Is our bible complete?

Marrion raised a very intresting point in the first bit of this class that i am sitting in. If we found another letter by paul that could be of benifit to us then should we re-jig our bibles to put it in. We evangelicals have a mind set that this is the bible it is the holy word of god and it is complet but people like Luther were relucktant to let Reverlations into the good book. I just think it is an intresting point to think about.

that tuesday feeling

well i thought i felt bad yesterday i was wrong today i feel bad. and it is before 9:30 i am sitting in class and after spending about 3 hours of my sleep time last night over and on the loo (you can interpret that how you like).
also had a very emotionaly sensitive day yesterday spending most of it and i talk every bit of it i didn't spend in the company of other in tears so was in serouse need of sleep.
well hopefully today wil perk up will get some serouse greese and sugar in me next brek i am also in a serouse need of water or liquide of some description juice will do.
class looks quite promising marrion is teaching and she is always very good.

That monday feeling

Yesterday was good although church was so cold my feet went numb ouch. steve offerd me and hutler lunch afterwoulds which was really nice. we had a nice long chat aout life ect and a lovley lunch although it filled me up.
then Chris and Louise piced me up at 3pm to go over to Gordons which was good we sat around and they were hungery so we went out lol all the restrants were not doing the deals they do monday to saturday so we had to get in the ar and go to a very cool indian buffet which we had pritty much to ourselves soo nice and of course i found room although feeling quite fat today.
had our monday meeting which was alittle scaty but such is life now have to write up the minites and thats me for the day not doing srg tonight.

superman returns

look at this trailer how exsited am i

restless

had a bit of a bits and bobs day but i think i have a acheived some stuff infact i know i have. meeting notes for the last team meeting the agend for the next and some other admin for work. i worked out my case study for the next essay and looked through my books and marked out a load of chaptures to read.
I also took my cross stich to the framers to get it framed at last.
what else have read some of mere christainty and had a fairly good quite time. have been watching weepy films all night so i don't think i will be leaving my room as my eyes are all puffy an early night will set me up for a bissy day tomorrow i think so that is the next thing to do.

why does snow make everyone late?

well i woke up late this morning an unueal occurance for me as you well know but i guess i have been stressed and stuff the last few days.
so was running late for work got my shoes on and opened my curtains to discover snow well i then went and changed my shoes to something more apropreate and waterproof and walked my 45 min walk to school.
this morning went so slowly it wasn't funny mainy because i was really tried and have been all day.

su went ok

then came back to the college meaning to hit my reflection and read the chaptures of mere christianity for disiplship group (chris was leading not me) well came in both things went sorta out of my mind. (reflections completly and mere chrisitanity not really but went down on the priorities) and sat in the lounge talking to Graham and Joy very good convo about discworld and noses (don't ask)
did my refection on communication and in about 20 min and rushed out to disipleship group late (the next relection may be on my worsening time manigment) it went okay.
Then linda and i went to the cinima to find the film we wanted to see sold out and nothing on near enough for us to go and see and came back yes that is the sum total of my day so far going to clean my room now.

2 down 2 to go (sort of)

well i handed in the ethical issues essay today even though i didn't beleive that i could possibly do it. just goes to show what God can help us do. although i am pritty sure that it is complet rubbish and that if it passes it will only just pass. the problem was that there was to much to think about you could write books about it.

i had a good day at college today which is the first good day i have had in a long time have all the forms filled out for my agency placement and feeling a lot less stressed in genral it is only a tempory feeling as i will be off to start writing the next essay soon. urg.

team meeting tonight tempers may get fraid then we have coffee afterwoulds it should be good.

the sort of is because the exergsis is in first draft form what fun is this

not running smoothly

okay it is offical my brain is adeled i don't know what i am writting or how i am writing it but i am deturmind that i will finish this essay i will i will i will. this is not the most unacheivable mark i have ever set myself as i have written about 800 words so far today admitdly it is almost bedtime so 400 words before i go to the land of nod i don't know maybe pushing it.

the main problem is that my thoughts are not flowing at all and i think the intire peace of work is alittle shall we say confused and at points away from the point. but i don't know it is the gift of finding the key issues in such a large topic i could easly wright 2000 word essay on this topic which is slightly frustraiting because i can't 1200 words sucks.

see i said things are not flowing properly it is even effecting my blogging although it may not be it might just be how my brain works normaly i just don't notice it. :-)

feeling failure

well we just had our placement seminar which was good steve is great.
but afterwoulds had to ask neil for an exstention on my essay i always feel like such a failure when i play the dylexic card it is like i have this unfair advantage on other people.
don't get me wrong i know they have an unfair advantage on me being born with a normal brain and so forth. but all the same i still feel this way.
maybe it is because i have been told it by my peers and teachers in the past that somehow i believe it now i don't know.
anyhow it is a big pain having to have a exstention it means that all the rest of my work is going to get delayed and so i am going to have to do at least one essay over christmas grrrrrrrr.

