting printed out here.
oh well now have to do prep for a few hours.

food with nice people

just been to drumchaple to some of Gordons friends for tea. which was nice if tireing. why is it that strangers make me so tried and i don't mean physical tired i mean gonna cry tired because i have used up all my emotional energy in talking to them.

fruit

question? if you are suposed to get five portions of fruit and veg a day and an apple counts as a portion some apples are smaller than others so do you have to eat two of the smaller apples to get your proper portion? hummmm should really be thinking more about my essay than this shouldn't I.

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why is friends playing when my dvd player is off?

sereal moment at i am getting up. turn the tv on to see what happening in the world and the theme tune for friends comes on and i stand there trying to work out how friends is playing when my dvd player is turned off. of couse it is morning tv but i found it very odd.
actualy work up feeling refreshed this morning which is good :-) not happend for a long time the drugs are working.

i know i am clumsy okay

oh my goodness what a supremley orfel day. although slept okay for a change and got off to college in time. well Gordon an i ended up having a very emotional convosation about our future which is fine we are still together but we missed the first part of class oops but we are improtant as well.
then class and in worship time kat and i ended up crying in our accounterbility time i think it must be me.
class was good but long and the wisdom teeth thing is not gone yet and i have a headake on the way joy of joys.
got really annoyed at abe as well he created a skipping rope with his computer power cable and i tript up which was not fun the end up getting it court on my bag the next time i pass and he makes the comment that i have no co-ordination. which is true but he did not say it in love so it really really made me mad. i have a problem people should not make fun of me for it. and when life is hard and i am tired this problem gets worse. probley over reacting but there you go.

two down five possibly six to go

right thats two essays handed in now i have one more from last term to write at least one re-sit and three for next term i think although it may be more and another possible re-sit although the college havn't gotten back to me about that yet.

then on top of that i have an amazing lot of youth work to do including helping at a sleep over which i should probley not be doing but ho hum.

saw Gordon this morning which was nice although it was saddley for a very short peroid of time, but that looks like the only sort of time we are going alown together this week which makes me very sad. as i haven't actualy seen him properly for ages infact i don't know how long anymore. but surley it can't be this mad for much longer or at least thats what i hope.

church ect

so Pathfinder this morning was intresting although got alittle frustraited with some of the opinions aired i guess everyone has a right to their veiw though so i shouldn't.
really havn't sleept well again so my mood is not the best it can be which might exsplain some things really.
going to see the this tony anthony guy again today yesterday was brilliant but i suspect that today will be prity much the same again. even so it will still be good.

catching up

so the circus skills workshop at merrylea went well on thursday night although it was alittle bit of a rush only had about 6 minits with each group so speed teaching.
then my wisdom teeth started to hurt and i got pritty much no sleep the last two nights yesterday finished the essay for community resourcing its not very good but hopfully will do.
today have spent the hole day cleaning the flat feels so much nicer now no piles of ironing waiting to be done ect. suposed to be going to this tony anthony thing tonight but am feeling quite ruff due to the lack of sleep so not sure if i am going to make it. oh well.

jolly good

well antony has gone home now and am gutted it is very sad isn't it.
went shopping for some circus skills stuff for tonight which is not as fun as it sounds really as it was hailstones and sleet for most of the time i was outside. also droped my clarenett off to be fixed which is good will be able to play properly agian in a few weeks.

Joseph

so Ant and i went to see Joseph it was brill although the lead was alittle more sothern than i was exspecting. it was really impressive though the lighting was good the sets were fun i enjoyed it very much and so did ant.
mum phoned us durning it and when we finaly got through to her she said she was having an amazing time in america which is good to.

bad dreams

been up and down all night with some really bed nightmares i mean i have been having sleep troble for ages now but last night was really really bad and i don't know why which sucks.
going to the docs about it again today but have a feeling there is nothing more he can really do about it all. sure thing will get better when there is less stress so when i don't have two essays for last term to write and and two for the term before. although i get to hand one in today as well. Ant and i are being boring geeks again today and spending the afternoon eveing watching lord of the rings exstended eddition back to back it will be 11 hours of nurdum in the youth workers flat today.

so much going on

church this morning was good. running around so many notices to give so many things that are going on and i think perhaps to many things for some people.

it is all good though easter is such a dull holiday so i am glad there are plenty of things going on.

YF and church tonight as well.

so our meal out last night was okay although the chiness buffet was not the best one that we have ever been to. and we were subjected to bad kareoky before our meal. was so sad to say goodbye at the end of the night Gordon went off again this morning which makes me even more sad couse i want see him for a hole other week.

got the frist draft of my essay done now just have to go over it and polish it up and its done. we went to see vailent which was not the best they were trying to be funny and not maniging.
now have to prepare a session on the pharisees and cook a meal for my brother.

curls

well took ant to the hair dressers today he looks alot better. my apointment was later in the afternoon so left him there and came home and cleand the minging minging bathroom that was attached to my house. the kichen will be the next victim of the cleaning frenzy.

i think my hair dresser got alittle over exsited when i said that i wanted some curls in my hair feeling alittle large in the head department.

now am avoiding writing the rest of this essay, it is hard, i am so bord of it.

although looking forward to tonight going out for food with Gordon it is the only time i am gonna see him for the next week humph silly placment camp thing.