have now got the distinction of falling asleep in a tribe concert if you do not know who the tribe are they are very load and have alot of flashing lights. tehe.

urrrrg not feeling any better infact feeling worse but it is going to get worse before it gets better i guess. I still intend to go to the tribe tonight will not be beat. but think the rest of the afternoon will be spent unproductivly sleep sleep sleep again. which sort of destroys the origonal plan of making a large dent in the reading the next essay grrrrr. looking forward to going home now. ohohoh looks like I got a tax rebate this morning which is great timing for Christmas although I am not gonna spend any more than i intended on that perticula event it means that i want have to tighten my belt that much when it comes to food and stuff. see how much is left over at the end of the mounth and will put that into cards and things so feeling good about my finances at the moment which is strange.

had to come home from college sick today quite depressing really. not only do i hate being sick i hate the fact that i always seem to be getting sick. Class this morning was quite embarrising fell asleep wile the lecture was talking about something random and she asked me a question oooops. Then tryed to do some work in the libary but could not concentrait so went and couched up to Gordon for the breke and finaly came home and sleept and sleept and sleept. Will be going to the tribe tomorrow whatever i refuse to take any more time off work have already tacken a ridicules amount of time off this term. It is a shame that this has hit on a monday YF week basicly the bissyest week there is for me. oh we shall servive we always have.

yay yay yay yay. it is all good got most of the work done on my human development essay done. now i can relaxe and put to work into the church meaning and mission. Basicly the easier essay is all but done and the hard one is ahead but because the easy one is finished i am not so worried about the hard one. May not be making much sence right now since head it alittle spinning. that is my day today tacken care off although didn't get up as fast as i would of like this morning think i am catching a cold. yesterday was fun I enjoyed myslef at college although was late in and didn't really listen in the frist leacture. We went to see the forgotten after college. it was okay for what it was but what it was, was perdictable story. although the jumpy bits were good and random enough to be enjoyble. ie a house diserpreing into space all good fun. watching prid and predujce at the moment such a good film. loe bbc costum dramas love Jane Austin and love Mr Darcy.

urg well not done so well with getting the frist draft of this essay done. but made a good start on getting it done. gonna see how long i can go without falling apart hohum.

the goal for today it is get the frist draft of this essay done. may be abit of a unrealistic goal it may not be but gonna try. yesterday YF was good. steve was there and the Guys were wounderful they entered into the convosation. and my feedback was very possitive and i was very encoriged maybe i am not as bad at what i do as i thought i was. but best get to work.

on my way to do the washing up honist. it is really bad i have actualy run out of forks really need to get myself sorted and get motavated to do these things. eassy to do this afternoon which is good have alittle extra time to do it. as one of my leaders is sick and the band practice can not happen without him. as he is the only one who knows how to set up the PA for the young people. should really get someone to teach me how to do it all ho hum

had quite a productive day. made a start on the reading for an essay which is dull but good. then had steph holly and Kat around for tea they have just left we had a good night watched 6sences which is a really good film. got alot of washing up to do now though only down side to having guests think i will sleep well tonight am very tired watching the news urg

ruff night last night was sick but feeling much better now sleept from 9pm-9am this morning. yesterday was good class was okay although as per normal totlay lost the thread by the end of the second lecture. ho hum feeling quite low it is the thought of all the essays i have to write and how i havn't even started to make a dent in them at all. oh well such is life. looking forward to tonight the girls are coming round and we are having a girly night in. although weather one will ave the energy by then one shall see.

wow what a bissy day i have had. but first everyone how sad is this Gordon and I are sitting next to each other in the living room and staring at respective laptop screens. well this morning went to see Joan Park to give her some money from the church for the time that i stayed with her. so that is one stress gone and out of the way. then went and did my food shopping which was heavy. reading for a wile followed by a visit from the wounderful Ruth who helped me out with an assiment and had a really nice chat with her about life love and the univers. then came into college and went a youth workers confrence called re-ignight your youth ministry it was good. sertainly something to think about and take deeper. spent the rest of the evening getting hair stretend and mucking about which is all good.

college was okay today enjoyed Kens class. although it makes me insainly tired. we went to see ladies in lavinder tonight which was not the best film i have ever seen. Didn't like the idea that you can only have a fulfiled life in a relationship with a man if you don't get married then you will turn into a strange unhappy old woman. Also have some serouse reservations about the historical athentisaty of the story saw some mager flews in set costum and use of electiristaty. but for a mindless cupple of hours it was okay.

havn't done as much as i would have liked today but have gotten a fair bit done so thats okay. YF tonight was possitive we did one on image. It may be alittle worring that i feel quite pleased with my groups when all the young people in them havn't burst into tears. but they didn't ths week and that is so nice.

