back in glasgow

came back up yesterday and had a very pleasant trip up the country with Gordon. the week was okay if alittle stressful didn't sleep all that well for most of it so am prity tired now. we spent lots of time with Gordons gandad which was nice we went on his boat and had a trip up the river even go to steer.
i also got to visit home and we also went out in the boat and i also got to steer that to so it has actualy been a very boaty week.
the funarl happend on monday and it was as nice as it could have been have been. we stayed around at Gordons Uncles house after the funaral and had a chinees with that family which was lovely. we also had lots of meals out and some lovley family meals at his mothers.
went to work last nght which was good although only 3 kids came and i attempted to play pool at the end of the eve which resulted in much huality as i could not control the que enough to hit the white humph.

help!

Am heading down to Gordons home tonight this want be a fun trip though as it is because his Granny died on tuesday morning which is really sad.
not quite sure what my role is this weekend but am sure it will become apperant in time. the bad thing is that my family have gotten all exsited about the idea that i may see them which i don't know how approprate that will be so now i feel like i am really stuck in a hard place because i can cope with the presure of playing the nice girlfriend but i don't know if i can do it with my mum putting presure on my to go over to rushden. i guess it is resonable as they wont get to see my till christmas but even so.

still swimming just

yesterday was the churches 150th birthday bbq which was fun went down early mainly to get to know people but also to help set up and helpt with the hole balloon filling with helum fun the ministers wife jane was impressed by the speed i tied nots in my balloons well i guess it is nice to make an impression.
hundreeds of kids came to the bbq and we had fun playing parichute games with them yay love the parichute. although by the end of it all had to lay in bed for a long long time and we very useless for the rest of the .
today was church which was fine although we did brek the news of the earler bible class to the young people if you want to see a young persons face drop tell them that they have to get up even earlyer for church on sunday. then i came home and made rock cakes and goulash feeling quite pleased with myself although am exsorsted again will be going to bed very very soon

some jokes are just old

still not 100% but getting there which is a bonus. was so tired all day yesterday did limited admin work but then had a meeting about bible class and group to go to in the eve and i was not to be beaten so i did both.
the meeting was intresting they want to make bible class a before church thing with some simpal brekfast to fellowship around. i have a problem with this that young people however dedicated are unlickly to take kindley to having to get up out of bed even earler on a sunday. the argument used by my fellow leaders in regards to this was that these were mainly assylem seeker children and so from a diffrent culture. well most of what i have seen on these young people which isn't much i must admit tells me that they are fitting in with the stay in bed culture that we have here. but never mind we are going to try it and see. The other surgestion was for us to have it in the afternoon sunday and mid week i added saying the eve sunday would be better all round which was sorta agreed with.
group went well had the circus skills stuff out and of course when we did balloon modeling all the boys did the serously long willy joke i don't know i mean its not even remotly funny but i guess guys of a sertain age and or mentality must think it is hilareous otherwise every time i get the balloons out it wouldn't happen *roles eye*

Curled up in a Little ball

Well I have a cold but am not doing to badley considering that it came on yesterday after a really really bad nights sleep so it sorta eat inot my day with Gordon but oh well it is nice to be looked after although somehow think he is starting to think that i get ill when i am over his so that he pays me more attention. we had a nice day watching 24 though.

today have done some bits and bobs for work but not that much as the cold is getting worse and i got home very late last night from Gordons.

strange news Christina is going home after 3 months of being in this country she says she has done all she wants to do here and is to homesick to stay and try other stuff. i think it is a shame and in a way that she hasn't given briten a chance but never mind such is life.

Meeting no1

Chris and I had our first meeting this morning this is going to be a weekly thing which we will use to talk about future idea work out what we need to do during the week and say what went well or badly the prevouse week.
i am quite exsited i am not really sure why it isn't really that exsiting i guess it is nice just to be working with people who want to start new things reach more young people.

bowling

things have been okay since i last posted although i have had sevrel mirgain attaks which was not been that good really i don't know what is bring them on but i wish they would just go away.
did the drop in on thursday night it was brill had some real quality time with the lads who sat and destroyed the clay that was for the craft some of them even did the craft which was quite exsiting in it's self.
then this morning went bowling with 4 of the girls and two of the boy chris and kenny we had a girls vs boys martch which involved the boys ignoring the girls and vice versa and playing two diffrent lanes intresting to note the diffrent groups diynamics as every time the girls nocked a pin down there was a great amount of congratulations wereas the boys were alot meaner.
but i guess that comes from most of the girls not being very good at the sport and the boys having obvesly spent to much time playing it. tehe it was a good way to spend the afternoon.

Drama Queen

well i always said i was and it has just been confurmed by the boys in myters church.

still not totaly easy about joining in with the boys in their game of poker but not sure what else i can do i have no real objection to the game other than it encoriges gambaling. And the way it is handeld in this group seems to be quite far away from that. If i was the only youth worker going into the church for the first time i would not encorige it. but i do see why chris plays it with the boys we had some really intresting talks about life love and laurndary and i had the opertunity to get to know them alittle bit. although this still does not take away from the fact that it is gambling even if we did not use money feeling alittle confused.

anyway at the end of the game i got a poker name which was drama queen which actualy amused me quite a bit they were asking if the drama group would start back up now thats ground were i feel comfortable. I do hope that i get to start it up again and maybe we could put on a panto or something like that in my last year as a student in icc which would be rad.

