William Tell Mom Sayings

this is soooooo funny

hecktic life

i have just been resiling with my dairy for the next wee wile i am so busy over the next few weeks which is good but then again not good because i will be sooo tired by the end of it all.

things that are happening

assembalies this week
christmas assembaliy next week and all the prep for that
teresha visiting
art space accustic cafe which will be good
youth club party
youth club
youth house group
labelless

can't wait for it all to be done and over and to go home and see my family and friends for christmas

video editing

been editing the chritsmas assembaly video all afternoon had to go down and get the right conncetions from gordon at lunch time which was nice.

its going well the main problem that i have run into is that i forgot the christmas tunes to go under the video so i am back home cooking some dinner and picking up the cd of chees that is going to drive me up the wall for the next hour or so ho hum it will be worth it.

feeling nervouse

feeling quiteb nervouse i am going into the school to do a bit of filming for the christmas assembally today which should be fun but then again it is pritty nerve racking going up to complete strangers and asking them questions.

but ho hum had a good day off yesterday i cleaned which intailed getting out most of my cupbords and sorting them out i have a big bag of stuff for the charity shop and a much more ordered home life now although there are still a few things i want to do before the week is out like work on my spare room cupbord which still has all my college stuff from my final year in boxes waiting to be filled away i think i may take it all into the office so that i can use it there it wont get used here thats for certain.

i also have to go and post the cards for my mum so had better go and do that now!! and then get on with some work like going into the school and videoing eeeeek

engage

so tired so looking forward to going on holiday which i booked flights for today.

its been a long day all in church this morning engage tonight both went okay so thats good.

although got stuck on tuck shop so could not supervise the activerties that i had set up so they wernt used which was slightly frustraiting.

why is it when you go to the dentist you come away with toothake :(

went to the dentist yesterday basicly all my fillings need stuff done to them and i have a new caverty on my front teeth not what ou have to know is that basicaly all my back teeth are filled so its not the best.

but oh well such is life

looking forward to the weekend have had a bussy week Gordons mum was up at for the long weekend which was nice. but it was quite tireing. then work has gotten more busy with the run up to christmas which is great but again tireing.

Lego Millenium Falcon Stop Motion

this is so good

window

i have had a intresting day it was good someone came into my office nocked a big whole in my wall and left it there. :) admitadly he put a window in it later quite a fasinating process a bit cold but intresting.

so now i have a window which i can look out of and everything although it does need a bid of a clean so i will take in some stuff to do that with tomorrow :)

also feeling quite happy with myself in the sence that i did alot of work today got through a pile of stuff which was quite pleasing.

feeling slightly fed up this morning had a not so good night sleep mainly because i was stressed out because my dairy suddenly came up with a large number of clashes which i had not noticed before i got into my bath should not talk dairies with gordon before i go to bed always ends up badly.

had a nice evening with one of the church famies last night they had a brill testomy and it was very plesant to be around them.
did alot of work yesterday so was very tired don't have to go in for a few hours which is a blessing.

prayer walk

went to the church prayer walk today which was good went out to the school and the arc which the rest of the day was pritty much pointless although i did clean my desk the rest of my office really should be next.
busy day tomorrow

low turn out

youth club had a fiarly low turn out last night which was slightly dissapointing because well i finally got a tuck shop organised but not the worse because it was just me and another leader there.
we had a good night though chatting and playing the guess who i am game you know the one with the postit notes stuck to the head. we where rubbish at it but thats part of the fun.

demotivated

its amazing how easy it is to get demotivated by the things that are going on in your life. yesterday it was me dwelling on stuff and today it was a comment on my bebo page that i haddn't noticed before.
had dinner with a church family yesterday it was really nice although was looking forward to playing with their new dog but she had had an operation and so was really dopted up poor thing.

engage and other stuff

engage was good on sunday still feel alittle out of it though not sure i am much help but i guess that comes with time. will have to take a bit more of a role next time.

gordon and i went to livingston on monday did some christmas shopping and have been making christmas cards since so that i can start selling them to rasie money for Albainia in Feb. sigh

busy day today su group at lunch and house group tonight but itw a worshop tonight so thats alot of work to be getting on with today but i can't seem to motivate myself yet will have to grit my teeth and get on with it in a min.

waiting for me food to cook

should have left church earlyer i am at home waiting for my food to cook before i gulp it down and head out to the next thing yikes sundays can be such a busy day.

procatination

i should be cleaning my house but so far have managed to put up my new curtains, talk to Gordon and my mum about the curtains cook some food eat the food and watch two episodes of life on mars which i bought with some of my birthday money. about £6 left to bye new a scarf.
its all good youth club tonight see if we have a total revolt over me stoping the trips to tescos.

party

we had a halliluah party last night there where about 40 kids in the church plus some of the young people. we had a good laugh playing silly games and i modifiyed fluffy bunnies to stop the chocking hazard made me feel very ainal but oh well.
made some of the boys do some cleaning at the end don't think that they where amused but its altamatly good for them so i am not overly bothered.

big treat

gordon and i got very blessed yesterday. steve took us up in a helicopter he was taking photos for a big company of edingbugh and the forth road and rail bridge. it was really awsome. the city looks so neat and tidy from the air.

although we not only seemedto freck out the politions when we where over the palerment but we also freacked out the pengwins at the zoon and the police phoned the airport to give the pilot a row. oh well the pengwins should chill out.

was very tired by then end of the day and in no way up for the albaina meeting although it did go well from what i can see.

today has been dull office work

first assembaly

well i did my first assembaly today don't think i have every had stage fright so bad in my life before i am clearly so badly out of practice when it comes to public specking but it will come back with time i guess.
but hey ho life goes on

bye bye brothers

feeling very low
droped ant and chris of at the airport this afternoon feeling really low missing them lots.

we have had a good few days though so thats okay.

ant and chris

today is my birthday and ant chris and i are chilling out before the young people come tonight to do house group.
su went well in school today and we had a good meeting yesterday so it is all good with work.

we went to see ratitue yesterday which was very funny very much enjoyed it and i think that the boys did as well.
they both go home tomorrow which is :( but then i get a bit of time to recover and become less tired it is funny how differcult it is having guests in your house even if it is your brothers.

busy busy busy

just had gordons dad and step mum stayed over which was nice we went to the cinema to see rendition didn't really enjoy it but it was an okay film. then had quite a busy day at work on sunday which was a shame.

they went home today and antony and christorpher turned up this morning and we went to laza tag and are now watching the iron gaint which we watched last night at lable-less but hey its a good film.

today is another day

having a pritty good week so far and it is thurday so that is looks like it might end that way.
monday went into edingbugh with Gordon we didn't get to see the film we wanted to see but we had a nice time anyway. eat far to much which is not the best since i am supposed to be trying to lose wight but there we go i am not going to get all guilt ridden about it.
tuesday had a mirgrain so worked from home watched the last of the numa dvds which wzs good. although sometimes i wounder why i cannot help sitting there in judgment and thinking this person or that person should be watching this dvd and putting it into practice.
yesterday su was good and had a great meeting with chic then a good house group with chats about everything gromt he trinity to everloution. yikes
this morning am waiting to the post and watching my xbox on ebay seeing how much money it will make me its at £30 at the mo plus post and packageing not to shabby i think.