well getting out of bed this morning was alittle bit of a tril so tired. made the mistake of not looking at my watch before phoning Gordon last night at about midnight and so feel alittle ruff due to lake of sleep. the reason I was unaware of the was because after i got back form caterlyst last night i just got on with what i had to do and it took my much much longer to do it than i thought. but time passes fast when you are having fun so i must have been having fun so its okay. went to town and got a video camra from neil to do the stuff for the assinment for listening and Guidence skills. Not going to comment on that module will get very annoid if i do. now am getting ready to start the next two essays which are due in within a week of each other so gonna attempt to do them both at the same sort of time. we will see how that goes but not sure weather i can manige it. going to a confrence called re-ignight your passion for youth ministry looking forward to it :-)

G and I walking home from the pics last night. good to have friends who will put up with taking pictures of us thanks Holly and Gavin. 

had really nice night last night. we went to this curry night which was quite good fun as we all sat round a table and played bord games till the food was ready then again afterwould sort of took away some of the tension of being in a new placce. the food was nice as well :-). then we went to the pics and saw Taxi which was not very deep but wasn't trying to be and it is nice to just sit and watch people being silly sometimes. raining and cold outside got back to the flat about 9:45 this morning with two very wet feet and my hair going all curly. never mind such is life.

moved my living room around again think i like it this way round. but havn't acheived much work wise but getting there really should not be procstinating and writing this. going out with Hols Gav Gordon and some friends of Gordon tonight should be good.

well been avoiding it all day even to the point of going to the hair dressers. But have just gotten back from the garige who have bought my car from me for spare parts. fixing it was out of the qustion.  

it is cold in here but not putting the fire on couse i have to find my car keys and go clean out my car so that then i can take it to the garage and give its last rights. bit sad but i think it is actualy going to be a weight of my mind. yesterday was good college fairly intresting in the afternoon althought the moning class was fun it still has very little content and basicly would be a good workshop for people who are not paying quite as much money as we are. forgot to get the carma for the assiment video as well but i will get it monday and will get acupple of my young people to visit me and help me out. stupid assiment anyhow. James birthday party in the evening it was quite nice although i really didn't feel very socail so G and i spent the evening watching indiana Johns raiders of the lost ark. it was really nice to spend time together.

oh dear fire has just gone out which mean that i have to change the the gas bottle it's so heavy. but i guess since the land lord has still got the key to the cupbord down the stars. so the spare bottle is in my hallway so i don't have to carry it very far.

college was a really good today nothing special really just had a genraly good day. we spent lunch time with Tony which was good. talked for a long time to holy last night which was nice as well.

these are the celtic houses they have proper fires in them it is really like goin back in time dispite the modern dressed attendts. :-) 

wow just back from a weekend in Wales that was all it ever could be. ho hum. alright it wasn't that bad but well there are places i would rather have been. we went to saint fagins which is a great museam i love the celtic houses they are the best and i did a load of college reading as well i read a novel and half. back at college now and back to the same old same old wen to the pics this afternoon saw Bridget Johnes which was okay.

quite a good day. came into college with all my stuff to go down to wales tomorrow so that i didn't have to go home and did law and narritive this morning during which totaly lost the thread of what ted was talking about but didn't matter that much. had to sleep through fellowship groups because of my head and that helpt in the last part of the class. then had lunch with Gordon which is always nice. Linda and i went to see finding never land this afternoon which was an amazing film and made me dream of being back in the theater when i was a kid with my dad and mum doing there thing. oh joy. spent this eveinging doing photocopying for class intend to do alot of work wile i am down in wales catching up and so forth getting back on an even keel so that i can then get into a proper ruteen when i am home which will hopefully sort out some of the stress.

hummmm not done all the things i intended to do today including tideing my house. will do that after YF tonight something to look forward to. went to the doctors today about my migrain last week he gave me some painkillers and a mirgain prevention tablet just the same old same old i rember this from before is there nothing else that they can surgest. honistly.

it is amazing how little things can make me so happy. was just walking down the road from church and kicking the Autum leaves around and i just felt so happy. being cuddled by G gives me the same feeling its good i have it on tap which is really cool so glad that we are together. okay gonna stop before this gets to sopy ;-)

the bonfire in Drumchaple 

my life what a weekend. Friday was a really good day Gordon and i went out to lunch with some of his college friends then we went to Drumchaple and gave out hot chocolate to the people who were setting off fireworks and watching the bonfires. it was great fun and i think people apreshated it. Finaly we went to see a very strange film called bad santa not sure about it. Then had to get up at 7the next morning (ouch) to get to church and do the Alpha away day thing which was good long but good. then yesterday evening took two girls to a christian event called amaze which was again okay. it was a very long day though and was a in serouly bad mood when i got in so tired. oh well

Had big choclate craving last night. mega although Ben and Jerry's would have done. although had neither so made pancakes. 

feeling a bit zoned out. been at college all day so that is always a reasion for feeling a bit thin at the end of the day. Holly came and stayed over yesterday we had a good day although had to leave her to go to a youth team meeting. Which was a good meeting we got stuff done. getting out of the house was a bit of a pain this morning so tired and getting through the day was alittle anoying to.

