this is Sarah she is very very porly think off her! 

just made the big mistake of cleaning my house and tiding up my paperwork and so losing everything that i had to read for tomorrow. think it might be the teasing that i have been receiving over the cluterted nature of my home from a sertain boyfriend. and if he came round now and say it was still clutered but i just don't see it.
only one came to bible study tonight my wounderful faithful bexs but had to send her home when it became aparent that no one else was coming as she is to young to be in my flat on her own with me. so have been pottering around and doing ironing and stuff. my dvd player has packed in going to see if i can get something to clean it with couse i think it might be that it is dusty inside i hope it isn't brocken to the point that i have to send it back couse i have only just thrown out the box.

bit of a rotten lonley day yesterday. was in plain and up set but ho hum today is a new day the headake is not completly gone but if i take it easy today it should be gone by tomorrow. doesn't help that i went to bed upset but never mind should not happen again today.

Just back from the pathfinders meal recked but have been given a day off work tomorrow so thats good. it was a really nice night although felt rubish for most of it so oh well it was best that i was there. the food at this resraint was really really nice.

such a nice day yestersay. although i had a migrain all day it was still nice. Gordons work was canceled so went over to the college in the afternoon and relaxed wile Gordon got on with some work which was really really nice. think he was quite disapointed that i wasn't the most active of girlfriends but i was in pain. we went to the pictures to see the meet the forkers. which actualy was pure torture the film was not my cup of tea although was not that bad but the fact that it was load was an issue. Then Gordon and i came home and he fixed my telli and worked out that i had a cable to be able that i can move my telli to the other side of the room and cooked me nandoos chicken soooooooooo nice so really good way to end the day.
today have meeting with bill and the pathfinders meal out although i still have the migrain don't think it will be gone before sunday so not sure what i will do if by tonight my head has gotten bad again and i am faced with a bowling ally hummmmmm we shall see.

got all emotional in my meeting with steve at lunch time and he sent me home but that was for the best. spent the rest of the day doing me things which was good. Glad i went to steves class though it was really intresting. all about how we aquire knowlige. he made the really intresting point that because we only have limated knowled and can only aquire limited knowledge that we can have no idear how the mind of God works so we try and put our own undertandings onto god and so limit him. cool!

okay so stayed at college last night holly took me out to the china buffet king which was nice was not feeling that well so didn't to much then spent the rest of the night chatting to holly helen or just sitting next to Gordon wile he rote his essay. don't have to be in class till 10:20 but am really tired and my head hurts alot. oh well such is life might just not go this afternoon depending how well i feel. steve this morning though and that should be good.

finished the essay yay now only have to get through the rest of the night. feeling quite low found out that Sarah is very sick again and everyone at home are really really worried. Pray for her its not easy being Sarah.

College was good yesterday but i am officaly a freak. most people when the forget to set their alarms wake up an hour late and properly refreshed me, i sit up in bed in blind panic at the exsact same time as when my alarm should go off.
then college was good really enjoyed both classes and had fun at lunch taking pictures of holly josh danny simon and jenny for the publisity for the their bands. Although hands started shaking before i finished so got Gav to take the last few photos.
was gonna go to the pics but there were no films that i wanted to go and see on my own so just came home.
My new phone had arrived so played with that for the rest of the night. yes i know it is slightly before my contrat it is out but the other phone is brock and i am not gonna pay to get it fixed and now i am on the same network as my boyfriend and most of my friends so we all win.

YF tonight was good we talked about the body of christ eat popcorn. doing stupid essay that sort of thing. and cleaning the flat although only really did the bathroom and living room. the kichen could still do with some work and the bedroom well i didn't even go in there. tehe such a slob oh well.

YF tonight was good we talked about the body of christ eat popcorn. doing stupid essay that sort of thing. and cleaning the flat although only really did the bathroom and living room. the kichen could still do with some work and the bedroom well i didn't even go in there. tehe such a slob oh well.

the service was brill tonight we got to pic the music at the end of the service cool. YF was good Dougie brother Allan came and talked about becomeing a christian and going to france to live and share his faith amoung the people there which was really cool.
still feeling discouriged from this morning though. wounder why these things get me down for so long.

just had a really bad pathfinders session. We were not splite because well i can't really rember. but that didn't matter because i had mixed up the tapes and listend to the wrong sermon. to top it all off we had two visiters a prospective leader and Gordon so feeling slightly crap about myself at the moment. but ho hum i can't mess up the yf tonight couse i am not really doing anything for it as we have a gues speaker.