Legoshire Hot Pots He's Turned Emo

sleepy

we had communion at church this morning had a wall of stuff for people to pray for about the youth work everyone seemed really pleased with it all. although i could not find someone for tonights group.

at least until one of the perants offerd which was a life saver. it was an okay evening we watched a noma dvd and we chatted about that and the church but they where really hard to get chatting. oh well things will get better i am sure.

low

the problem with putting ones self on a diet is that you tend to feel rubbish for the first few days which also means that you treat everyone around you like rubbish even if you have no intention of doing it.

i need chocolate

Gordon has just gone home and we have had an okay day but not the best and as i said i have not been in the best of moods.

and now he's gone home and i feel even worse and lonley in the bargin hate this time of the day.

back from broxburn

it has not half been a week for traveling went down to broxburn last night gordon and i went out to the oatridge for dinner which was very nice although was slightly disapointed about there not being fahetas on the menu so had lamb shank which was lovley.

we had a really nice relaxed evening good long walk to and from the pub and watched some rubbish tv so its all good although do not fancy going to wrk now. well thats not totaly true not looking forward to doing my office work but i am looking forward to youth club tonight

hehe

feeling much better today after some definitive sleep although i did not wake up with my alarm this morning and had a prity server nightmare in the night eeek scary stuff i wont tell you about it.

sitty around now waiting to see if any young people turn up am prepared if they do am prepared if they don't so its all good

we are together again

keys

sitting in the church at 2:30am poundering the meaning of keys.

well before i left for nics wedding i handed a young person the church so that they could let the engage crew in. but there must have been a mix up as i was going out the door and i handed him my house keys so i am going to work now until 9:30 when i can go and wake up my naughbough to give the spare keys and have a bath and go to bed.

but apart from that have had a really great weekend. arrived at the bandb on saturday morning and was greated by noelle and steph which was great mary turned up folled by ercia and we where late for the wedding because we prcastinated so much about getting ready so long. ended up running down watford high street yikes. but we missed nothing nic was late to :)

it was a beautful wedding and the reception was fun we served drinks washed cups and made up silly dances. nic and keith did it all themselves so lots of help from lots of friends.

then the next day went to see dad went to the tate which was fabby. and out for dinner which was really nice.

a twelve hour trip today was okay long and could have done with it ending better oh well.

frustrainting bank

arrrrrrrrrg hate money, hate banks, hate hate hate HATE!!!!

okay now i have that off my chest i may be able to get on with my life.

so my rent has not gone out properly for the like billionth time i changed to this bank because it was supposed to be good exsept the fundemental flaw with that is that no bank can possibly any use whatso ever.

on a more possitive note i got my hair done today it looks nice so looking forward to nics wedding can't beleive its tomorrow. yas can't wait. and i bought the new terry prachett book for the bus down yas!

waiting

am waiting for the young people to arrive for youth house group. which i hope will be good tonight looking at Jesus which can be hard but we will give it a go.

have had two productive meeting this week one with the school which was good all sorted to go in when term kicks off again and the other with a comunity youth worker from the counsil who looks after my area got loads of info from him and he got all excited about the circus skills. which all in all is a good thing.

looking forward to this weekend nics wedding seeing the girls and that sort of thing can't wait although the travel will be intresting.

and seeing dad will also be great on sunday :)

Water Buffalo - Veggie Tales

day off

i have had my day off restored to me the moeeting tonight was called off i don't know why but i am not to upset i am sure you can tell.

spent my day in a very relaxed way watching bleak house and becoming jane and sorting out my rent and so forth.

when the film finishes i will finish cleaning my house and so really be ready for the week.

dashing wight charger

went to see gordon last night which was intresting mainly because i only had enough money for the perth to edingbough bit and not the rest of the way. but gordon like a night in shinning armer got on another bus and picked me up :)
we spent this morning together and then we had to go our seperate was as normal me to say goodbye to my car and him to work.
not that i am not working tonight i am going to youth club presantly.

strange sensation

sitting at home with the collection of nooma dvds it is intresting to watch. not feeling very well woke up dizzy and but not quite so ill that i can stop hence the watching tv for work. its not a bad life

busy day

grabing five minits breack to tell you about my bussy day. well busy is not nessisaryly the word scattered may be the word. i came into church to check my e-mails and stuff had a lovley chat with debbie. to see if i had gotten one from the guy from su which i haddn't but i am going to go along to the school su group anyway and see if the receptionist will grant me access to the building think this may be a bit of a dangerous game but i said i would go along even though i don't really know that much about it. eeek

then have a meeting chic this afternoon and then young peoples house group this evening its all abit all over the place but things will settle down i am sure.

had a cold day

got quite alot of stuff done today which is quite satisfying

but it looks like my car is properly dead so feeling alittle dispondent about that but will get a new one it will be okay.

also feeling alittle lownly but hey thats life i guess.

lifts and walking in the rain

my buildings lift is brock which is most vexing since it means that when i forget something i have to go all the way back up the five stories. but at lest i have my legs to go up and down the stair most residents don't even have that. although in reality we only have to manage one flight to get into the even floor lift so ho hum.

winter seems to have arrived at perth the wind is up the temperture has gone dramaticaly down i wish i had a proper coat last years one is all worn out. Gordon and i have to walk to church in the rain last sunday which was not to bad it wasn't to cold but i felt really ill by the time i got home.

lovefilm

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slightly tired slightly sad waiting for the tubledryer to stop

well the big plans for the weekend where scuppered by my car not getting past carlise steph and erica went on down to nics hen weekend but i really just could not justify it. so came back up the road with the aa man and my car. spent saturday feeling very low went down to broburn and lay in the sun in the back garden of where gordon lives he was to figaty to sit with my long so we actulay spent most of the day papart but never mind we not feeling very socialble any way.

went to church yesterday which was really nice also means i have not used up any of my holiday which is good. spiled saurce over my only clean jeans so had to wash them last night with the other pair so am now waiting for the tublel dryer to finish its good work and then i will head out to work.

have a engage meenting tonight and also a later than normal house group although i am not sure how i will get there since my car is dead.