yay head apears to have sorted it's self Syndol rules. have also finished one of the books i have been reading Hat Full of Sky by Terry Pratchet and as useal with TPs books i have no complaints at all really love Discworld. now have gotta get the new novel as Hat Full of Sky was the latest childrens book. The new novel is all about the post office can't wait to start reading it. the only question is can i whight till christmas and get mum to bye it for me or do i have to have it now. Guess Christmas it will have to be couse i don't have money or time and it is good to have a book to read at home. ho hum anyhow have to go to the actual post office today i have a parcil waiting for me which is a bit of a surprise as i havn't ordered anything. wounder what it is? listening the the news they are talking about the American election sort of can't wait till it is over thats all that people have been able to talk about for ages bord of it all now.

had to miss college today could not handle it. but it seems to be getting better Praise God. have now got a microphone for my laptop and so can talk to Gordon over msn which will save us so much money on phone bills.

well it has been a long day through the pain have gotten the first draft of my essay done. but now my head is painfull like yesterday. Gordon came over which was great but he had to leave quite quickly which made me very sad which does not help with the pain in my head but it was lovely to see him though. think i will be sleeping through lunch and break tomorrow just to get through. have slept alot today as well. but should get ride of it wenesday or then again still have darrels reading to do dam may never get ride of this pain. there is just to much going on. really really sad help

it's been a bad weekend. i went to the college friday night to go pics with Gordon. well due to my genral dizyness we didn't go and ended up not going at all and played monoply which was good. but saddely the headake that i had had all day developed into a full blown mirgrane.
which made me very panicy couse i really really don't want to start having mirgrians again espeshaly when my life is so good.
Although i know why it developed liying in a room on your own lets you do alot of introspection and really it just to many things to deal with all happening at once.
Essays, sick perants, silly brothers that sort of thing.
It meant that i could not go home couse i don't go outside were there are roads when i have a migrain unless there is someone else with me. But on the possitive side of that meant that i got to spend the weekend with Gordon although would have rather been well and been able to play and have fun for a day than to be sick and stcuk liying down for two.
and really really cross that i had to miss work i was really looking forward to this sunday.
however am now home feeling quite alot better and have shrek 2 which is the best.

got ride of the bad smell. cleaned the flate although it is not very tidy it is clean. and have now been sitting reading bibles all afternoon. that is not a complaint i have actualy had a really great time with them this afternoon grown in my understanding of dueteronomy. on the down side still not sure how to put this essay together and havn't even started on the comentaryes yet. tomorrow meeting Bill and will get on with it get the frist draft written don't have much prep to do for Sunday.

my new TV's here yay it was very heavy but all set up now. great fun am now watching friends and able to talk to people on MSN. AT THE SAME TIME!
yay lots to do today should really get sarted.

am home head it full. darals classes have a tendancy to make me feel light headed and very very tired. but they are good and challenging which is more than i can say for some of the leactures this term.
but not gonna grip God is good and i am were he wants me at this time.
had a good day today really gonna leave it at that

sitting in Kats room bit wired being on msn and being at college good though. just done all the readying for tomorrow although i had meant to start the essay i do not think my head can take anymore tonight so will get down to it friday have the books out or at least some of the books out so it want be that hard.
get it done over the weekend yikes the first essay off the year don't even feel like am properly back at college yet.

i just missed my train playing around on evotions ooops will have lunch before i go now and spend all afternoon and evening in College instead of all morning and afternoon.
something smells bad in here not sure what it is though.

tired it is that lightly un-healthy feeling tired that happens after college. although it has been a good day. although like i usealy do i forgot that i was suposed to bring goodies for fellowship groups so had a run around the corner to the shop and bought a box of qualty street.
also got a wireless network card which means i can sit on msn in the college i will let you amagin the possiblityes of that. :-)
so now the only thing between me and bed is time it is good.

just had a really good Monday night YF we had some new members and chated about how we can do the ecrad chicken thing. they are very exsited about the hole thing which is possitive.
have washing up to do don't really want to do it but such is life.

This is Mr Darcy my prezie from Gordon to keep me company when i have bad dreams *smiles to self feel all warm and fluffy* 

had a really good day yesterday!!!!
the service went well was so nervouse with my talk never done one quite that tecknecal before i mean never used powerpoint before but it worked really well ment that everyone was consentraiting more on the screen than on me.
was very blessed by the people at church. they did the normal embarissing thing of sinning happy birthday. But also don't think i have ever received that many presants and cards was so lovely.
I came home and started my roast dinner talked to my mum and Gordon came over. we spent the afternoon evening watching x-men.

