just got back from summer club. it went well and i got complemted on my energy yay. well you may as well make the best of such things i am leading the singing and actions tomorrow cose the kids need someone to do that it is all good really.
didn't go to church after all yesterday went to sleep instead and watched videos not telling mum she will give me the your delicate speech again honistly tehe love you mum if you are reading this one thinks putting such things on the internet defeats the object of not telling people really dosn't it.
okay enough of this total madness i have work to do. (or so she says)

feeling alittle sick really we were in Glasgow emlem last night and it was so hot and they had painted a wall urk i almost keeled over in there it was horried and the problem was that i really really want to stay and listen in the end the threat of vomit won out and holly and i went and sat outside till it ended which was fine because it gave us a chance to cach up. rest of the night felt really doped up though never good always happens when i can't breath properly although and am still feeling alittle urk which might be unrelated might just be me actualy getting sick. might cry off church will see how i feel in about half an hour though cose if i am fine i will go but if not then i do not wish to make myself more ill for next week and let everyone down.

what a day wow. well went to the garage this morning to cheak and see if they had the right phone number as they had not phoned me yesterday as they said they would but it was because they had not gotten round to doing my car yet. then came home and did some swift cleaning as Gorden was coming round to use my internet he arived about 12 then i went to the hair dressers at 1 then we ate lunch and carried on with varouse jobs. the car guy phoned me to tell me that the car was ready which was good although by the time we got round to going to get it the garage was closed we had dinner which made me half and hour late for a meeting which was alittle embarising. then went home and Gorden messed around for ages it was great fun so nice to have people around at my house. quite sad he had to go home really. but then again just had a nice hot bath which is the up side of guest leaving tehe.

feeling alittle unsettled stayed in the college last night after going to se Irobot which is a class film but this morning i was woken up by someone trying to get into the room which was hollys room so i thought i was holly coming back from wherever but when i cheked the person had gone bit eek. also slightly nervy couse i have just tacken the mini into the garadge told this guy want rip me off but but the potental is there as i know nothing about cars well never mind the things that need doing need doing maybe i can get a loan from the church if it is to exspensive.

Gorden his befriendy and his mum and i all went to m&d's yesterday (a theam park) it was great. went on all the ides that we could go on although am in a bit of pain today from rickaty rolicoasters though. I also drove on the motoway again which was not to bad. got back to the college and was so tired that i didn't feel that i could get home safley so stayed over. got so much to do today now it is one of thouse days with so meny little jobs that you just feel like you will never get them all done oh well had better get started then hadn't i :-)

life is good have driven on the motoway sucsessfuly twice this week i am so proud of myself. Also took Gorden and his mum to Drumchaple with a load of disco stuff hung around with them and played rounders with some kids which was fun although sadly i was gootten out every time did not even score a rounder. yesterday was good went to a church bbq yum

my life tehe had a good day yesterday. got disturbed in the middle of doing some work i didn't really want to be doing to go and get tickets for King Arther in the eveing with Kat and Gorden. Kat went of the work and Gorden and I went shopping but the fun thing is what it was for lights and disco equipment for a disco at Gordens placment we got loads of neat stuff including a bubble and a smoke machem and spent the rest of the day playing with them although could not put the smoke machem on in college. we compromised by putting it out the window coursing much hilarity when the wind just bloow the smoke right back into the room. tehe. Holly and family turned up in the afternoon and we hung out with them always good playing monopaly setting up the lecture theater into a games room (heathens that we are) and so on. finaly rounding off the night with Pics King Arther was good nothing really to rage about although it would is a good film to see in the pics. went strait home after that coul of slept over as kat and i are going to see Stepford Wives today but needed my bed. it is all good

was watching day time tv yesterday very sad i know but whats a girl to do. but i sar a thing that made me actualy want to cry. there were these women doing a chat show and they were talking about how they would go for plastic surgary and chemical peals and the like because every woman really wanted to be beatiful and they seemed to think that was the only way to do this. these ladyes were really lovley ladyes but they seemed to think because they had a few rinkles they were ugly. although there was one lady who stood up and said that you should love yourself whatever oh well i guess that is the way of the world it just makes me sad.

have been sitting around doing pritty much nothing all day bliss.
yeasterday of course being sunday was another story and we had an impromtune YF in the evening due to much begging by Ruth humph it was actualy quite good fun we sat around drank hot choclate talk about God and w2hat he's doing in our lives at the mo and looked at the pics on my computer. although they maniged to brake one of my guitar strings humph they were trying to tune it with my clarinet i think that may be were they went roungh so that little visit to the music shop i have been putting of for so long has become that bit more urgent.