oh no

my laptop is making that scary sound that means the fan is probley on its way out it will soon be like flogging a dead donkey trying to do anything on this thing i guess that that means i had better start saving for a new home computer although i don't think i nesisarlaly need a laptop any more so that should save some bucks.

had an intresting night last night the other leader for youth club did not come but some young people had keys so they came in early to play table tennis but neglected to lock the door the next thing i new i had the whole lot of them in the building yikes child protection nightmare. i waited as long as i could with all honistly wait before i kicked them all although they tunred up a bit later to see if the other leader had come and if i could let them back in. but hey i guess these things happen there must have been crossed wires somewhere along the way.

things are good

things are going really well although had a no sleep night because the next few weekends are so manic i got really stressed about them but hey it is all important stuff.

this sunday we have engage which is going to be good young people lead worship well at least i hope it will be. although they are charging for entrace which i am not so sure about?

then next weekend is nics hen party so steph erica and i are all traveling down together which will e great fun!!!

then the weekend after that is my dads 70th birthday yikes although my plans are not finalised about that yet all depending on my fathers other kids i have booked my megabus seats down. although i am going to be so recked by then end of it i can't really afford the train or plane this time.

youth club tonight and seeing gordon tomorrow.

first attempts

the sound is not good on this will have to close the window next time

sound quility not good

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gbJBToKXxMU

Freestyle Fire Poi

it may just be the buz

it may just be starting my new job and being all excited about that but i am feeling better than i have been feeling for months. which is great i even think that i am starting to lose some of the whieght i put on at the y.

although had a bit of a hectic day yeasterday it started off well and was feeling quite happy with myself and so forth but then i took gordon and his mum down to edingbough to the station and the car overheated on the way out of the city partly due to not haveing toped up the water and the whole city being in gridlock more so than normal. this conspired with the bridge being a car park and me getting totaly lost when i got back to perth for me arriving at my meeting so late everyone was going oops but i did meet the new local youth worker.

i also had a rad night no one had said but i went back to the church after the meeting to disscuss it with the person who had actualy turned up to the meeting and see if there was anything i needed to know. and there where a gang of young people practicing for worship which was for the new youth worship event. which i will be involved in i met a few more of the local youth workers which i am sure will be helpful how is it i have missed these people over the past few months honistly it is like starting all over again in a totaly new place. had a great night

ready...... steady...... go!!!!!!!!!

well i have finaly got there and have started my new job i am so chuffed so far. wont tell you about the hassles getting up here i mean after all it was all about silly airoplains and thats really not important.
went to my new line managers house for drink last night signed my contract and chatted a bit about my week although it all still feels a bit wooly thats fine because that will give me time to settle and get used to the place a bit and give me an opertunity to think through some half formed ideas i have for where i want stuff to start heading. it also means i can go and join in with the current work and see how i fit into that. by the sounds of things they have a pritty good set up though so its all good.

church this morning was nerve racking meeting all those people is always hard but i have a feeling i will be right at home there pritty quick which will be lovley i really like the prospect of having a home church again.

my office rocks the young people cleaned it and painted it for me which was so lovley i met a few of them today but they where off to a baptisum so i will meet more over the week. but back to the office they had painted it yellow and oringe and pink and green i am so chuffed aperantly they just did it without any prompting.

feeling really blessed and really tired now think i shall head to bed soon

oh gordons mums up at the moment which is also lovley but gordon and she both disaper tomorrow which is a big bummer if you ask me.

cleaning

just finished cleaning the house so that my family will hae somewhere nice to come back to after their holiday. the smell of cleaning products is very strong at the moment and i feel tired but quite pleased with myself. its been a long time since i have cleaned this house top to bottem but this is where i learned those skills so it was fairly simple and easy.

about to take the dog for his penoltamate walk although i think that i will wait till the end of this disc of jane eyre before i go i am totaly enjoying it my abridged version was totaly pants and left out really improtant detail but i guess they all do. nearly half way through since yesterday i am so sad arnt i.

cleaning and classic novils. but you cannot say the jane is dull i mean it is a great example of early feminisum wounderful

London and Dad

yay saw dad today was great really lovley to see him really really really really really lovley and not because he bought me loads of stuff or took me out to lunch in one of my fav restraints i miss my dad very much and would have been happy sitting all day in a park chatting.

but hey not complaining we went to see the dutch portait exerbision which was great really really intresting some of the pictures where so spectuala and so different from what you normaly see. can't explain really they just where.

then we went to paperchaise and the talking bookshop and hmv and ended up in rada chatting to dianas workmate while dad met the cast of his next show.

half a sixpence is going up to aberdeen and dad said he would be me some tickets which is really exsiting i am so looking forward to it.

ouch

my tummy is giving me jip and am sitting in mums office having run out of things to do so i guess unless they come up with a whole new list of things to do this is my last day in here.
had another lazy day yesterday when i played far to much on the computer but hey did mums ironing so she will be happy.
spent this mornign cleaning the rooms that i am not useing i figure if i do the cleaning it will be nicer house for my family to come back to and by the sounds of things they have not had the best holiday ever. chris is quite pourly with an ear infection poor kid they had to go to the hospital and everything.

i need to change my profile picture

well on blogger i do not really on face book it is a bit strange posting between two things but the one on blogger is from my flat in cathcart which i left 3!! years ago so will find an approperate one when i go home not as if people arn't obsessed with taking my photo for some reason.

anayhow what have i been up to i am totaly enjoying being home its actualy really lovley no stress because my post does not come here lots of good company of friends and whatnot. walking the dog and running around in my brother car.

dan gen pete and i had another bbq and video night last night we drank a bottle of wine and relaxed which was lovley. watched sin city which i really enjoyed i am quite supprsed to say but hey.

church in the morning was good it is acutaly funny how weired it is to be with them to weeks in a row but it was nice to hear ian preach (they had been to new wine (where i became a christian) last week which excited me) the sermon was on the resurtion of lazeras which was really good i think i got out of it the most that god does not do things the way we wont him to (or at least not all the time) he does things in the way that will bring him most glory. and putting that into the conxtect of my life since april it is very lifting and i came away feeling good about the whole thing (arn't i being grown up)

can't wait to start my new job next week!!!

why is it i never remeber my password

it was a joy not bring my lapdown down the country with me it meant i did not have to lug it around at the airport but its a pain because i have all my passwords saved on it so i am currently surfing the net despratly trying to remeber what password i use where but hey there are worse things in life.



been going into the warehouse and doing some work on health and saftey for my mum while she is away also been doing alittle dogs body work but thats okay.

although have been feeling very tired after each day it is a bussy office and can get quite intence also the fact that almost everyone in there is relatied to me in some way is quite scary i don't think i have been around my exstended family for the lenght of time for at least the last 5 years but it is all good.

