Caterlyst was great last night did some really good networking afterwoulds as well.
we will hopefully be doing some stuff with Cathcart Baptise Church at easter. which will be good good good.

then Jenny Kat Simon Gordon and I went to Jenny's perants house and played all night. her perants are away so she was house sitting. they have two very cute dogs who snore. we played with guns in the gardan at 1 in the morning and really annoyed the naybours (i mean it they came out and told us off and not politly).

we watched wicka park till 3 then talked till 5 so feeling alittle wrecked today but it was well worth it really feeling so much better and relaxed. kat and I had a good moan this morning which was good as well.

kay best get ready for bible study later

Youth band Practice went really well today Jan martindal came and sorted them all out. so it actualy really did go well.
although am currently missing the praise service which was tonight so that i can deal with caterlyst and going out with everyone tonight. sounds alittle messed up i know but i am guessing that I serve God better when i am happy and i get really, really, really upset when i feel like i am missing out on stuff my friends are doing. So i have done all the things that my youth work requires of me today which also means that i can take time to be with friends and hopfully that will lift me out of this dark pit, that i have let myself fall into, or it will at least help lift me.

Gordon and i had a really, really lovley meal on Friday, went to another indian and ordered far to much food :-).
it was so worth fighting through my headake to do although was still in pain yesterday morning which meant that i did not have the energy to go home or do any of the work i had planed to do. means between last wenesday and yesterday i am so behind that i am woundering how i am going to manige to catch up could cry. Although it was nice to sit and watch Gordon do his day to day stuff. but i think i was alittle bit of a nusance when it came to him studying because i feel asleep on him oh well.
we didn't go to ellem because i didn't feel i could cope with the lighting i feel bed about that because i wanted to go and i stoped Gordon going and he wanted to go it sucks.
today is going to be hard i am leading pathfinders this morning which is so funny. because i am so bearly consous i wounder weather it is going to be okay it is quite an intresting subject this morning so thats good.

ouuuuuuuuuuuch my head is really bad today had a bit of a emotional stress day yesterday so am paying the price. wish my body would stop doing this to me oh roll on heaven when we get hole new bodyes and stuff what fun it will be not to have a malfunctioning brain.
anyhow apart from that it has been a good day ended up staying at the college couse i missed the last train home last night but that was fun we had random food all night. we went to jennyes wes owen concert last night as well and that was great she has such a lovley voice. so did the other girl who was playing but didn't know her. then Gondon and i watched equlibrium and i unloaded alot of the stress of the day to him which was good i guess although shouldn't really put it on other people sorta need to learn to deal with it other ways.
woke up this morning with a rageing headake and went back to cathcart to find that my church had underpaid me so i had alittle bonus waiting for me in the form of a chequ so that was a boost. then picked up some wires for Gordon and came back into college were we had a welcome back lunch for Alison who had been away to shrelanka helping with the Tsumsami effort. it was great fun although don't mention fairy tales.
this was abit of a garbeld post but never mind hope you enjoyed it.

been abit of a useless day again not doing well on wenesdays ment to spend the morning cleaning and the afternoon studying but it didn't work out like that at all. tryed to tidy but found that I just didn't have the motovation to do anything so sat and did crafts instead.
college tomorrow so should get of to bed soon but am not actualy that tired.

really really bissy day today college was good enjoyed classes although got really really upset with the afternoon one.
we had a visit from LGBT people (this is a steve mallon class) which was fine really I mean it made me uncomfortable but i can deal with that. What upset me is when we were talking about when the young people who fall into this catergary are bullied they have a much worse time than any other group of young people who are bullied. The guy seemed to think that isolation was a unque thing to them. Which made me so so so so cross because i know from personal expserance that, that is not the case. Yes they do get a hard time and thats not right but it is not any less or more destructive than any other young person exsperance of bullies.
but such is life i guess will talk to steve about it next week.
The youth team meeting went well in the evening.

so intresting day. spent most of it not know were i was going. knew were i was but not which way to go so that means i wasn't lost cose i new were i was going.
docs this morning which is why i was out of the house it was in a diffrent place than the last time.
YF was good lots of intresting discursion infact so much intresting discusion that we didn't do much of the other stuff that is part of YF. oh well.

feeling very low think its because i am so tired and in pain.
band practice went well although some of the young people were getting alittle stressed.
then evening service was great and so was YF.