Band practise went well although don't think i am 100% couse i felt rotten for a very good part of it hope that i can get through tomorrow and monday not keen on missing work messing up my scedual was not the PLAN oh well such is life.

well what a week. wenesday was a mix of both good and bad situations.
I was on my way to college and talking to my mum when she lets slip that my dad had had a heart attack a not that sunday gonge but the sunday before and was still in hopistal waiting on some tests. so that was not plesant i am still in abit of shock. But the party was good great to see Steph even though i sent her to the wrong restrant and the lots of people came so that was good.
thrusday felt ill all day possibly due to all the stress. but the delourse concert helpt with that you know exersize and all that and my young people are great they always cheer me up.
Yesterday didn't really have any will to do anything work realted so i moved furniture around and cleaned the flat it needed it although didn't get as far as the bathroom but will do that this eveing that way i will have a lovely clean place to chill out in tomorrow afternoon after the frist youth service so exsited.
Am i the most boring person in the world couse all i want to do on my birthday is slob about and watch dvds with my boyfriend? think some people think i am oh well.

bissy day today but not much happend to exsite people it was just college. although spent the most of the day avoiding coffee drinkers like the plage bit of a jippy tum (ladyes issues).
yesterday went shopping for the party and sorted out Kats prezzi but want talk about that till she has opended it. :-) going to bed soon yay

wow talking to morris on-line isn't amazing you can be sitting in Glasgow talking to someone in rwanda as if they were in the next room. love morris he is a great guy. one of the big brothers from my time in Uganda

this was a good day. smiles all round.
The pathfinders session went well this morning we had a good meeting about the service next week quite exsited about that.
then had to cancel YF which was a shame but it was for the best ment the stuart got the night off which was best couse he wasn't very well.
feeling quite warm and fluffy just watched mansfeild park exerlant film gonna do the dishes and go to bed and read.
study day tomorrow such joy.

just back from band practice it was good it was long but good. sadly lots of people who said they were able to go did not go so it was not as good as it should have been.
oh well not much one can do about it so i am not gonna do anything about it other than remind everone about next weeks practice.

My evening with steph was great we went to Wagamungas (behind the tron church if people in Glasgow want to know) in memory of Noelle. such a good restrant. then we went to the Cehlie which was so much fun danced every dance exsept one and that one was only due to lack of partner. Think the college Cehlie is such a good idea it breaks down barriers and is the start of meny friendships.
looking forward to next years already!
then came home and waited for water to heat up as i was not going to bed with out a bath. and even if i was would not of been able to sleep couse my back was really really badly hurting gonna have to go to the ciropractor i think getting rediculouse.
today is fun fun fun. study session have to go the college for that and then band practice and then well prep and sleep i guess. Gordons back today :-) but wont get to see him till monday :-( never mind such is life.

My evening with steph was great we went to Wagamungas (behind the tron church if people in Glasgow want to know) in memory of Noelle. such a good restrant. then we went to the Cehlie which was so much fun danced every dance exsept one and that one was only due to lack of partner. Think the college Cehlie is such a good idea it breaks down barriers and is the start of meny friendships.
looking forward to next years already!
then came home and waited for water to heat up as i was not going to bed with out a bath. and even if i was would not of been able to sleep couse my back was really really badly hurting gonna have to go to the ciropractor i think getting rediculouse.
today is fun fun fun. study session have to go the college for that and then band practice and then well prep and sleep i guess. Gordons back today :-) but wont get to see him till monday :-( never mind such is life.

had a really good day at college yesterday the frist lecture was abit weak but never mind that for the moment. Kat and i skipt worship and went had a accountabliaty time and prayed for each other was really cool felt so much better afterwould.
We met the new lecturer in our placment ceminar Graham was on heart and soul which was really cool. He was the guy who came and encoured me when i was having a really bad night so glad that he is on the staff.
then darells leacture was exerlant!
after all that helta scelta down to the train station for tea with the patons which was stue love stue.
Finaly was totaly blessed when pheona took me to argos to get a heater for my bedroom and then to ikea and spoiled me rotten because it is my birthday soon.
so had my frist good nights sleep since the nights got colder feeling so much better for it as well. everthing looks nicer when you are not suffering from sleep deprevtion.
today have loads to do and am not sure were to start but never mind am missing Gordon but he is back Saterday although not sure when i will see him but it will all come out in the wash and that is the only thing i am alittle sad about today. so for a change it really truly is all good

Went to see De-Lovely this afternoon with Holly sent shivers down my spine from the very start it was a brillent film to the point of tears at the end because it really was that sad.
My brother is skating on thin ice at home which is making me very sad he is being missguided it is not him. But it is him who is allowing this person to guide him away from his family. Actualy really really upset about it all it is the frist time i have ever phoned him and he hasn't been on the other end of the line.
so rather sad this eveing this is one of those times i wish i was closer to home.

