crazy christmas tales

well this has the potental to be a very long post as i have a lot of catch up time but promis just to deal with christmas.

we had our leaders youth club which was good fun although the dizzness interfeared with my uni hoc playing such is life.

then the next day had a very nice if alittle dull journy down the country listened to radio four all the way down with the ear phone things on the vergin trains which was good.

sarah came the next day which was good

christophers birthday started off well he liked his persants and we laughed alot about the dog looking for his christmas persant under the tree he was confused and wrightly so.
mum had to go out for most of the day so i looked after sarah and wighted for antie rose and uncle clive to come and help me which they didn't manige to do until mum came back silly traffic but it was all fine sarah is hard work though.

few dull days of looking after sarah and trying to get some rst became very anti social and refused to see friends couse i just could not handel going out very sad that i didn't now but it was probley the best thing.

christmas was intresting ant woke me up which is not normal and we opened our stocking together which is a good family trodition then wile the carers arrived to get sarah up we went to rose chris the brick from his bed it took some time. waffels for brekie wile we still waited for sarah and then the feeding frenzy under the tree but i think i perfure taking christmas morening at that pace it was much more relaxed then normal. I got an IPOD yay and some GHDS exerlant.

auntie linda came over and we went out for christmas lunch which was not the best if we are totaly honist urk soggy carrots and not very well cooked anything else. but it took the presure of mum this year which was good.

Boxing day was quite again ant chris and i went for a walk down to rushden town which was nice.

Gordon and his Grandfather came to get me next day at lunch time we had carbinaria lovley for lunch and then we spent the afternoon at gordons grandfathers house and had an amazing tea at his arts and uncles very nice.
gordons sister was taken to hospital to have her baby and we cleaned her house and put some washing on for her as well.

the next day we took the kids out to the cinima and were horrifid when we arrived to find that it was all sold out so we had a pizza hut pizza and killed two hours with the video camera and teaching the kids how to do magic tricks it was a realy magic evening.

when we got back we got to hold baby Ryne awwwwwww and take him home.

next day we had lunch with Gordons grandfather and went to my dads which was nice. spent the evening chatting and drinking wine.
went to winsor on our full day there but it was rainy and horrid
and on the last day went to the windsor castle farm shop which was good.
then to gordons fathers nice journy again and a really nice place to stay we have reached new years eve which gordons family and us stayed up through playing risk i won which was a shock.
so tired the next day went for a walk up to the juberly tower and went to see the cathedral.
fell down the stairs in the evening no harm done though more embarrised than hurt felt particulay usless afterwould.
went to blackpool for the last day of our holiday and then back to glasgow i am sad that it is all over and i have to go back to the grind.

last day of term

well it was our last day of our last first term today and it was not the best really. started off okay not having any classes to go to and a placment seminar with steve which was good although was told to keep some of my negitiaty about life to myself.
then came back upstairs and wrote the intro the my final essay which was good.
then christmas lunch which i love it is always such a good spread although every year we have had to leave early slightly unfair as first and second years haven't don't know about Gordon's year.

this is wear it all goes down hill though we go upstairs our pudding in hand as there is not time for us to eat it in the actual lunch. to find that the college had acutaly forgotten the indignaty that they had inflicked on us by giving us an assesment on this day and not provided a video camra to record said assesment and not given us a projector so that all our clever videos and powerpoints could not happen. so our assesments started only after an exstra half an hour of people fafing about and not bothering to leave the lunch to help us grrrrrrrr.

i was last and it didn't go so well got a bit confused through most of it but ho hum its over now.

it never seems to end

just had a few very hard days infact a very hard week. the room is spinning currently which is not good and had a high tempterture last night.
i think it must be the end of term i am so tired i could quite happly curl up and go to sleep for a month was praying this morning that Jesus would come back just so i didn't have to cope any more guess i should really have taken today off ill but they finaly got round to interveiwing me in the church so thats over and done with only have been working there four months.
we have caturlyst tonight as well which i had forgotten about but i have one more week to survive with as much grace as possible (that is not losing my temper getting oveerly stressed and not getting drasticly ill) then i go home admitadly not the most restful of place but well sometimes a change is as good as a rest and i am looking forward to seeing my brothers.
yesterday was good although i spent most of it asleep on gordons bed not well i don't know. but it is nice that that is somthing i can be around him in a way not having to put a brave face on stuff all the time is what makes us work. went to see narnia which was just like i emangined it from the books was so pleased. not pleased to leave Gordon at the bus stop though i hate leaving but i guess you have to leave to have to exsitment of coming back. looking forward to next saturday which is when i am next seeing him for definate.