Cathcart Trinitys website is working again go have a look.

Charles Rennie Mackintosh  

Youth Cafe went well last plenty of young people some who i have never met before which is incoriging. i put of a load of craft stuff and just let them get on with making stuff they wanted to make some intresting creations came off the table and we had that old fav the cirus skills stuff out which they always like.
my meeting with bill was really good yesterday came out feeling uplifted and affurmed which was good.

so church today should be good feeling headaky still but Syndole will help with that and give me and engergy boost. there is a band practice this afternoon and so am gonna be exsosted by the end of the day so glad i was not at the college last night otherwise would not have maniged well. can't wait till wenesday when i can rest properly and get ride of it, it is not good to get a headake on friday.

wow such a bissy cuples of days.

Mary and Mat came and it was great we chated till late at night and then they slept late wile i did some reading in the morning and we went into town met up with steph. We had tea at the willow tea room which the Mackintosh themed place it was really really lovely.
I then left them with steph met up with Gordon and we both went to tea with the Patons and Mcdirmeds. which was as always lovely.

we both walked round to have a look at Cathcart Baptise which is one of the churches that Gordon is aplying to for a job.
then left him at the train staition and went home were mary and mat were waiting for their lift to the place were their family were having their holls in argile. that was fun because the guy did not know were he was going and we did not know were he was but through the four of us he arrived here.

yesterday spent the morning at the college althoughw as really dopy then came back and had Tea with Shela shaw and Family which again was lovley and headed back into town for a games night at the college. Ruth Jamie Laura and Pat were all on the platfrom at Cathcart going to the pics so i walked with them as far as the usg and then on to the college.

the games were great fun although alittle painful. fell over three times once was nocked over second time triped up over the person running infront of me and nearly brock my nose on their back. The final one was the most spectaula were play a game called Perue which is a version of sardeens. i was looking around the leacture theater pitch black trip up a step and hit my head on the metal bit of the desk. thought i was okay until the middle of the next game when ended up on the floor with my head between my legs until i relised that eveyone was waiting for me to find them and so went and found them behind a curtain in the libary. then went up and slept on Gordons bed.

still alittle light headed but feeling okay.

well had a rad day yesterday. Cleaned the house and sorted out some of the house and sorted out some paperwork. then was just settling down to have a bit of a quite time and Gordon arrives early oooops should have had the quite time before. we watched the emporance of being ernist and had food it was a really really lovley night.

Today had college both classes were amazing :-) Although steves class was really really challenging he likes to make us squirm i think.

Linda and i went to see magic roundabout it was alittle strange but quite amusing in places.

now am feeling alittle ill so am going to have some food and a bath then go to bed early.

Mary's coming tomorrow!!!!!

If Jesus lived today in the west, would he have only picked men to be his disiples?

chruch tonight was great and YF was great it worked so well with what we talked about in the morning and dougie was leading the sesion and he was no where near my session this morning. God is so Good :-).

this squirrle almost touched my shoe yesterday. It was well cool they are so tame. 

had a near perfect day yesterday with Gordon went to the college in the morning and had lunch which was random stuff from the Marks and Sparks stuff the college gets free everyweek. so it was really really nice.
then we went to the botanic Gardens in the west end. which was lovley although it we did get cought in sevril diffrent showers so got quite wet early on which was the only down side to the day really.
we walked around the green house and looked at all the wounderful plants then walked by the river through the park and got back to the greenhouse in time to miss the next rain shower so so so lovley. then we walked along Buyers Road and looked in some shops.
then we went to dinner at this amazing indian restraint the food was goegouse will go there again deffinatly although a waiter got alittle confused and gave us our bill after our starters it was all okay though we still had our main meal which was lovley.
then to Buggsy Malon which was really well done Youth theater rocks.
was very cold last night and we had a minor adventure on the buses but its nice when its cold to cuddle up although thats nice when its warm.
then we sat on the couch and cuddled for alittle wile before i went to bed.
church this morning was brill we went into the childrens adress which ment that my session was to long but thats life and we got the most important bit over and done:-)