was so tired this morning when getting out of bed was a mega event i think its harder when your room is cold but nethertheless i got out of bed and maniged to reach the train.
college today was great really really enjoyed the classes today law and naritive with Ted in the morning and human development with Ken. lucky Teds was intresting really or i would have fallen alseep. badly need to sort this sleep thing out now can't live like this i know i complain about being tired all the time but at the momet every time i leave my bed i feel like i have done a 12 hour shift maybe getting a heater for my room will help i hope so will keep you informed of course you exspected nothing less.
was going to go pics tonight but there is very little i have not seen and iver would go to at all or would not go to on my own. just a big wimp arn't i never mind better go cook my dinner ttfn.

arrrrrrrrrrg YPFC were arrrrrrrrg tonight well really they wernt that bad. But arrrrrrrg well we had a really good session then they raised the name question again at the very end. the wish to change the name cose they don't like YPFC anymore. I have problems with changing it because all the adverting is YPFC but because it was the end of the session i said we would talk about it the next time but still the arguments raged. so slightly cross and stressed with them all.
the rest of the day was okay my student loan hasn't come in still and i found out why they forgot to put me on the list of people for the college to aprove so i was not aproved so i am again stint not my folt though this time yay.
best go to bed and be ready to get up in the morning for college.

just come back from caterlys it was really good the guy was a good speacker and said some really insightful things on relationships. although not quite sure about some of the rules he laid down 'don't take your shoes of' seems alittle exstreem.
band practice was good tonight although we need them to focus more. it is all good.
then in the middle of the Alpha talk had this sudden vission of the oven turned on and a horrid feeling in the pit of my stomerk. was given a lift home to cheak and much to my releife i am not that stupid it wasn't on just look like a bit of a pleb. oh well it's nothing less than what people exspect from me.

sudnay morning and should be doing writing thought for the week but am having a thinking moment so blogging is okay. honist
had a bissy weekend we went to the commisioning service on friday night had a mega fit of the giggles for most of it. James lead the worship which was exserlant and at the end played your love is amazing to a I think it was a nivana tune it was a great way to end and so not troditional.
then Gordon and i went to the pics and watched man on fire which was quite grusam but okay.
sat and talked with the girls till the early hours. was not suprised when i woke up not feeling my best really. then we had a four hour study session with simon and ian was really helpfull means that when i do the reading it want just go in one ear and our the next. went to see shark tale not the best film i have ever seen really not that funny.
came home had a bath and went to sleep without doing any of the work i was supposed to do so on to the devotion. yay

spent my morning running around garages with fraza they are not keen on taking my mini on. think it might be dead but will keep trying.
just had a rather large lunch with Gordon and have come back to the college feel more and more like i live here all the time i know that that is the joke but honistly this is getting silly.

yay frist day of lectures down and have survived. although head is alittle woosy from all the information it has just received.
Really strange being in with the 3rd years though oh well will soon get used to it.
although our frist leacture this morning was a clasic as we had to sit in a semi circul and i was close to the leactura so felt alittle stared at and so wished that i had a cushion to hide behind next week will just sit with laptop on my nee problem solved. well sort of.
had a giggle fit in worship which lasted through placment seminars such is life.

went into town today to get a book for college and drink hot choclate with Gordon which was nice.
then i went and bought some clouths hate clouthes shopping and am rubbish at it. as today showed as i didn't get all the things that i needed oh well such is life.
pottered around this afternoon and did the food shopping.

day of fellowship today was okay bit long really though and felt very very very tired all the way through. infact i felt like i had just done a week of camp thats how tried i am.
But it was good and i met my buddie could be fun doing this hole buddie thing.
then went and got my car from garage and find that they have pocked a load of holes in the wing could they not just have pointed out it was rusted through now when i go between garages to get quotes i am quite likley to be pulled over by the police not amused not amused in the slightest.
now am home and it is a mess but i don't realy care will clean tomorrow gonna do something mindless and stress free for a bit have a bath and probly head for my bed and an early night. the joys

My life back at college weired seeing everyone and a load of new faces but most fun as well.
very tired again but such is life i don't really remeber when i have been to college not being alittle tired so thats just normal.
band went really well yesterday although Big John who is leading it wants them to be ready to go at four as aposed to being there by four and ready at four fifteen thats okay. Looks like i am singing mind maybe not the best but there are not really enough vocals for me just to sit and be a audeance.
can see pictures of the practice ending up on the internet Liz was in with a camra it is all good really it is.
the young people were really high after being at fire starters that weekend or thouse of them that are going this year are really high anyhow. quite exsiting looking forward to seeing the grouth spurt in them yay.