hummmmm

i may have finished the two essays for the 13th which is good i am in two minds about handing them in maybe i should keep them and re-read them tomorrow and hand them in although there is something to be said for not having them there any more aspeshaly since we have this visit from steve tonight which may be stressful. hummmm not sure not sure not sure. there is also the fact that Gordon was gonna have a look at the exergsis and tell me if i was thinking in the right dirrection. hummmmmmmm
i don't know i may phone him in a minuet and see. although i doubt weather he will pic up as he is at this confrance thing.

next chrismas number one buy it

the JCB song yay

a great night

SRG was wounderful tonight the kids were lovley we decorated a christmas tree made cards hovered and enjoyed ourself witht he kids.
and we had a nice chat and cuppa although i only drink water afterwoulds.
feeling better

ouch

so had another tuff meeting and went out with linda for some retail theopy got Robs prezzie and part of Gordons yay. but in tescos as i was putting down the bags i was carring to get somthing from the shelf i think i pulled a mussel i am now stuffling to straiten my arm ouch ouch ouch.

straining agenst the walls that trap me

feeling frustrted with church life the people i work with everything in essance. don't you hate it when people don't do the things that they are supposed to and then tell lies to get them out of troble. arrrrrrrrrrrrrg
then i come back to the college to find that andy is putting up a notic calling my kichen to his flat for a meeting to discuss the discusting state that it is left in all the time i walk in there and nealy cry i am so angry it is fowl horrid i can't cook in there i have only cooked in there twice this week and i refuse to clean up after people i am sorry that is not my job i have enough trobble keeping my own life strat.

okay possitive stuff i have to stop rnting Gordon and i had a great day yesterday did our christmas shopping although that was stressful it is so nice to have the most of it out of the way and done yay only two gifts to get now.
then we had a very nice tea with one of the local ministers and her husband but so tired after all that stuff. urg

from one thing to another to another to another

so i had diffculty getting out of bed this morning but i maniged got to school to find the teacher off ill and another teacher there i sat and talked to her and some of the other support staff for the first period and then went and talked to some young people in the corner for the second it was great fun we covered lots of stuff from art theater to realtionships.
then i came home to prepare disipleship group and Gordon Phoned and confused me about trains but it was all okay now although it meant disipleship group was not as well prepared as it could have been.
But dispite that it went well.

Free Ipods

Hey if you click on the link above (the bit that is in oringe and says free ipods) and sighn up for it you may get a free ipod which would be really cool. It is Gordon who has friends who have tryed this out and they have received and there are some good deals on the sight anyway have a look. aperntly you have to get five people to sighn up for it.

601

I just glansed at my blog post count and I have reach 601 posts my goodness how sad am I.

so had an okay day yesterday was not able to settle down to study in the morning becuase i was so exsited about going to see Gordon. So i packed up my books and traveled over with the intention of studing there.
well it did happen after cleaning up Gordons flat. It was so nice to see him although he was really tired *roles eyes*
we went out to a shoping sencter in livingston which was okay personly would rather have stayed in aspeshaly since the time we spent there ran over and we ended up on the wrong bus and so i ended up staying later than we had intended and i am now exsorsted.
but it all worked out okay in the end we talked about some important stuff.

now i just have to get through the rest of the day with grace and smiles when my body is saying sleep or cry.

Is our bible complete?

Marrion raised a very intresting point in the first bit of this class that i am sitting in. If we found another letter by paul that could be of benifit to us then should we re-jig our bibles to put it in. We evangelicals have a mind set that this is the bible it is the holy word of god and it is complet but people like Luther were relucktant to let Reverlations into the good book. I just think it is an intresting point to think about.

that tuesday feeling

well i thought i felt bad yesterday i was wrong today i feel bad. and it is before 9:30 i am sitting in class and after spending about 3 hours of my sleep time last night over and on the loo (you can interpret that how you like).
also had a very emotionaly sensitive day yesterday spending most of it and i talk every bit of it i didn't spend in the company of other in tears so was in serouse need of sleep.
well hopefully today wil perk up will get some serouse greese and sugar in me next brek i am also in a serouse need of water or liquide of some description juice will do.
class looks quite promising marrion is teaching and she is always very good.