oh oh oh mini YFG reuion on wenesday Mary is coming up so so so so so so exsited

so not gone outside today and acheived very little although have written two of the three letters i needed to write to the young people. and cought up on the backlog of the washing up and did some washing of clothes. the living room is still covred in paper but thats just life.
gonna do the silly reading now and finish off my prep for sunday just remebered that i am leading the pathfinders in the morning eeeeeeeek and of course YF in the afternoon. oh well best get on with it.

Your Dominant Intelligence is Linguistic Intelligence

You are excellent with words and language. You explain yourself well. An elegant speaker, you can converse well with anyone on the fly. You are also good at remembering information and convicing someone of your point of view. A master of creative phrasing and unique words, you enjoy expanding your vocabulary. You would make a fantastic poet, journalist, writer, teacher, lawyer, politician, or translator.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

not sure about the convincing people about my point of veiw but i like the idea that i am good at phrasing uniqye words and would make a good writer. ummmmmmm although possibly not really its only a bit of fun.

Yay what fun

You Are the Individualist

4 You are sensitive and intuitive, with others and yourself. You are creative and dreamy... plus dramatic and unpredictable. You're emotionally honest, real, and easily hurt. Totally expressive, others always know exactly how you feel.

What number are you?

my goodness i feel ruff but ho hum. sarah is worse again not much fun not much fun at all.
my eye test went okay need a slightly stronger lense this time but not the end of the world was exspensive though.
then hung out at the college with Gordon for the rest of the morning my head was hurting so wasn't the best company i suspect.
got home okay and didn't do anything not cleaned the house not read anything fell asleep and had a bath. I am so usless.

just been very rudley awakened by the postman but my computer bag has come hopefully will help the hole back ack problem. yay. so today have an appointment at the optisions will get photos that i put in last and go the the libarey to get some books as well as cleaning up this bomb site that is my flat parties are hard work before during and after. so bissy bissy bissy

maddness went to college this morning and was not very up for class although what ai attened was good.
fellowship groups was okay i was incharge of worship and it was not the best not very good at leading worship.
then went to the docs about the sleep thing which went well. Gordon and i hung out around the surgary near queens park and had some cakes and stuff at a bakery.
it was really nice.
then back to college and helta scelta back to the flat were i made pancakes and nine people came to my pancake party for thoughs of you who have not been in my flat it was sertainly cosy. the last three kids here had a great time making rude poetry on my fridge door i will not repeat it but it was actualy quite funny.
such a bissy day am soo tired so probley gonna have a bath and go to bed very very soon.

its been a good day had my pastoral time with Wilma this afternoon which was lovley there was a little lady who came and joined us for the first bit but that was quite nice to.
then YF was really good. talking about commitment to God got some good responses from the young people. reading to do now fun fun fun

well am sitting around thinking about food and going to church last night and holls come on-line and wants to come round to hang out well obvelsy was going out to work but said for her to come round and hang out till i came home which she did.
The eve service was amazing Wilma talked about being the people who lead others to the light even if people refused to beleive what we were saying we are still to keep leading the way to the light. then at the end the talk over music was send your fire today which sunddenly turned into a resounding coursouse from the Congreation one hopes that they have being inspired. She talked about sirtual fairs which is something that has been buring in my heart for a wile whenever i see one in town i want to go in and just ask the people in there they would like someone to pray with them. Guess next time i will actualy have to do it.
then we took the young people to the crypt which was great the maim theam was is God good and he used the lion the witch and the wordrob which made me very happy love that book. the main thing that stuck out though was that God doesn't show his will to the people who just want to know it he shows his will to the people who want to do it.
Holly and i then sat up and chatted for the most of the night. which was good :-)

really good morninging the Pathfinders had really good discusion. the i went for a nice long walk in the park with my CD walkman and my camera. it was really really nice the first day for ever that you could walk outside without a coat gloves and scaff. it was really really beautiful God is so good. can't wait to see the first leaves on the trees and the crocases.
oh we are going to have a impromtune pancake party on tuesday so my house is gonna have to go through a big clean more so than normal on monday.

