My First Day At School

Simon's Cat 'Let Me In!'

Simon's Cat 'Cat Man Do'

feeling a bit better

okay so i am being helped towards the middle of the tree there are good points to my linemanagment and but its better than having nothing there at all.

i don't know though still feeling discoriged and quite low

su was okay but i looked at the wrong verce so was alittle disjointed.

i hope Youth House Group goes well tonight it has the potental to be a good night be genraly it has the potental all the time.

the worst bit is over

superhero is done
vis a vis is done
easter assbly is done

its almost plain sailing until easter is over and thats a really good thing

gordon and i went to see south pacific last night which was great we had such a lovley night was so upset when it came to an end. but then you can't live in a time bubble however much you would like to.

now the wind is blowing

humph so inregards to me earler post that i was stuck at the end of a branch that was beinging to creack.

well this week the wind pickted up so am feeling even more insecure than i was then.

some quite significant stuff kicked off at the school which was one of the envirmoents that i was feeling fairly confident about os it has hit me quite hard.

feeling alittle like i have done something really badly or really wronge at work in jenral which i am sure is not the case.

i have been alittle frustraited and stressed well okay alot frustraited and stressed but which else was there for me to feel. was strating to feel truley abbandond by my managment. i am a person who needs lots of support and help in lots of things and when i don't get that then i mess up.

but now it feels alittle like something has gone wrong so my managment are jumping feet first in an attempt to fix it and they might not really look what they are about to land on. its great they want to help me with these problems but i really do not want them to make these problems into bigger deals than they are already. i would also like to know that they can see that i have done good work for them for the last 7 months and it is not all just this one thing that has gone wrong now. and the thing that coursed it to be an issue in the first place (my communication skills) is not something that is unfixable.

i am hurt enough from the Y problems I hope they can see that and that I need TLC to be the best i can be.

Christian Pat and his Charismatic Cat

this is sooooo funny

the camera that looks through clouths

hehehehe

out on a limb thats starting to creck

feeling very alown at the moment and slightly bereft. if i was doing the blooby tree that we used to use a load in college. i would be far away from everyone else and on a thine branch.

there you go i have done quite a lot to put myself in this possition. the problem is that its happening in every asspect of my life and right now i don't feel like there is anyone i really can talk to about it.

which again is my own fault.

i mean i can talk to different people about different asspects of my life which i guess i should be happy with but what i would really like is to have someone that i could offload it all to and to know that that person would help me find solutions without trying to sort them out for me. i mean i don't need resuce i need support.

school let down

headed into the school this morning but the assembaly that i was supposed to be doing was canceled. this is not a problem really but its slightly frustraiting. i did ask the receptionist if it was on the other day knowing that other peoples assembalies had been cancelled but as far as she new it was on. i wish they would let all their staff know when things have changed but i guess thats really differcult in big schools.

buddies was gerat yesterday and tuesday, su was okay.

just rescued cheery from the inside of the couch which was silly of her to get into there.

emotional moment

get so frustraited with my self sometimes. why is it that when i am tired angry frustraited or anything all i can seem to do it burst into tears. i hate it partly because it is embarrising makes everyone worry get stressed around me. and when i am already tired it makes me even more tired.
basicly spent the whole church service this morning weeping away but hey thats me i guess i have to learn to live with it.

enage tonight which should be good have only limited input this month because was away in Albania when the meeting happend.

not complaining though!

the real start of easter maddness

been a chaplancy meeting today planning the easster assemblies. then we have super hero and vis a vis comeing to the church. tbh i can't wait till its all done and dusted. not saying it wont be fun it will its just going to be incredably hard work for the next few weeks.

not to worry though going to take a weeks holiday afterwoulds to recover and Gordon and i might head up north for a long weekend away in some hostel or other which would be nice.

back

Albainia was brill

could have stayed for another week at least.

although i was very tired when i can home

did so much its hard to think what to put on here.

we went into the jipsee community most day visited two ophaniges and did crafts till they where coming out of my ears its all good.

had such an amazing time and everyone was really pleased with the work that i did out there.

the team there are wounderful

and had a really fun time in the evenings pillow fights ect as well as getting young people to bed. quite funny really most nights as soon as our heads hit the pillows we where asleep. its hard work this missionary lark

getting ready to go to albainia

i think the service went well on sunday although i was alittle harrised during it and before it i didn't leave enough time to prepare it seems. but then never mind you live and learn.

i am getting ready today which is intresting making lists all the things i need too take all the things i need to leave behind so that other things want suffer there is lots todo but we will be okay i am so looking forward to it.

how long can a cold last yikes

my cold has contunied i am still feeling frigile and coughing alot even though its been more than a week.

i am back at work though which is good going to have to deal with the fall aout from being ill for a week now missed meetings and the likes.

superhero is coming to perth in march so have a lot of work to do for that i am really looking forward to doing the work even if the music is not my cup of tea :)

engage this weekend as well lots to do lots to do all alittle scary really.

deep impact and fall out

went to the scotish youth work conferance "deep impact" last weekend it was brill not just because we got to see loads of old friends and make loads of new contacts but there was also some really good lectures (as well as some very poor onse) and it was lovley to get some really good time to myself to walk about avimore and look at the snow on the mountains.

the only down side was that i came home and within hours i was coughing and by wenesday lunchtime i was off work ill. and i am liying on my couch still not feeling very well but getting better life goes on.

people have been very kind over the past few days.

splish splash

hehehe

William Tell Mom Sayings

this is soooooo funny

hecktic life

i have just been resiling with my dairy for the next wee wile i am so busy over the next few weeks which is good but then again not good because i will be sooo tired by the end of it all.

things that are happening

assembalies this week
christmas assembaliy next week and all the prep for that
teresha visiting
art space accustic cafe which will be good
youth club party
youth club
youth house group
labelless

can't wait for it all to be done and over and to go home and see my family and friends for christmas

video editing

been editing the chritsmas assembaly video all afternoon had to go down and get the right conncetions from gordon at lunch time which was nice.

its going well the main problem that i have run into is that i forgot the christmas tunes to go under the video so i am back home cooking some dinner and picking up the cd of chees that is going to drive me up the wall for the next hour or so ho hum it will be worth it.