Good service this morning Harvest is always nice and we had so many young people in church that we didn't quite fit into the pews that we normaly fit into quite cool. although slightly annoyed with them that they wernt dancing during the bouncy worship that we had this morning they all stood very dignifyed and sang nicley hummmmm.
over sleept this mornign woke up at seven rolled over the next thing i new it was ten fifteen eeeek needless to say i was in alittle bit of rush.
but am very tired, still have sleept alittle this afternoon. but not much not good at sleeping during the day. frist youth worship band practice this afternoon quite exsited about that. yay

youth cafe was great tonight we had some new faces and some old faces and lots of things for both types of faces to do.
still stressed will all look better in the morning will bath then sleep and that will sort it all out. hope nothing else happens tonight thats all nightmare alurt worried that will sleep badly tonight don't think i can really take a bad nights sleep.
bissy day tomorrow ttfn

cars are a pain as well. problem being that i am slightly more found of my car than i am of the internet. It has failed the MOT and guy in the garage ses that it is not wise to fix it but Rob ses that it is so i have given him the number of the garage and will let them fight it out. been crying so my eye hurt not in the mood to do all the thing that i have planed to do this afternoon. but i have to because my time will be limited on monday as we are at college all day which means the things i normaly do on a monday have to be done today. have to be emily they do (she trys to motavate herself without much sucess) oh well devtions here i come.

the internet is a pain in the behind and that is no mistake. aspeshaly when your spelling is not the best in the world.
oh well such is life.
sitting on needles at the mo as i havn't hurd back from the garage about my MOT so peterfiyed that there is gonna be something drasticly wrong with my car that would suck really it would.
had my hair cut this morning which means it feels all nice but i bet as soon as i leave to house it will rain and so it want feel quite so nice anymore.
not much else going on really.

am sitting infrount of the tellie not doing the work that i was gonna do will do it before i go to bed but for now don't really feel like it.
have been at college since yesterday Kat and i had a really great video afternoon/night with a trip to the pics in the middel really really good stuff.
spent today around the college as well went to see wimbledon with Gordon this afternoon it was okay.
then got stuck in traffic on the way to dinner it was okay though their not that bothered as long as i do not make a habbit out of it.

went to the Docs this morning which was okay the doctor was very nice but alittle hard to talk to. He said the thing i had gone to him about was nothing to worry about so thats okay.
then saw Steve for the pre going back to college how are you doing how are you going to manige with more work meeting which also went well.
Then had lunch with Gordon which was lovley. and wondered around town.
then rushed back to church to Youth club which wasn't on slight lack of communication there but never mind am now dossing around have lit a load of candles even though it is not dark yet and am eating choclate feeling alittle low although i have had a fairly sucseful day. Oh well such is life.

YPFC last night was great bit odd since we have not seen any of the kids in that situation for such a long time but great. and they want it to become a weekly event all i have to do is find another leader and book the holls that is if it passes the commity prosess sure it will can't see why not yay.
but flying trees am late again must go ttfn.

bissy bissy bissy. had a good YF last night talked about the youth service and all the work that the young people have o put into it to make it good and they are really up for it. So exsited it is really going to be good.
had an argument with and adult about the nature of God and reading the bible out of context to make it prove what you want it to prove in the morning and before this we had had a disscusion on the truth of the word of God in pathfinders which had gone really well. arrrrr well you can't have it all.
got loads to do today so had best crack on and get it done :-)

well had my life put into harsh prospective yesterday but lets start at the start and end at the end shall we.
had a fairly lazy morning pottering around and really acheving much. then went to see the nurce and i don't have diabetees i am not overwight and have wounderful blood preasure although there are other issues that i need to see a doctor about so thats all good.
then went to Drumchaple (tell me if i spelt that okay) with Gordon and my circus skills stuff and let the kids lose on it which is normal procedure and they seemed to enjoy themselves so that was good.
then took one of Gordons work mates home and had a wake up moment as a man with a big knife came to the door looking for her son. who was thankfully not there. Then after much confusion and uncertainty the mans mother came in she was very stoned and had a long chat about how orfel the hole situation was. In the end we brought the work mate to the college and made sure her kids were in safe places havn't hurd anything about how it all paned out in the end.
the last passage may seem alittle flipent but i don't really have the words or abilaty to describe what went on those are the basics. Hope everthing is okay.
today spent it mostly dossing around going to the pics and had a youth team meeting this eveing which went well.

have been staring at this computer screen far to long today but have actualy got quite abit done and feel alittle more prepared for the coming week than i did this morning which is good. gonna go and do something that does not involve computers for a wile now yay all i have to do is think of something that i can do that does not involve computers hummmm. (i am talking work and college realated not so sad that i can't fill my spare time with something other than computers)

found phone yay was on the back seat of the car.
have only just gotten up had a really wiered dream (not a nightmare) about these plastic Aliens one of the children of the family we had lunch with yesterday had. these Aliens were suposed to have babyes and so yesterday we spent most of the afternoon watching her play nurse. But in the dream i was holding this Alien and suddenly it burst and a fish came out and i felt totaly guilty couse the child wasn't there to see so tryed to put the fish back in. but the fish keept growing and would not go back in. well that was about it hummm weired.