am feeling very aware of how little i truley know about God. it seems the more a learn the less i know.
before i had no idea about the fact that there were so many diffrent veiws of God that people had come to so many conclusions about God and his nature. But now i read some of these things and they all fall so far from the mark that i relise that whatever we do however much we try we can not fully truley know God in all his majesty and power and wisdom and grace and and and and. which is exsiting because however long i live i will never come to the end of the things that i can learn. so i need never really feel stale or unchallenged couse i can just go to wes owen and bye a book and find some new idea and see if it is something that fits into my prospective of who God is.

feeling inspired :-D

woke up this morning with the most dreadful headake can bearly move. think that i went to bed dehydrated last night which is never a good idea idea. although we had such a good night last night it is not the end of the world.
had a relaxed morning yesterday sent Teresha her choclate parcil it was really nice the Gordon phoned me and told me to get my ticket to see ocens 12 for the eve on my way into college but i forgot to ask and he forgot to tell me what time we were going in and then i could not get through to anyone in the college so stood in the pics foyar for 50 mins ouch. then we watched some of run away jorey and played with the Gun so much fun.
then Jenny Linda Simon Kat me and G went to a restraint but it was full and we ended up in the lovelyest italinan. Alison joined us later in the meal i don't know Alison very well but she seem really really nice.
then we went to the pics the film was not the best certainly not as good as Ocens 11 but okay.
Alison gave me a lift home which was good as everyone was nackered at the college and the headake was starting and it ment she didn't have to go all the way home on her own.

wow what a day. well started off by woundering down to the station and having a leasuly stroll to college as we don't have to be in till 10:20 was there about 9:45 and sat and read till people started to turn up. then we alls tood outside our class because it apeared to have been tacken over by theolgy students and waited for steve so he could kick them out. really good leacture with Steve this morning although will have to sleep before i will be able to refect on it properly. then lunch was good sat down and eat my sandwige ith everyone else it is not as much hard work as it used to be sitting in a social setting so thats a good thing.
the afternoon leacture was so boring it was painful and it took so long for it to finish. although placment seminars was really good we had a great discusion about funding and what each of us did for it in our diffrent places of work.
finaly helta sceta down to the station and to the Patons for Tea really nice Gordon came to and we had a fun evening playing riddles and telling each other cheesy jokes. now sitting watching 24 Gordon went strait home as it has been a long long day which is a good thing i think i might sleep okay tonight which i am so looking forward to.

Give it to me straight from the heart
Tell me we can make one more start
You know I'll never go
As long as I know
It's coming straight from the heart

really bad night last had another one were i just could not sleep till about 12 even though physicaly and mentaly exsosted then woke up four or five times. honislty what is wrong with me i do everything i can to calm myself down before i sleep. I read my bible, i pray, i do breathing exersises and i can't complain that my room is to cold any more and yet i still have these problems will i always have them? or are they just a stage in my life? it is so frustraiting although going to a specialist about it all next tuesday so hopefully that will help.
so am sitting here woundering if pat is gonna turn up for you one to one session today doesn't really matter if she doesn't but it would be nice if she does.

it was a good day today we all dressed up. wore my blue dress which i havn't worne for ages and Gordon had found a suite from varouse places he polishes up good. although the funny thing was the steve was taking us to st mungos museam of religion in the afternoon so i looked a real idiot it was fun though. although did not enjoy the content of the trip at all. the museam upsets me on so many levels it is badley layed out it does not have enough stuff in it to justify its exsistance. and on top of that they say that all relgions lead to God and they give a uneven veiw of the christian faith which does not even really give any light into what christain faith is. humph. went to see ladder 49 after college mistake fire films give me nightmares but oh well it was a very good film after all.