My First Day At School

Simon's Cat 'Let Me In!'

Simon's Cat 'Cat Man Do'

feeling a bit better

okay so i am being helped towards the middle of the tree there are good points to my linemanagment and but its better than having nothing there at all.

i don't know though still feeling discoriged and quite low

su was okay but i looked at the wrong verce so was alittle disjointed.

i hope Youth House Group goes well tonight it has the potental to be a good night be genraly it has the potental all the time.

the worst bit is over

superhero is done
vis a vis is done
easter assbly is done

its almost plain sailing until easter is over and thats a really good thing

gordon and i went to see south pacific last night which was great we had such a lovley night was so upset when it came to an end. but then you can't live in a time bubble however much you would like to.

now the wind is blowing

humph so inregards to me earler post that i was stuck at the end of a branch that was beinging to creack.

well this week the wind pickted up so am feeling even more insecure than i was then.

some quite significant stuff kicked off at the school which was one of the envirmoents that i was feeling fairly confident about os it has hit me quite hard.

feeling alittle like i have done something really badly or really wronge at work in jenral which i am sure is not the case.

i have been alittle frustraited and stressed well okay alot frustraited and stressed but which else was there for me to feel. was strating to feel truley abbandond by my managment. i am a person who needs lots of support and help in lots of things and when i don't get that then i mess up.

but now it feels alittle like something has gone wrong so my managment are jumping feet first in an attempt to fix it and they might not really look what they are about to land on. its great they want to help me with these problems but i really do not want them to make these problems into bigger deals than they are already. i would also like to know that they can see that i have done good work for them for the last 7 months and it is not all just this one thing that has gone wrong now. and the thing that coursed it to be an issue in the first place (my communication skills) is not something that is unfixable.

i am hurt enough from the Y problems I hope they can see that and that I need TLC to be the best i can be.

Christian Pat and his Charismatic Cat

this is sooooo funny

the camera that looks through clouths

hehehehe

out on a limb thats starting to creck

feeling very alown at the moment and slightly bereft. if i was doing the blooby tree that we used to use a load in college. i would be far away from everyone else and on a thine branch.

there you go i have done quite a lot to put myself in this possition. the problem is that its happening in every asspect of my life and right now i don't feel like there is anyone i really can talk to about it.

which again is my own fault.

i mean i can talk to different people about different asspects of my life which i guess i should be happy with but what i would really like is to have someone that i could offload it all to and to know that that person would help me find solutions without trying to sort them out for me. i mean i don't need resuce i need support.

school let down

headed into the school this morning but the assembaly that i was supposed to be doing was canceled. this is not a problem really but its slightly frustraiting. i did ask the receptionist if it was on the other day knowing that other peoples assembalies had been cancelled but as far as she new it was on. i wish they would let all their staff know when things have changed but i guess thats really differcult in big schools.

buddies was gerat yesterday and tuesday, su was okay.

just rescued cheery from the inside of the couch which was silly of her to get into there.

emotional moment

get so frustraited with my self sometimes. why is it that when i am tired angry frustraited or anything all i can seem to do it burst into tears. i hate it partly because it is embarrising makes everyone worry get stressed around me. and when i am already tired it makes me even more tired.
basicly spent the whole church service this morning weeping away but hey thats me i guess i have to learn to live with it.

enage tonight which should be good have only limited input this month because was away in Albania when the meeting happend.

not complaining though!