other than that it has been a few days of seeing friends who i never get to hang out with properly eating good food at their houses and serving well we sharn't say good food at mine going to have a dvd night tonight with Gen and Dan which will be lovley and am looking forward to church again on sunday.
although am really starting to look forward to getting back to perth and starting my new job have loads of ideas already and am not even there yet.

rushden

i am getting through my first full day at home with only the dog and the cat for company. of course going to church this morning helped alot. it was a really good service thoughts on Noha which like david said is one of those stories you have heard so meny time you think that you just can't get anything else out of it but there really is alot more to it than you hear in sunday school.

went shopping and bought a pair of shorts in tescos along with my weeks food and stuff really really lovley and hot today going to go for a dip in the hot tub now which is good.

looking forward to tomorrow as dan and gen are coming round and we are going to have bbq and then tuesday going to the wearhouse to see family and do some work. and then in the eve going to bill and hillaryies house for dinner so all in all these two weeks are starting off well.

although am missing gordon wish he was here.

back from dublin

gordon and i had a nice trip to dublin over a very long weekend. started off abit well dull and grey partly because of poor weather partly because of us being tired and having to move hotels and not being able to work out the public transport system.
but once we where finaly settled and sorted and had worked out all that stuff we where fine and had a great time eating to much walking loads and loads and listening to irish music which was cool.

we also visited a few museams did the bus tour (the one thats everywhere all over the world big red open toped busses you know the onse i mean) and went to a prison which was being used as a museam mainly telling about the easter uprising in 1916 learnd loads that really should have been basic to our education but there you go nothing is perfect. wish i was not back in the real world again lots to look forward to but a few hurdels before i get there.

not feeling well

lying in the bath this morning and started feeling terribly dizzy got out went through the normal routeen of getting a large drink of water and going back to bed for half and hour feeling alittle better now but still not wonderfull.

think it is back to the stress thing been holding it together for a wile now and am exsperancing my bodies normal payback but hey if its just that which it is i know it will go in a few days hours ect.

been a bussy few days been helping gordon move and with some of his youth work played altamate fribee with some young people and so forth and did the driving him back and forth thing.

The Secret of Poi Flowers

God is Good

well it turns out that the desision that i would have had to make if i had been offered the outwards bounds leader job would not have been so hard anyway.

had a very nice day in the sun at clan yesterday and it looks like it was going to be the only sunny day they get so thats good. had a chat about the job although felt alittle like i was being interveiwed again. mainly because they have been reading this (hello people from gateway :) ) and wanted to make sure that i was serouse about this job. i hope i reasured them.

am now looking forward to the next year and feel like i have a purpose again which is really really really good have to go and re-set up all my direct debits again though. need to stop making snap desisions.

Clan its self was brill although it is not as jam packed at Soul Surviour some good teaching although did come away with some real questions that i will be delving into my theology books about very soon

helping Gordon tonight and tomorrow life doesn't half move fast does it.

low

didn't get the job as a trannie instructor they said that they had to look at the overall mix of the team not really sure what this means. but i guess it means that they don't feel that i will really fit in. am gutted but i guess on the possitive side it makes choices much easyer later on.

feeling very low though not the best wish i was still at camp.

intresting

just had one of those mornings when you get into a good book and completley lose track of time. just read 'the shock of your life' which was brill. all about death and what happens next. bought it on camp it was recomended by chris did start it there but only got a very little way in so have basicaly read the whole thing this morning.

it has really made me think about what type of christian i am and what i want to acheive in my service of god. and where my life is at the mo there is alot of refection to be done on this book so may come back with more. but what is first in my head at the moment is that God is amazing and his grace through Jesus is undescribable!!!!!

if you are one of my friends who doesn't know this yet please read this book or the bible or just talk to me and find out more. i wanna see you dancing at the throne in heaven with me.

the case of the dissapering week

just back from the motivate camp which was great!!!

it was so lovley to be working with neil cat kenny and ped again as well as caching up with some of my old college mates and making some new ones can't wait for next year for that.

but of course the best bit was running around enthusing helping and chatting to the young people who came. we only had ten young people at this camp but it was brill. chris and i had three boys in our groups who where all 'special' as they themselves kept saying. we had a great time chatting just being around for these boys.

we did all the normal things of camp archery, low ropes (which chris broke hehe) running around the woods, bbq and so much more not to mention messy games last nights. the thing that hits me know is that even though i am nackered beyound belief i can't beleive that the week is already over i am actualy up for going beck tomorrow rounding up all the kids and spending another week having a laugh. can't wait for next year

although there where good bits and bad bits i did a face plant right early on in the week and have loose teeth a big nose and a big lip just wish i had a video clip of it because i know it was funny. i also got a call from con and i have lost my job at the restraint (its all political) but on the possitive side i have heard back from the gateway and they are offering me a position going to see them on monday tuesday to see what they are really hoping for although i still have not heard from whithaugh park so i may have a hard disision to make this week eeeeek. will stop brain dumping now

whithaugh park

last few days have been a bit crazy but good fun all the same. went for an interview to become a trainee instructor at whithaugh park down in the boders it is part of the barnabas adventure centres and if there was ever a job i wanted i want this one. but we shall have to wait and see although it should not be to long before i find out whats going on.

the interveiw was fun we got to do high ropes and lots of other cool things so it was well worth going just for that.

came back and filled in for one of gordons volunteers taking some young people to the beach which was nice although i so hate sand we found loads of crabs and various other things which where cool. gordon showed how brave he was when we found a butter eel that protested to being picked up it fliped and he was a distant dot on the horizone very funny indeed although i can't say i was that much braver.

a bit of well deserved luxuary

gordon took me out for a meal last night which was lovely it was only the beefeater at dear park but well the food is good there and it has a nice atmospher somewhere between the pub and a proper restraint our. it was nice to relaxe for a bit before the worries of the world flood back in. we then went back to his room and watched 'the queen' which was a good film even if the dvd would jump somewaht during it. he wasn't feeling well when i left looks like he is going down with a bad cold hope he feels well today or at least if he is not well will take the time of he needs.

another day another interveiw

will be of to newton merns in a few hours for another interveiw which will be intresting can't say i am looking forward to it but then who ever looks forward to interveiws really going to a place to pass judment and have jugdment passed on you never fun. even if you where sure thats where god was leading you.

feeling very low today

lonley

church yesterday was really nice the young peoples prize giving they had puppets which reminded me of bill and his puppets in the mission. but a quite cool service.

i came home and started to feel really low though which was not very nice played with my poi but could not go for a walk because it was stormy so watch lost for a bit and read some more of vanity fair i don't think either thing where the best idea because by the time i went to bed was so unhappy that i could not sleep.