had a really good youth cafe tonight lots of young people really good atmosphere random marshmellow game sining happy birthday to dougie which embarrised him well if i have to have it done to me durning every church meeting i go to on mine.
have had quite a productive eveing so am feeling quite happy to go to bed.
so off to bed i go

had to run to the station this morning because i had to meet Linda to get some keys but didn't really want to leave the college but that was not the end of the world. then got home put friends on and the bath woater on and changed out of my clouthes which were still damp from the day before when i put them on and even damper when i ran through the ran in the morning.
then i sat and did work for the rest of the day.
youth team meeting went well although it was long but again not a bad thing.

such a good day yesterday started out alittle pants but got conserably better as time went on.
so started off by getting up alittle late and going to the wool shop to by ribbon for the craft we were doing at Drumchaple in the afternoon although we ended up not doing it. then Pat couldn't come so i got on with some prep. then i went into the town although the trains were all canceled so had to get the bus urk. then spent an hour and a half in the rain looking for sticks for this craft although i did get a guitar tuner so that i can tune my guitar without holly :) love you holly.
then met Gordon and his friend from his old placment which was nice and then we went to Drumchaple and i did circus skills with two of the groups there. which was fun. then we had a china buffet king and watched drawn of the dead which had some really grim bits in it. of course this had to be in the lounge as it was after half ten and cupples are not aloud to be in rooms after that time which isn't so bad but the really anoying thing is that we can't relaxe couse we always have to be awear of who is in the room all the time because of this daft letter from this person who was annoyed by people cuddling. oh well but it was nice to cooch up anyway and for the most part we could do that as people didn't want to watch the movie.

okay so it is 8:10am in the morning and i have been up since 6. what is wrong with me when your tired your suposed to oversleep. oh well should be a good day today got my one to one session with pat then into town and find the stuff to make streamers and then to Gordons work with the circus skills stuff yay.

oh my life what a day feels so long. and have so much to do before i go to bed. But back to today. the snow was really thick this morning when i got up so was one of the frist people to put my prints in it and just wanted to go out and play in it all day. the lectures today were both ace so am happy about that although am very tired and have been all day and it seems i have not been un-tired (can't think of the word) for weeks. so tonight i intend to acheive sertain things so i had best go do them.

feeling better this morning so much to do i relise as i sit here not doing it. lots of prep think i may be looking forward to the challeng of this week but then again i may not.

to tired for words i had forgotten that you can get this tired and even though i had a really good sleep last night i don't think it has helped all that much as to my genral energy levels.
Feeling quite discouriged as well which does not help but ho hum the wind and the rain. such is the life of the over sensertive girl.

had a good day yesterday. went into town to meet up with Gordon for a day of us time but had to go alittle early so went and bought a new handbag as the old one was falling apart. Then found Gordon and we went to see alexanda which was dull was bord out of my mind by the end and i am a history buff think they may have tryed to cheave to much in to short a time although short that film was no 3hr 20min urrrrg. Then we came back to to the flat and shared our christmas presants this is the frist time we have seen each other since christmas really apart from london and college doesn't count. Then followed a quite intence convosation about us and where we were going which ended okay. then i walked with him to the station so he could go and collect people to go to elem and i walked down the road to the church to wait for my young people to take them to amaze. and none came well thats a lie two came one left before i arrived because she thought she might be the only person going and then dougie and steve arrived and we waited.
we didn't end up going and dougie gave me a lift to elem and i got to suprise my Friends and Boyfriend.
But the main thing about worship last night was that all the things that i have been carrying about with me over the last few weeks was lifted off me and last night i had the best sleep i have had since i came home from christmas.

Just back from my supervisers meeting which was well it was what it was. had a really really bad nights sleep. again went to sleep after a wile but then woke up again at 4 and didn't get to sleep till 6 so am again so so so so tired. infact it is bearly past midday and i feel like it is time for bed might go and sleep for a few hours.

it is was a good day although am very very very very tired. well lets sart at the start and end at the end as it ses in Alise in wounderland.
didn't have to go in till late today couse steve perfures late starts to early ones aparently so that was nice although thankful that i gave my self plenty of time the trains were messed up.
College was good loved steves leacture again was not overly impressed with the afternoon leacturea but ho hum three good lectures a week is a really really good term so i am not complainging to load.
then had placment seminar which was alittle bit of a farce. and we now have to do reading for that two although students get to choose what the reading is so it should not be that bad although why they want to give us more work to do when we already have enough i don't know.
then my lovely meal the Macdurids and Patons yay.
all good really but like i said so tired could just sleep here.

my laptop is not playing ball today at all. but never mind am still getting some of the work done i need to do although again am not in the most productive mood. think it may be due to lack of sleep. When it my own fault i don't mind struggling on but i just didn't sleep well infact i woke up about 4 and didn't get back to sleep till about 6 grrrrrrrrrr. So i think i might just forget work for the rest of the afternoon and do it on friday.
Had a good morning though Pat one of my young people came round and we had a chat and did a small bible study. It was really nice and it is going to be a regula event which will also be good.