wow what a weekend. lets start at the start and end at the end. saterday woke up stupidly early due to some nasty dreams that had been playging me all night (small prayer reuest there please pray that i stop having my nightmares which have started again). then went to the college from were and after alittle time cuddling on the couch Gordon and I went first to staples were the car would not start (was a little bit of a blond moment which i shall not go into) then to a church were was the Ecrad charity brekie want to know more about that go to the link at the side and have look. but it was very good. Then played monoplay which i won yay. then after dinner took Holly home and Gordon and i went to elem which was very penticostal and wounderful God sertainly rocked the church that night.
then back to the college were i sleept. humm after a time.
Sunday got up got Gordon up went to church had a very intresting pathfinders session. I am leading next weeks yay. then we went to Pheona and Johns house for lunch which was a full family afair which was really really nice. lots of kids climbing all over though quite glad that i don't have any yet. But can see why people do and why one day i will have and enjoy my own to. back to the college were sat chatting to Linda for a wile which was lovley as always havn't chatted nearly enough resently.
back to church Alpha in which the debate got quite passionate which was good then YF were we talk about the youth service and how the band would work and sorted out a time for people to meet up. all possative. I am also probably doing the teaching in the frist one which is really exsiting. slight worry cannot find my phone eek gonna cheak car in morning but hopeing it is in college.

have gone through today alittle lethargic. But have had such a good night went to this confrence in the central hotel and met redman lead worhsip and God totaly swept away my feelings of un-happyness. it was great. then the teaching was exerlant and then the worship was great again. it is true about if you give something to God he gives you it back ten fold. now waiting for the water to hot up as i badly need a wash as am alittle sweaty and have clean bed to get into.
so now am tired may just have a cold wash and head to bed.

having a bit of a disasta morning really and i havn't even gotten up yet. a Cheque bounced so i have been franticly finding money from varouse places (the joys) and getting quite stressed and so quite tearful about it all well never mind.

I am a good photographa tehe arn't I tehe hum maybe not 

how bord am i hence the exsesive blogging but thought i would go on in my ficstion with food and tell you about my exserimental dinner. as i am not feeling well enough to go to the patons for dinner as i normaly do on thursday nights i desided to have an intresting dinner and defrosted my last pork chop which i then made a source for out of mango chutny and apple source and bisto then added potato and carots and stewed it. I would like to report that it was very nice and i am now feeling rather pleased with myself big grin tehe.
also went down the road to post some letters and ran into a lady from church which was alittle embarising as i did not know that she was a lady from church till she started talking to me and i relised that she must be couse random people genraly don't ask how your holls went at the traffic light she was a very nice lady though so will keep an eye out for her in future. have choclate the other reason for going up the road.

eating cake and drinking hot chocolate this morning with Wilma was lovley it is always nice to talk to Wilma i am so glad that she is looking after my pastoral stuff.
this afternoon choose the verce for the week and wrote the thought for the week so i don't have to do it in a rush sat. now i am exsorsted sad isn't it but getting back into work slowley is the best way. oh my student loan has been sorted out it will come in at the beinging of tream yay go mum.

still feeling ill hate colds but am being good and resting.
will do alittle more today than yesterday as i am feeling better if not completly myself again. have some prep to do and am meeting Wilma for a pastoral meeting this morning.
yesterday i sat around and did bead work and cross stich although i did go shopping for some basics but thats about it. Gordon came over in the evening so nice to cuddle up and watch the tellie together.

yay just won spider solitare what a exsiting life i do lead watching the news it is all very desturbing golbal warming bombs and so forth although i think the batman dad who climed the palice yesterday people are getting far to worried about it all.
there is a beautful sunset outside my window i am sitting in the dark so i can see it perfectly the sky looks like shining copper wounderful. God is Amazing

Holly and Gordon came to see me this afternoon which was really cool. we had a nice lunch and chat and mess around.
although now am feeling very tired. so am going to sleep for the rest of the afternoon.

Went and started the hole getting registared at the doctors thing going have to go back on tuesday and then i will be registared and able then to go and see a doctor yay if i need to am registared in glasgow but need a doctors that i can get to without driving when your ill you should not drive should you.
apart from that lay on the coach and dosed most of the day away.

last night was great fun Alpha was intresting and The YF was it normal load self :-). although i got home and felt distintly ill was talking to mum and had to cut her short to go to bed.
now liying on the coach still in PJ's covered by fleesy blanket witht the fire on and feeling sorry for myself but all these things will pass will go have a bath then go back to sleep.
just watched the blues brothers which is such a good film.