but yesterday is yesterday and today is today i am trouping down the edingbough to see gordon even if it is for a tiny time before i go to work. but it will at least be enough to say i have seen him i have missed him so much this week.

contact

went to the optisiona today to get contact lenses fitted was 20min late which was not the best but they fitted me in. then had to go away for 45 min wile they made the lenzes.

there was much halarity wile i attempted to put the things in and then again when i tryed to take them out took ages and ages and my eyes are quite saw now but i am sure i will get used to it and its not as if i intend to wear them every day or anything.

feeling better but not 100% yet

interveiw scaryness 3 and other stuff

had my interveiw with the gateway church last night think it went well although i am guilty of turning up an hour early and woundering why there was no one about went home found out i was an hour early and came back again so that was okay. goodness sometimes i wounder where my brain is.

the only downside of this interveiw was that my noise started running towards the end and i have woken up today completely bunged up and not feeling at all well not the best not the best at all.


was late for my appointment for the job centre got my rists slaped for that but i am pourly so they can leave me alown it was fine mind.

going to curl up and watch some rubbish on the tv now and see how i feel for work tonight yikes

smokers

so i was standing outside neros waiting for allan to come and have a coffee with me when this cuy with a suitcase flicks his cigeret bud in my direction much to my indeignation it almost hits me and worse still could have ruined my new top on its first outing since frenzy. was about to say somthing along the lines of are you clind i am standing right here. when a police man comes up and says you know its a criminal offence to drop cigaertte buds on the streets in perth and fines the guy £50!!! feeling that me moaning about him nearly hitting me would after that be sault in the woond i leave it be. have no problem with the police mans actions there was a bin with an ash tray oh about four paces to the laft of the guy and another one about 6 paces to the right and another on the other side of the street directly oppersit and i think that it would have been less of a hardship for him to just go and put the discusting thing out properly even if the police had not spotted him.

coffee with allan was lovley

crazed times

quite an eventful weekend it has to be said.

friday night maddness totaly mad went to work and found that we had two new starts which was cool both very nice girls but of course not sure what they are doing yet!! and we had two tables of ten plus a full restraint very stressful. worked very hard but somehow managed to overlook a cupple for 45 minuits or at least thats what they said yikes. they wanted irish coffee so con made them two which they sent back because one of the coffees had mixed with the cream :-s this seemed to be the last straw for con he slamed the coffees down spilling them everywhere and ran out. so it was me and the two new starts left to man the fourt hummm hard work we managed though would not say wounderfully but we did.

frenzy was great took to of Gordons young people which was lovley they seemed abit over orred by the whole thing to start with but soon got into it saw loads of friends saw some wounderful bands old and new and just had the best time. although i thought it was a shame that we did not have a few more home grown bands up seemed to mainly be American bands but saying that they where brill.

sunday lazer tag after church took 31 young people to lazer tag great fun got very sweaty and came first in our group the first game and 3rd the second game which was a rather large supprise for me. then we got back to the church and had a bbq which perants came to and the people from the eve service had a burger to which was lovley. got the circus skills out although did not run the workshop, partly because i wanted food and partly because the young people where so spread out with the stuff it was impossible to do it. tort three how the juggle though and a few got the plate spinning, one young man was brill at the power stick was so impressed.

interveiw scaryness 2

yesterday was quite a day goodness the amount of driving i did i would have gotten half way home. first went to college to see neil which was lovley some things never change we had a nice chat about life the univers and camp.

then i went and saw linda and talked about dogs, big brother and other important topics lol bliss then got changed in her bothroom for the interveiw. and i don't think i look that much like a bank manager in my suit lol even if linda thinks i do.

went to saltcoats and ended up driving past the church sevril times before i finally found it urg. sat in the car and did my make-up and sprad on the perfum it was such a hot day i was so sweaty. one of the people in the church spoted me and brought me in to sit in a room in the church. not sure if i was ever so happy about this i was quite contant sitting in the car sorting my self out and listening to the radio i felt slightly rushed but hey.

the interveiw was sertainly not the worst i have been to and i think it is somewhere i could work quite happly. so we shall see

asta la vista

wery excited in slightly in pain this afternoon.
went to the wart clinc at my local gps this afternoon and he blasted my warts so hopefully in the next few days they will drop off and die wohoo and i will feel more beautiful. i mean one came on my nose which is just the last straw i have put up with them far to long as it is i counted 12 this morning in the bath yikes.
but anyhow he got the cold stuff that i can't remeber what its called and blasted the things yay although i almost fainted after the whole process which was a bit imbarrising since it really was not all that painful.

so the doc said give it four weeks and if they have not droped off come back and we will have another go. yikes

didn't get the north berwick job

don't totaly upset or supriesed but rejection never the best

maintance

doing amintance on my life clean flat send of application forms put away shopping and so forth. things are pritty dull at the moment working at the restrant is okay but i know its oly temporary the people are nice one of the waitress has been coming up to see me inbetween shifts because she lives outside perth and has no where else to go but i enjoy having the compony so thats good.

insperation

possibley have some insperation as to what i might end up doing but wont say to much see if things work out but feeling quite chipper today which is good.

had coffee with neil w who is back in the uk but not for long by the sounds of things but it was very nice to see him and think of the better times at the y so thats good.

the walls are closing in

went to the job centre today. not much fun but had to be done the two main things i needed i did not have which is a big annoyance because i am still waiting on other people for them.

arrrrrrrrg

fed up

having a bit of a ruff morning medication making me feel not so well which does not help. but the annoying thing is that this guy keeps phoning me. he used to live in my flat and apparently is looking at moving back to perth so he wanted to know when i was moving out which i told him to bugger off to. this was very rude and insensertive so i am sorry if you know this guy but i think that most people will understand why i am annoyed.

interveiw scaryness 1

my interveiw in noth berwick went okay i think i am not sure that they will offer it to me though the other candidate was older and male and i suspect thats what they are looking for.
very tired need to go away and pray about it because it may be the right place for me i could sertainly do the job.

feeling a bit parlaised i don't want to end up in the wrong place but i don't want to miss the right place because its a bit outside my comfort zone or even in this case looks like it may be a bit back in my confort zone.

feeling the burn

tuesday did two shifts at the restraint which was cool learned how to use the card money stealer machems and the till properly also leaned how to make basic coffee which was cool although anything more complicated than that still scares me.

genna left early on the night shift well not early for her she had been on since 5 but it was still quite dounting but it was okay no one asked for coffee and there was only one case of advanced maths with someones bill.

had to pull myself out of bed yesterday morning because gordon had left some stuff in the boot of my car. or so we thought but neither of us thought to check till i got down there opend the big box that was still in my boot to find that it was empty arrrrg. went and got a small desk for his friday group so the trip was not totaly waisted although was so tired

went to the doctor in the afternoon she put me on anti depresants but i guess that was on the cards whatever hope they help.