Had a really good day. Woke up and got up and mainiged to catch the train that i am always slightly to late for. Got a big hug of my boyfriend so am now happy although thats not the only reason. we went down to clases and was told my human development essay was in my pigen hole so went and got it. well there were a few minits when i didn't understand what it said but it said i got an A i got very load after that thinking back am alittle embarrised but oh well. But was so shoked that i went and cheaked with ken that he haddn't got it wrong i thought i was going to fail that one. so that keept me going for the rest of the day. although i didn't really need it we had a really really good set of lectures today. a history one discused the church in the 1800s and some of the first evanglicals. Then we had circulam desing with Steve in the afternoon which was fab although it is moving to thurdsay morning which like i said doesn't bother me. prayer day next thursday.

JYF tonight was brill it is one of the best ones we have had for ages. feeling good we had a new boy tonight Alistir Graham brought him. :)
Janie helpt out tonight because Bill couldn't be there.

The evening service was exerlant really refective and powerful there was a definate sence of the presance of God. I always like the evening service it is the closest thing I have to home.
Then caterlist was good as well both services had a focus on the tsamie of course. which was good. the main theam of caterlist was how you should treat your perants which was funny as dougie was sitting 6 down from his son poor Andy thats the hardship of having perants invovled in the youth work at the church.

this made me laugh
'there is a time for everything, Except, perhaps, morris dancing. Mr J.H., Tekoa' The scroll bible

wow really good morning at church really, really good!!!
had a few suprises like that the evening services are now every week which means that Sunday night YF will have to have a new emphasis I think. Also found out that the minister would like to preach at our youth service which fine as long as the young people still get to choose to do some of the talks and the same for the youth leaders.
we have also been asked to laed the worship at some of the evening services but we are asking if some of thouse could be put off because of the perlims.
then had a lovley long chat with Pat and we are gonna meet up on a regula basis to pray together.

College yesterday was hard work by then end of it was absulutly exsosted.
Steves class in the morning was exserlant really quite exsisted about it. the funny thing about it is that we don't actualy know what day it is gonna happen couse college in its wounderful organistion has forgotten that the part time students had already done it. so there was a debate for the frist half of the class weather they had to do it again which was hinderd couse the course leader was not there. so all desisions they made could be changed any by next week. but they desided that the part time students didn't have to do this one again and that they were gonna try and move the one that we are gonna do on tuesdays which steve also teaches to thrusday and the thrusday class to tuseday. so that the part time students who haven't done that modul don't have to come in on two days. urrrrg.
doesn't effect me but i feel sorry for the part time students.
Then the afternoon was pritty bad our lecture read out from his notes and then we disscused them and he went through each and every group of people and discused the same points that everyone was making over and over again not impressed at all.
oh well tea was nice with the Mrs Macdurmid and the Patons and i watched a cupple of really intresting documentryes on bbc 4 light fantasic and one about mary shelly. they were both really intresting although the light fantasic one tends toward the blaphemus side without any real knolige of what christianity is. wow what a long moan i have had if you have survived this long well done you deserve a medel

urrrg this essay that i am trying to write by tomorrow is pants every word of it and now i am despratly trying to put in enough refrencing to show that i have read the books that are in my bibleography and i am way past the time when my switches off and wants to sleep humph not sure what i can do about it.
apart fromt that a good day.

Kat, Holly and I went out for a drink last night it was really nice to catch up although we spent most of the night talking about boys hummmm are we obsessed i think we may be.

dull day again pottered around and havn't really acheved much did abit of work for placment this morning sorta tidied the lounge gonna clean the hole place properly tomorrow what i have some of the house hold cleaners that i have run out of after my shopping comes the internet is a good things sometimes.
starting my deit tomorrow as well dududuuuuuuu so thats fun and gonna finish this essay as well so much to acheive tomorrow but non of it that mager the flat isn't that durty the essay isn't that long all the work i am doing isn't that strenouse.

done nothing today which is quite nice will get things done tomorrow. still not feeling totaly well but getting better.

just spent a lovley afternoon playing games with the Patons and the Macdermid's it was lovely like bord games they are such nice people. we had tea and then watched a random video with alot of scotish humor in it very funny although i can't rember what it is called dougie if you are reading this please feel free to remind me.
it is quite cold in here but the fire is warming up but only just in so it shall take a wile.

Happy New Year everyone. Yes i am boring i went to bed and slept through it again but i bet i feel a hell of alot nicer this morning than people who didn't.
anyhow yesterday was boring did my shopping on-line which was intresting. or about as intresting as it got cleaned up alittle but today is going to be the big clean.