are your produccts giving you away?

tehe this was funny i found it in class it seems that my love for caberies has given me away although i am not so keen on the nivea for men as i am not a man ;-).

braveheart

i have been in this fundation in fundraising all day and i am in soooooo much pain. it was very good but i am not sure that i got all that i could have out of it.

am watching bravehert which linda lent me it is fine but what slightly upsets me is that it is the english who are the badies now i know that is fair in a sence but my issue is that it is not the english people who did all these things it is the english king the english nobels (and in some cases the scotish nobles) the english people had just as hard a time of it as the scots, welsh, irish exsept they had not seperate identaty to fight for. Just something to think about really.

christmas is coming

Gordon and I went to see the christmas lights turned on this evening it was very nice the fire works were alittle late in coming but very good and there was a little kid behind us having such an amazing time it was lovley to see.
we also spent the afternoon together and had quite a nice lunch.
we watched some of the cronicals of nania and laughed at how dated it all was. it was a shame that he had to leave early but he had work tomorrow and did i so i guess it is for the best.

horrid person phoned Gordons number having found my phone and hung up before i maniged to find out were they lived or how to get my phone back feeling quite frustraited by that i guess some people are just horrid. i just hope that none of my friends get prank calls.

berevment training

went to a very good corse today i mean like most things there were bad points but i thought it was quite useful.
very tired and in pain now i wish i could easily curl up and god to sleep but i have an an essay and a bible class to do.

feeling low again

not been a bad day but not really been the best day and i am feeling drained and tired through all the things that have gone on. sometimes i wounder am i cutout for this life but i guess if not this life which one.
college was fine it was long but fine.
Gordon and i had some time after college but not enough it never is work well the walking around was abit dissapointing and we had coffee afterwoulds which was exspensive. had quite a nice time chucking a bit of paper too marc though so not the worst really. i don't know i am just genraly low at the mo so very ittle actualy cheers me up.

supposed to be doing something else

so i am sitting at my desk trying to make my essay academic enough to pass urg hate having to find were i found stuff out from. wish i had the sorta head that keeps the knoilge of were i read something as well as what i read. but i guess thats what proper note taking is all about.
been good though today have been to the gym have read two comentreis almost finished my exergisis ready to start thinking about my ethics essay which scarlily is due next thurs.

went to some very good training for fundraising on monday i think we should get this lady to come to the college.
Tuesday had a bit of a stressy day but got a load of work done for placement which i had follen behind with so thats good.

some fun

if you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want, either good or bad.

When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your LJ and be surprised (or mortified) by what people remember about you!

coffee and pancakes

i went to lindas coffee morning this morning was hurendously late partly because i had some horrid dreams about zombies last night felt like i was in dawn of the dead eeek and so feel back to sleep when i had intended to get up and go. also got alittle lost and couldn't find the church. but all was well and Linda seemed to be quite blessed by me going. i also bought one of her personaly decorated christimas barballs very pleased i am getting quite a colletion of christmas decorations.
we are going to the pics in a bit to see wallice and gromit and one other film. feeling alittle overwhelmed by work and stuff at the moment it is almost as if i should not be having a life outside of work and College feeling so guilty about taking time for myself and most of that is tacken up with going to see Gordon which although it is important and i long for it all the time i still need time to myself i guess and i think i may be suffering from not providing myself with that. although things are better now i am going to the gym three times a week so really life is good.

Chill out

well i must be absultuly the most boring person in the world. i took phas ten to teach the young people at church as we were having a chill out session during the service and the young people thought it was soooo dul and just could not be bothered with it. I think it is a great game and that they just didn't want to give it a chance. urg
then had a big cuffufel at tescos as it would not accsept my card even though there is so money in my account.
grrrrrrr
going to go to the ymm at some poin this afternoon and do some more of this essay yay

mad day

so i am just waking up this morning when i get a text message do you wanna go to Ikea today. i go yay jump out of bed into the shower and meet dougie at 9:40 and off we go. i get my bookcase dougie gets a cupple of things for some storige problems he is having.
then we get the thing into my room and i have to go pritty much strait to the school which was really good. I am going to go into the support unit on friday mornings and then doing the su group at lunch time.
it is great although am sooooo tired now as i then put the bookcase together and books on it now am contempleating doing some more stuff for work as i am going to take the day off tomorrow and don't want to feel guilty.

zoned out

sitting in class and am so zoned out it is hurarours keep opening and closing windows on my computer screen for no reasion think i may be annoying Linda somewhat.
hate colds although i am at the end of this one wish it would just go away i am so tired.
no kids came to group last night at all we were exspecting it to be low numbers but none whatsoever was abit of a mixed blessing none of the leaders really showed much enthusiasm for the group so maybe it was for the best.
have the evening off coffee group is on as is cards but i would be working sunday through to friday which is not healthy only problem is that it does not mean that i get a full day free for college work this week at all so everything will be pritty rushed.