So nice to have Gordon back yay. we went to see the village friday night he sleept through most of it being quite tired and i forgot my ugc card which was a pain. then Sat I took him food shopping. I felt quite ill during most of the time and so we went back to the college were we cooched up on the couch and basicly sleept on and off during a film the Kat provided which was really really good but just felt so rotten. Finaly finsihing that day with going to Elem which was good but as soon at i got in felt worse than ever so spent most of the night iver curled up acros some chairs or leaning agenst Gordons sholder.
then church this morning was good we spent the pathfinders session desiding what to do with the pathfinders we came to the most compicated split we could think off but it may actualy work yay. looking forward to all the fun. also means i get two services a month were i can go into church as aposed to only the one.

just been swimming and it was great forgotten how much i love to swim and how good you feel afterwould although my hair is a bit of a mess and eye are alittle stingy but that is the price we pay and well it was so good.
Holly and i have a target to do a mile by christmas we shall see.
but the pool was lush it had a jacusee and all the normal things and a good swiming pool with sensible people in it who did proper lenghts don't understand people who muck about in the biddle of a lane really it is all good.

this is christopher while he was staying at my house it is the last day which might exsplain why he is looking like he's just eaten a lemon hummm my little brothers great 

these are the flowers that Gordon left for me to come home to everyone go ahhhhhhhhh. thougt some of you ie hard romantics would like to see them 

Another bissy day ahead but not a bad thing. Reading this morning getting a head start which is always a good idea. then going swimming with Holly which is a great i haven't been swimming in so long. Then Gordons back yay.

humm just bought a microwave and some stuff for the kichen including lights so i will no longer be washing up in the dark yay. very tired early night to night i think went out for a drink with Kat last night and sleeped over at the college and so did not go to bed till one again. it was good to catch up have a girly and a moan and set the world to rights without really being able to do anything about it.

not sure why but this thing is playing up again back in the libary what a fun life i do lead.

feeling alittle subjude really missing Gordon but life goes on. Holly is keeping me company is it all good. it is. (holly is reading over my sholder ses "grand")
we stayed up last night and watched Pride and Predjudise which is the best film (even if it is jolly English grrrr) and perfect for a girly night in "ummmmm Mr Darcy" (both girls do varouse swooning actions) tehe arn't i being random.
got to go to college again gonna get the 1st draft of this essay done today :-) that way it is done and i can relaxe a bit.

back to the laptop yay love you laptop you are great.
it is all good holly and i went to the china buffet for lunch so feeling slightly bloted yep yep not good for the inches. now hollys back here and we've been mucking about playing guess who and so on. the plan is to have a girly night with dvds and so forth.

this computer is so slow. i am in the libary doing some reading for a essay been doing it for bout 2 hours now and so my brain is alittle addled so i am blogging to un addle it. then will be going to lunch with holly it is all good.
this essay is hard all the books i am reading are about doing outdoor activertyes and since the thing i am writing the essay on is not nesiceraly an outdoor activerty it is gonna take some creativerty to use the books that we have been suggested to read.
funny being back in college doing actual work instead of bumming round upstairs also not a big libary fan i don't find this the most condusive place for studying to much going on really.
well supose had better get on with it really

finished the cleaning bit and most of the tidying but yet there is the mess on the desk that has to be sorted out hummmmm maybe that will be a job for later

CLEANING CLEANING AND CLEANING AGAIN JUST SCRUBED THE KICHEN FLOOR URK IS ALL I HAVE TO SAY ABOUT THAT.
Of course it needs doing the hole flat is a total mess. And there is so much washing to do i am quite glad that some random people gave me sevril sachets of free washing powder when i was leaving the airport the other day.

well that flight was orfel maybe bacause i missed it due to a overrunning riding lession and a acsedent on the motoway not my fault though honist ended up in edinbough in the end.
but after much stress i got to the pathfinders weekend away.
which was great we had a blast so tired i did the ropes course which is the sort of thing i am rubbish at but love to try.
the funnist thing though is when i had given the girls a leactur about not keeping the ladyes awake as they had worked so hard and needed their sleep. well the ladyes then proceded to have a huge giggle fit over talking donkeys whos prophets went to the dentist it is a long story but it was an exsplantion of ballams arse that had gone rongh.
the poor youth who had asked about the story was one i had a bit of a chat with the next day and sorted out the story. I love my job. the funnest part was when the girls came in and told the ladyes off. tehe

sometimes i wounder if i am actualy insane feeling abit urk after our flight and the prospect of having to do it agan tomorrow followed by a long drive to Lendric muir is not a pleasing one and my bed is covered with junk which might actualy make me cry i think i am supposed to do something with the shepards pie in the oven not sure what on how far in the future that i. although it was goo to spend the afternoon with mum. chris has now gottenon my nerves it is good that the nerves have tacken this long to breack but now he is just annoying me hummm back to glasgow tomorrow.
still feeling delicate as well hum should stop complaining will stop typing to tired to be blogging not in a good enough mood iver.

this is everone sitting in my tent at soul survior boy that was snug but so much fun we had such a good time 

well i think msn messinger is possibly one of the best things to come out of the internet. just sat and talked to lovely Noelle and that would not happen unless we could do that. it is so nice to talk to her so so nice. and so nice to talk to all the people i don't see so much and all the people i do as well it is great to talk to young people as well.
well i am all on my own right now have had a good day tired now gonna have a bath and get into bed then i will get up early to pack chrises stuff i think. humm should of done that tonight just didn't feel up to it at all. jippy tum never mind such is life

good day went to sicence center with baby brother last day sad