urg

think it is time to get remotivated and go back to the gym am feeling soooo low at the moment due to the lack of fullfilling things to do and Gordon has been bugging me about it for weeks which although i hate it is wright.
yesterday was dull for the most part went to this meeting at st rolloks about the kids club that will start to run soon which was good i like the minister there which i guess is good as i have a year of working with him.
refelcting on how strange it is to be doing this job for a year and then taking off again hate the idea of finding a job so so so much could cry every time i think of it espeshaly when i think of the interveiw side of the hole thing.
might go and play cards with Chris and Kenny this afternoon not sure how i feel about the cards part of it but it will be nice to start to get to know the poeple i will be working with alittle better. Chris and I had a great chat about Terry prachett last night finaly another fan.

bus station

had a good day yesterday all in all went to church in the morning and did bible class which didn't go wounderfuly well but never mind they sometimes don't. then hung around for a wile chatting to people at the church and Catrina this was wile Christiana said her goodbyes she had announced that she has desided not to continue at icc and so could not carry on with the young people.
then i came home for a 24 fest and watched both disks the Gordon had brought over saturday evening handed them over to Kat so thats what she will be doing today. took Gordons stuff to the station and saw him off.

Gordon came over last after all the are you arn't you stuff that we had been going through all week. although it was only for a few hours because he is going to see linda fox today as she is having a very hard time at the mo. he brought 24 and i got to give him his gifts which was good.
we stayed up late looking at cars which was fun in a way.

starbucks

for reasions beyound control we didn't have group last night instead we had a pleasant night with the older boys drinking coffee and talking about a hole host of subjects although the one traked minds of some of the boys you would not beleive it is quite sad really.
not to impressed with the carrot cake mind it was abit dry and tastless the only nice thing about it really was the iceing.
also tidyed my room yesterday still trying to get ride of the bad smell in here i think it may be indicative of the college though and so i am going to have to live with it for the next year urg.

door to the air

this is the door that the builders left behind on the top floor of strathclyd college libery it is directly opersite my bedroom. one wounders what they are gonna use it for? draw your own conclusions.

summer worship

I lead worship today and this is what we did i went down to the works and got some cheap acrelic and some canvases. then as our worship to god we listend to some music painted and talked about all the wounderful things that he has done in our lives. it was cool.

warts

Gordon took me out for dinner saturday night which was nice although through a misshape with his keys he missed the last train home but that was good for me because it meant we got to spend the hole evening together and i got to see him all day the next day. very nice indeed we discovered that i can get to his flat for around £3 return on the bus so i am gonna have to over come my hatred of them i think.

we had a nice day although i felt ill for a fair bit of it problem is when you are enjoying yourself when you are happy time goes too fast and it doesn't feel like any time before you have to leave.

although on the day we went shopping and gordon got some wartner which he then when we got back to the flat administered to himself and to me which was not pleasant and envoled alot of conjoling oh well.

have to prepare worship for tomorrow afternoon sorta hope no one comes but i have an idea of what i have to do it should be fun.

chatting shopping and pics

it was nice seeing steph this morning we sat had hot choclate chated and went window shopping. then Kat Christina and i went to see cave which was not the best frightening film i have ever seen only jumpt twice oh well can't win them all.

two films and fajitas

went to see herbie and bewitched with linda yesterday after i had completed all my work obversly. they were both very funny and quite well done although looking back at herbie i was alittle disapointed.

came home and made some very nice fajitas and had a nice long chat with Gordon although woke up in the middle of the night with a nightmare and couldn't get back to sleep so have been watching er since four in the morning yes i know that not much of a way of getting back to sleep but i had been trying for 2 hours already. urg

youth cafe

so i went to the drop in tonight and it was really really good so enjoyed sat around with the lads chatting about stuff getting to know the kids and letting them get to know me alittle. we only let ten young people in as most of the normal leaders wernt there which meant that we would not have been able to handle any more. sadly no girls came last night so christias craft was not really jumpt at but a few boys had a go which was good i made a rainbow badge which even though it was upsidedown i am quite pleased with.
have missed doing things like this. although almost dug myself into a hole with one of the older boys at the end of the eve will have to do some repair work there said something daft and not thought through properly it will all be fine though.

exstraction

just been to the emergancy dentist and had a tooth out it face is currently numb and big but that will go off in a bit. so have not had the best day ever. it was my choice to have the tooth out what she said i would have to have done to keep it ment sevril visits to the dentist and i refuse its tacken me a month of toothake to pluck up the courage to go this time.

last night was good alittle more formal than the other night more people i didn't know so well but that is good for me i sorta need to get over my fear of new people since i am persuwing a curea where i will be having to meet them all the time.

company

yesterday was pritty dull up till the point when we went to Gordons for tea.
Alison picked us up and i much halarity by the sound my bag was making when i walked it was full of bowls and table cloths and things like that which Gordon was missing.
the car ride was painful though Kat and Alison talked all the way there about a problem they were having at church something that i was a not all that intrested in and b couldn't comment on as i do not know any of the people involved that well so arriving was a bit of a relife to say the least.

So good to see Gordon I do miss him so much a feeling which i hope will get better as time goes on but am not hopefull. the girls gave him his prezzies and me my card and we all set about cooking dinner. very social very fun.

then we sat around and talked which was nice.

the car ride home was not much better though. ho hum the wind and the rain we are having the same thing to eat tonight i hope it turns out as well as last night because it was really nice.