i luv my little brother

i had a very intesting convo with someone at my work about disorders
more spifacly mine (Asperger syndrome and number of others)
it opened my eyes up to a lot of intersting stuff that i have now forgotn :P
but what it did make me think most about is that everyone has these disorders in a way just some (like me) show it more then others
and that i have never if i never give up i will always do better then anyone else as i aproce things at a diffant angle to everyone else

Antony Cowley


this is something my little brother put on his blog recently i thought it was quite profound particualy for him the man obsessed with spoons (you need to read his blog to understand)

friends are good

went to bridge of allan yesterday and met up with Josh, Rachel, Chris and Louise. we all trooped out to a italian which was slightly exspensie for what it was but had nice enough food all the same. and was a good place for the banter to begin.

then we went for a long drive Gordon took the wheel which was good because i got to look at the pritty veiw and point out intresting sheep but i think slightly stressful for him because Chris is his current driving instructor so even though he was in the car it ment he felt a bit nervous much fun.

we went up to a little pub which apparently was quite nice although we arrived and it was closed so we just went back to josh and rachels and eat pudding which was best really. we looked at josh and rachels wedding photos and then gordon pulled up the onse that he had tacken of chris and louises wedding much oooowing and aring all very good.

had a heavy debate about hell and weather or not it exists (it does) and genraly it was a nice time

had to leave gordon at the station which sucked.

angry so angry

the studpid ymca have still not sent me my p45 so i can not go into the job centre tomorrow and clam my benifits i am so angry i think i may exsplode.

they also have not sent me the reports or given back my heater. arrrrrrrg

back to basics

well it has been another eventful few days.
i have now got two confurmed interveiws yay although the last one phoned up at 10:45 on thursday night. they where luky i wasn't in bed already yikes.
Gordon and I had been to see 28 weeks later which was horrid i hated it but i don't partcualy like horror films so there we go i can see for what it was it was alright although gordon said it was not as good as the first one.

yesterday after a whole heap of running around with gordon i started my part time job at the restrant.

felt very nevrous and quite out of it for most of the night only 4 years since i used to do it all the time and restrant waiting it very different to eventing. but am getting there and con seemed to be pleased with the eve so we shall see. doing tuesday lunch and dinner next week. this unfortunatly means that i can't go to my house group any more which really really really sucks.

eventfull

well the last few days have been pritty eventful!! i went to this church on sunday and decided that i would give it a shot and so i will phone them tomorrow and let them know and see if they want to go further with me.
yesterday i went to cons for lunch which was lovley although con had to leave leaving me and adrean to have a chat about the whole depressing process of getting benifits. but wile we where talking about all that he phoned us up and said might i consider working in his restrant part time. which would be a bit of a laugh and would get me out of the house. so today went down to the citz advice and asked about the amount i am aload to work and still get benifits which is less than 16 hours and you arnt alload to earn more than £81 in any one week shocking.

so we are looking at weather this will work for the restrant.
than i came home to find an e-mail inviding me to an interveiw for the north berwick christian youth trust. i am quite hopeful about this although i know that i am up against two other people who probly have not been fired from their last job.

ooops and shocking

well i have been relably misinformed today much fun i went to the gateway church where i have never been before and had a wee bit of trouble finding to go to this conferance with the YWAM guy i was quite looking forward to it.

but it was disapointed to find that i had the wrong week ooooops

then i came home vir curryes with the caretaker of the church went and looked at camreas with him which was a nice bit of light releaf.

the shocking thing today was i got a letter for Kirki babitsed church saying that they cannot look at my application for their youth minister job because i would need to become an elder and to be a elder in this church i need to be a man which clearly i am not shocking (they did say they where looking at that policy but haddn't really yet) am quite disapointed as the job did sound good.

final

so i went into the YMCA this morning gave back the equipment and stuff and got my books and things back. it was okay feeling a bit low though which is possibley not good.

intresting thing is that they where not sure weather or not they had written reports of the things that lead to my dissmisal. but anyhow we shall see.

i think it went well

well the discusion went well. i really like the idea of this job but will have to give it some thought and prayer.

infact thats what i have been sent off to do and i am to talk to the pastor again on wenesday and see if we are thinking along the same lines.

excited

i have just had a very exciting phone call!!!!!!!!! a minister from a local church has just rung me to say that they are looking for a youth and comuntiy worker and may be intrested in hireing me. we are meeting tonight which is very cool and we shall see where it goes from here but even if it goes no where it is a bit of a boost to my spirets which is really something that i needed

spiderman 3

after a day of running about doing slightly frustraiting things which we shall not get into. Gordon and i went to see spiderman 3 in livingston yesterday it was exerlant i really thuraly enjoyed it. Gordon seemed to think that they had tryed to do to much with the story but i don't agree i think the different plots where all done very well. and the action seens where awesome which is good.

we arrived a bit early so we went into pizza hut and had icecream factory and drinks which supprised our waitress but hey it wasn't very bussy so she wasn't bothered.

i have the day to myself today

its funny

isn't it strange i have been so busy for the last few months and have not had any time to update my blog and now that i have loads of time on my hand i am updating it relitivly regulay but i have very little to put on it. but i guess part of my resoning for keeping the thing is so that i can look back myself as well as keeping people aware of what i am up to in my life.

anyway what have i been doing the last few days went to see gordons friends from drumchaple on saturday. which was nice. although the time before it was very frustraiting and though no one fault other than the people who maintain the forth road bridge. gordon could not get up here on his own steam even though he spent three hours trying he only ended up just on the other side of the bridge in roysth so i had to go and get him.

went to the nazereen yesterday it was a good service the preaching was very relivant which was good.

eeek tired

goodness i mean when you are free of responserbilites (apart from sorting out the rent and bills eeek) people will always find things to fill up your time. :P you know who you are Gordon

spent yesterday in broxburn and i mean all day i got up at 6 to try and get there for 7:40 i had forgotten what it was like to get up at 6 i mean it was okay when you where at school and had to do it most days (although it may have been a course of some of my illness). the annoying thing is that even though i left rediucaly early missing my chance to vote i did not get there in time which ment a lot of hassels for Gordon and his team today this was due to crazyness on the forth road bridge and me takeing another route because at least i would only be 20 minits late as aposed to two hours late if i stayed on the bridge.

but the long and short of it is that we missed picking up the young people that we needed to pick up no young people came to the school breckfast club and it was all a bit of a waist of time.

then we went to his office he is so bad at deligating i sat and read my book (arther and george which i would recomend if you are inbetween books at the mo) interposed by nipping out to get becon rolls doing some gilerteening and the odd hug :) (the best bit)

i then drove or let Gordon drive around the primary schools to drop off leaflets and stuff leaving him as the school for a meeting. and then went and got his car from the garige what fun because he has not yet passed his test it ment that i had to go in my car pick his car up leave my car get a taxi back and pick up my car on later reflection i think i should just have got a taxi there and saved some petrol but you just do as your told at the time don't you.