its all good my computer is playing funny games on me and would not conect to the internet eralyer on today but such is life. got back from camp yesterday which was great fun although alittle stressful. had a migrain in the middel of it which was not good even so maniged to do a ropes course which i am quite proud of just need to take into acount next time that camp is not a place i will be able to retreat from the things that course me to have migrains and so i will have to be careful. had a lagh though and the kids were great. just been to the pics it was funny Kat and Gorden and i went to see thunderbirds then walking tall we ment to go see the prince and me but it was sold out. both films were passible for what they were nothing really ground brecking though. yay hyper now need to sleep.

my life they have changed how this thing looks again there apear to be some people with alittle to much time on there hands i know that you can't see this so i am not sure why i am talking about it.
had another camp meeting today and tomorrow we face the music hopefully it will be good i am sure it will be good just need to get there ho hum.
but there are meny things to look forward to in the coming weeksso thats okay.

just had a bad moment.
having a great day spent time with some of the people who went to heart and soul and even though we didn't really do what i thought we were going to do it was nice to see them.
then went to pics with linda to see mean girls which was great and discovered how obsessed i really was as we got into the lift to get to the groud floor and linda ses that in hindsight that that was a very moral film and that it would be good to use in groups and i say that i had been thinking that all the way through can i never rest i wounder. then later we went to see the frist showing of spiderman exserlant film loved it. so to the bad moment got to my car and found the door unlocked. well nothing valuable was tacken as there was nothing valuble in the car that is just commen sense but my frount seat covers were gone which may not be a very big deal as they wernt all that exspensive and i have to more which were gonna be made into a cover for the back seat but they were a gift from one of my dads Rob and so it hurts. so alittle low at the mo will get over it of course.
thing is i rember locking the car so i don't think i trust that lock but on the other hand it was ovesly a bit of a opertunist theft as they didn't even attempt to take my radio which know is brock but a theif wouldn't would they?

am at college again starting to live my life here again.
meet up with some of the young people from heart and soul the idea started out that it would just be the young people from Cathcart and we could have a sharing time but that didn't happen it just turned into a siting round and chatting tim "fun" but linda rescued me and we went to the pics again this time to see mean girls which was good lots of things that can be used for teaching oh arn't i sad i have no life oh well the wind and the rain.

had such a boring day yesterday really but it was so nice just sat around and eat chocalte which i will regrate when i get fat but ho hum the wind and the rain.
today going to see shrek 2 at last yay yay yay it will prbley be a big come down because i have bilt it up so big in my mind but again ho hum the wind and the rain.
just sitting having many convos with may people in the youth min room great fun Neil keeps walking in and out look alittle dazed and confused but what do you exspect 3 days before camp. camp next week yay have still not ritten these flipping drama opps will do that tonight as well as a million other things ho my life i am rambiling. never mind you all love me anyway.

I make this work or so i am told hehehehehehehehe 

Maryhill were we went during heart and soul.  

wow what a week it has been totaly amazing totaly amazing indeedy.
heart and soul rocks and anyone who is reading this and does not come next you is a very big silly indeed don't arange any hollidays till you know when it is happening sercously you will not regreat it.

God has done so much this week it is wounderful and not just for other people he has been doing amazing things in me to like for the ffirst time in my life i danced without any worreis about being a discowardinated fool. i think he might have healed my dyspacsa.
yay

anyhow amazing

the internet is rubbish

just been to a very long thing it was the graduations service 2hrs uuurg but it was great to see how many people graduated well done all you. (if you are reading this that is)
anyhow doing well in genral not much has happend since i last bloged. going to take my young people to elem tonight bit nervouse for them but i am sure they want be freeked out to much and we can debreif them afterwoulds if they are.
head is hurting again feeling slightly worried about it hurting quite so much i mean i am not doing anything to make me stressed to make me have a headake. the problem being when i get a headake i panic because of the past history i have with them but i have had three truly bad ones in one mounth maybe it is time to go to the doctor pray big time everone i don't want to have to go back to the bad old days i have been clear for two years. scard and frightend really ttfn

I bought pillows!!! i really am living in my own home how freeky is that. was putting up photos in my room really need to get out there and take some up to date onse because most of the proper stuff is from so long ago. but on the up side i have my enlarger so i can now develope some of the huge amounts of black and wight film yay.
what else have i done well went to a meeting yesterday which was a meeting yep yep it was.
not much else really reading? thats about all my life contains arnt i fun