That monday feeling

Yesterday was good although church was so cold my feet went numb ouch. steve offerd me and hutler lunch afterwoulds which was really nice. we had a nice long chat aout life ect and a lovley lunch although it filled me up.
then Chris and Louise piced me up at 3pm to go over to Gordons which was good we sat around and they were hungery so we went out lol all the restrants were not doing the deals they do monday to saturday so we had to get in the ar and go to a very cool indian buffet which we had pritty much to ourselves soo nice and of course i found room although feeling quite fat today.
had our monday meeting which was alittle scaty but such is life now have to write up the minites and thats me for the day not doing srg tonight.

superman returns

look at this trailer how exsited am i

restless

had a bit of a bits and bobs day but i think i have a acheived some stuff infact i know i have. meeting notes for the last team meeting the agend for the next and some other admin for work. i worked out my case study for the next essay and looked through my books and marked out a load of chaptures to read.
I also took my cross stich to the framers to get it framed at last.
what else have read some of mere christainty and had a fairly good quite time. have been watching weepy films all night so i don't think i will be leaving my room as my eyes are all puffy an early night will set me up for a bissy day tomorrow i think so that is the next thing to do.

why does snow make everyone late?

well i woke up late this morning an unueal occurance for me as you well know but i guess i have been stressed and stuff the last few days.
so was running late for work got my shoes on and opened my curtains to discover snow well i then went and changed my shoes to something more apropreate and waterproof and walked my 45 min walk to school.
this morning went so slowly it wasn't funny mainy because i was really tried and have been all day.

su went ok

then came back to the college meaning to hit my reflection and read the chaptures of mere christianity for disiplship group (chris was leading not me) well came in both things went sorta out of my mind. (reflections completly and mere chrisitanity not really but went down on the priorities) and sat in the lounge talking to Graham and Joy very good convo about discworld and noses (don't ask)
did my refection on communication and in about 20 min and rushed out to disipleship group late (the next relection may be on my worsening time manigment) it went okay.
Then linda and i went to the cinima to find the film we wanted to see sold out and nothing on near enough for us to go and see and came back yes that is the sum total of my day so far going to clean my room now.

2 down 2 to go (sort of)

well i handed in the ethical issues essay today even though i didn't beleive that i could possibly do it. just goes to show what God can help us do. although i am pritty sure that it is complet rubbish and that if it passes it will only just pass. the problem was that there was to much to think about you could write books about it.

i had a good day at college today which is the first good day i have had in a long time have all the forms filled out for my agency placement and feeling a lot less stressed in genral it is only a tempory feeling as i will be off to start writing the next essay soon. urg.

team meeting tonight tempers may get fraid then we have coffee afterwoulds it should be good.

the sort of is because the exergsis is in first draft form what fun is this

not running smoothly

okay it is offical my brain is adeled i don't know what i am writting or how i am writing it but i am deturmind that i will finish this essay i will i will i will. this is not the most unacheivable mark i have ever set myself as i have written about 800 words so far today admitdly it is almost bedtime so 400 words before i go to the land of nod i don't know maybe pushing it.

the main problem is that my thoughts are not flowing at all and i think the intire peace of work is alittle shall we say confused and at points away from the point. but i don't know it is the gift of finding the key issues in such a large topic i could easly wright 2000 word essay on this topic which is slightly frustraiting because i can't 1200 words sucks.

see i said things are not flowing properly it is even effecting my blogging although it may not be it might just be how my brain works normaly i just don't notice it. :-)

feeling failure

well we just had our placement seminar which was good steve is great.
but afterwoulds had to ask neil for an exstention on my essay i always feel like such a failure when i play the dylexic card it is like i have this unfair advantage on other people.
don't get me wrong i know they have an unfair advantage on me being born with a normal brain and so forth. but all the same i still feel this way.
maybe it is because i have been told it by my peers and teachers in the past that somehow i believe it now i don't know.
anyhow it is a big pain having to have a exstention it means that all the rest of my work is going to get delayed and so i am going to have to do at least one essay over christmas grrrrrrrr.