Gordon was delayed in the school so i went to the country park to read untill he came out still spent far to much time sitting outside the school but it is quite fun to watch the group dynamics of secondary school kids i just hope i didn't look to weired.

we went to the country park again it being such a lovley day and i was draged up and down hills because i needed the happy hormons to start pumping (humph)

the fanal part of the work day was a meeting with the youth night guys which was long. it needed to be long admitdly but when you have been going all day particualy when you have just been the chauffeur all day and not much else you might want to go home.

thats not where it ended though gordon then said i have no food will you take me to the shop and get some no remeber we are now heading for ten at night and the only shop open in 15 min drive in the wrong direction arrrrrrg sucker me said okay and eneded up walking around asdas until ten. well i didn't get home till 11:30 so am nackered.

have to go into the y today and pick up my stuff and hand over the stuff that still at my flat this is a scary prospect.

had a hair cut

i got a hair cut today it was really badly needing it and i could not possibley go to interveiws with it in the stat it was in. it looks okay alittle short maybe but hey.

thats about it life is still prity dull have not heard from any new jobs or got any interveiws yet but we have to stay possitive really

so low today

i think that over the last weekend it has all finaly hit home feeling very depressed today.

Gordon and i went on this church tresure hunt yesterday and all i could think was please please let there be no one else in our car i can't do social. i have never been so afraid to go to church and see people the very idea of social things is making me feel sick and yet i guess life goes on and i have to face these things.

the tresure hunt was good lots of good ideas to nick for my own work

ten hours later

traveled the rest of the way back up the country yesterday. was so tired when i got in went to bed about 8:30pm scary stuff but it is ruffly a ten hour journy with lots of stoping and starting. although saying that i have been on much much worse trains all of them had powerpoints so played the sims all the way back up.

today back to reality i have to start dealing with losing my job finding out my rights getting another job. not feeling depressed even trying to see my boyfriend which is harder than it should be really.

am feeling very very very low but am aload to i think

after jos wedding

we left about 11 because the drivers where tired and we needed not to crash on the way home slowley everyone fell asleep which was not good for poor old keith as he was driving and just as tired as all of us.
when we got back to ruths we all went strait to bed and really strait to sleep we where so recked.
next morning steph gordon and i got a lift in plymoth to catch respective trains and buses steph and i where on the same train to birminaham which was lovley we made cards and chated and played just a minit gordon got a bus he was flying from exitor.

the trains out of birminan where all mesed up which was annoying i had to get on two different couchs and spent 2 hours getting to lester where i had to get another train to wellinbough which really annoyed me and i was so tired by the end of it i felt quite ill when i got home.

think i will head back up to scotland tomorrow and face my world again.

jos wedding

the wedding seromany was wounderful so beautiful. there was so much love and scriture and god was totaly in every moment of it.
the minister was clearly well known to both bride and groom and made some very wounderful points.
jos dress looked amazing infact she looked amazing.

after the sermoney we waited around wile photos where tacken the waiting staff desided we where good people to feed and came and stood with plates of ontrays its was most amusing gordon comented that he had exspected us to be all who could eat the least and lady like which made me laugh not us we where never like that :)

the markee was beautiful althoguh the centre peaces got in the way much to nics horro erica moved the one on our table so that we could see each other properly. it was quite amusing :)

they had a band to play wile we ate and then after dinner for dancing which was great fun although i always feel so clumsy and stiff on the dance floor partucualy since it was all ballroom stuff eeek but steph and i had a giggle to begin with and then gordon cut in which was good i like dancing with him i know if i fall down i wont end up in a heap :)

we chated to jo breifly servril times which was lovley its a shame we could not have got her over the night before but of course these things never work like that.

i hope she and frank are very happy and i am sure they will be

before jos wedding

after my bad news on monday i wanted the stuff about jos wedding seprate so here is the story of my weekend.

i traveled down to devon from mums on friday where i met steph and ruths mum who took us to ruths house where all where waiting for us.
we had a grand old time giggling over dinner (well rouckus laghter would be closer) and walking up hills on dartmore brill. so much fun so good to see all the girls again some of which i have not seen for years and years.

when we got up there was a mad dash for the bathroom and genral astonisment at how short a time i took which was quite amausing.
got dressed far to quickly and was waiting around giving advice to the others as to their outfits although not very good at all that stuff. we all got very exsited.

made a packed lunch and jumped into cars headed off to truro to pick gordon up arrived over and hour early so entertained ourselves with african cards (most approperate)

was so good to see gordon i am missing him so much we have not had much time alown together this month i feel bereft. the grils all planed to jump on him and chickend out at the last minit which i am sure he was glad about :) although he did not know about the plan at the time.

pliled into cars again and went to jos house where we walked around for an hour the wedding to start

what on earth is going on

monday last week. it all went to pot and this time a really mean it. i had two meetings the first one was with funders and i was late which was not the best but in the grand sceam of things not that big and deal.
but then after work we had a meeting about my future as sidewalk coordinator and i my one months notice was told i did not have to go back in other than to clear my desk and sent home. this sucks more than words can say.
i have worked hard i have done what i was employed to do to the best of my ablities but i feel like i have been left go because i would not do things that where not part of my job in the first place and because i am not load enough to build superfiasl realtionships off the bat. they seem to have really unrealistic exspections of what detached youth work should look like and how fast it should move. i am not saying i have not made mistakes but what i am saying is that i do not feel that things where going badly enough to get the sack. but then again where one door closes ten more open there will be something better for me unfortunalty i really need to find it in less than a month. :S

EXERSIZE

feeling somewhat achy this eveing have been to the gym and to the beach today. we took the young people from the Y to the body pump induction at rodneys which was soooooo hard i have worked musels i did not know i had then i feel over on the way back to work afterwoulds.
in the afternoon we all went down to the beach which involved rock climbing scrabling through streams and genral hard work but it was good fun. so hey ho.

Gordons mum comes tomorrow

Wales

Gordon and I have just got back from a very enjoyble weekend in Wales inface am actualy wishing we had more time there which is some what of a first (i must be growing up)
we went to Aberdare and I showed him where i grew up we also met up with Carla which was brill and watched the England Wales Rugby where England where beat but we didn't mind. we went to her boyfriends vodka bar and tryed lots of different flavored vodkas which was also very fun. shame we could not have stay longer but the call of my nans home cooking lured us away.
we went to nans chapple (baptice church for you scots) and hung around on sunday and on monday nan and gramps took us to st faggins museam of welsh country life which was fab!!!
a good weekend all in all

up side down world

things are not getting much better at work but i guess i am coming to turms with it and so coping with it better. but oh my it is not easy. particulay when they havn't done what they said they would do like give me proper targets to reach they have given me some very lovy dovy action points and thats pushing it for a discription. i am so cross you would not beleive. but also so bad at conflict that you would not beleive either. building up the corrage and the matiral to go back to them and say this is how i would like things to be and this is the best way to change them.

and i thought stress ended in college

well have had a very eventful week or so things have definatly not been good.
i had my line managment meeting last thursday where jill (my line manager) told me that at my last managment meeting they had desided that instead of confurming my postition as the sidewalk coordinator that they where going to prolong my probation period for another three months and give me some targets to reach during that time.
well clearly me being me i have not tacken this very well i am not good at this sorta things at all but i should get these targets this afternoon and when i do i will see if they are reasonable and see where we go from their.
am keeping my options opens for now

very strange thing

i swoped my blog over to the new type (something to do with google) and i seem to have started posting on two blogs which means i have two missing posts on this one which is the one that i have been keeping for the last three years and two random ones somewhere else i am not making much of a fuss since neither of the two post where ground brecking as i am sure everyone who reads this blog will understand as not much of it is :) i enjoy keeping it mind which is sorta the point.

so whats going on well we went out last night and the young people where amazing we had three convosations and i mean convosations not three contacts i feel that we are starting to one get known by the young people and two be able to start chatting about important things all very exciting really.

we are going out tonight once a month on saturday is better than never on saturday is my philophay although i am fighting to get enough people to be out on saturday every week we can dream.
although when we have sessional workers that will be alot more easy.

this morning went to a meeting about a youth service that is to start happening in perth i have some reservations about the way that the youth workers in perth are going about setting up ie the fact that there where no young people at this meeting just workers and they did not seem to have consulted with any young people about what the vision should be. but hey their hearts are in the right place and not everyone has done a degree in these things. i can't justify being part of this project as work so i know have the problem that i have to see if i can justify spending some free time supporting them. they do need people and it seems a shame when i am nagging for vols all the time that i am not willing to give up some of my free time but then again i have limited free time and if it would interfer with time with Gordon, friends and so on then i have to really be careful about it. there are also the health implications that i have deal with so we shall see.

taking some time

have been giving my spare room (gordons room) a clean there was paper and boxes everywhere paper left from bringing the final lot of stuff from home and the boxes full of stuff from Gordons flat that does not fit in his room in the shared flat he has moved to.

so it is feeling better in here although i still need to make the bed and hover the floor.

church this morning was good all about love which was to exspected with valuntimes day coming up and i got a meeting with the minister tomorrow so hopefully we will have another church invovled in the project which is brill.

we went to see chris and louise yesterday which was lovley really wounderful. we played scene it the music addition i of course was abuslutly no good at it so was religated to dice througher. ho hum although i did get one question right.

"youth conferance" oh dear oh dear

i don't think that the people who organised the youth confrance that i was at today have quite got the idea.
it was well dull is a word that would decribe it wrong is another word missleading another and inaproperate for young people.
the topic looked good conquoring your thoughts the sub points were good at the heart of all sin is a thought you had to think of doing something before you do it. went through negative things that can happen to make you think negative thoughts and different things that we have to avoid to keep our minds clean. yup it could have been brill.
but there was no oppurtuity for disscusion the young people including myself where made to sit and listen to this guy from singapour talk at them for three hours with at the end of each of his bit another guy getting up and going over the first guys points again arrrrrrrrrrg.
there was also some serouse problems with the theology that was being tort it may have been langwige barriors but at times it felt like our percher (couse thats all he could be described as) was saying god stops loving people when they sin! that we should be completely seprate from the world ie go into the christian bubble and never come out to talk to none christians and so forth.
at the breif time that was given for feedback questions no one spoke exsept a stupid old dude with a really stupid question about angles which was anwered really badly. clearly none of the young people had really engaged with the topic in hand.

it frustraits me so when i go to stuff like that because it could be so good if i or any of my follow students had been given the reins there could have been disscusion more questions more intresting ways of persenting the information and we could also have made sure the dude was not gonna spote rubbish that just confusses the young poeple.

i would also have had a jargon buster session he used terms like fear of god exspecting the young people to know exsatly what it meant and i know for a fact that i did not know what that meant when i was a young person.
fyi it means

What does walking in the fear of the Lord mean? It certainly does mean to worship with reverence and awe. But it means to live in fear of displeasing the Lord. ...... but let me exsplain what i mean. a deep true fear of God will keep you from comitting adultery - because of what it does to God, Church, to the one you would be involved with to you, your spouse and family, and to you.
R.T. Kendall (out of the comfort zone)

ill

it seems all i ever am is ill sometimes but hey just had the lurgy bad am back at work now but still recovering if i am being truthful

looking forward to getting out and meeting some young people on friday still a few days to go before i can do that and another volunteer to find eeek.

oh and i have this youth unlimted group to do before that which should be good but we shall see.

lead a session on alcohol and drugs last week it went well although you really don't wish to do that sort of thing with you boss in the room but never mind.

christmas

christmas was great bussy though Gordon and i drove down on chirses birthday which was lovley we went to the chiness buffet in rushden. we went to see ponokeio in northampton which was lovley i love the royal christmas play. although it is criminal what they have done to the entrance of the theater you have to enter through the nasty derngate entrance which is a great example of 1970s yurk instread of the lovley period entrance which we used to go through just makes you want to cry.
gordon went to his home on christmas eve but after going to church with me which is nice.
christmas day was really really nice we all opened presents with sarah and then uncal bob and antie linda came and picked her up. after which we carried on with a quie day helped mum make to make christmas dinner well sort of helped her.
went to dads the day after boxing day which was also lovley met some of dianas friends from the drama centre which was intresting.
then went to Gordons for a few days before he went to this conferance we welcomed in the new year on a bridge in cambridge. and had spent the rest of the night meeting up with his friends and seeing his family.
i went home again and met up with Dan and Aron which was great Dan and i watched scrubs and Aran and I went to the chinees again but that was also lovely havent seen Aron in so long wounderful to catch up.
Gordon and i traveled back up together on the sunday which took up 12ish hours but we did stop for two to see his father and his wife we went to the chinees again so that make three trips to the chinees in three weeks.
now i am in bed with a cold and possibly a chest infection gonna try and get a docs apointment today but such is life at least i was not ill over christmas yay