rushing about

been abit of a mad day but slowed down now. the problem was that i didn't relsie when i woke up that i had so much to do so i dossed for a long time. then i started to fill out the application form for niddrie and oops did not relise that it was supposed to be in tomorrow so a mad dash to fill it out and get it in the next post so that it would arrive on time but it was okay. also put my volinter form into su today well done me couldn't quite remeber where the office was and i found it in the end though.
also went shopping have now got food which is nice no more random meals well at least for this week.
also sent off for another job information pack one for troon not sure were that is yet but i am sure all will become clear.

totaly totaly tired

feeling alittle spread fine today just had a mega long weekend did school on friday and spent a nice afternoon with Gordon then saturday went to cori croft which is really exsiting still havn't handed in my su application though must do that tomorrow morning. spent the afernoon with neil and catrina in sterling which was cool.
kennys brithday bash was in the eve of sat it was abit mad as well started in itchi ban ended up in dings quite a come down in quolity but it was good to spend time with kenny.
this morning had a hard hard time getting up then sat outside the service talking with neberly about spirtual warfair which was intresting. did youthy which was a disaster really as we wernt ready in time and had no way of making the laptop we were usings side load until kenny super star that he is found some old pc speackers. the young people were fine though.
Gordon and i spent the rest of the day together which was blissful we played his new computer game which was good and just hung out oh and had a really nice lunch out. he bought me flowers they are goergouse.

stupid day

well i have had a mirgrain all day so have been liying on my bed all day urg. so have missed a day off college and am still feeling pritty pants and the hole dizzyness thing is still there but i guess that could just be due to the fact that i havea mirgrain.

on a more possitive frount i have my first interveiw next tuesday night which is quite exsiting and very scary.

docs

well i draged myself out of bed this morning to get to the doctors for 8:30 just to sit their for an hour as the doctor was an hour late for work arrrrrg. but at least he took me serously and got a hole heep of blood tests done i hate giving blood. he also gave me some pills of the dizzyness which seem to be working.

the people from the job i applyed for the other day gave me a call wile i was in there i am to phone back after 5 and arrange a date for a interveiw how exsiting my first interveiw since all thoughs horrid ones for a placement i sorta hope that my interveiw skills have imporved but i doubt it somehow.

geek

well feeling quite nervouse and exsited at the same time i have just sent off my first Job application ever.
you know i am used to walking into places and just getting Jobs :-) well not quite but sighing up for an employments agency is a hell of a lot easyer than working out what to put on a cover letter or even on a CV.

feeling quite good about my to do list it is starting go down although i probley need to add stuff to it will sit and think about all the stuff that isn't on it when i have gotten ride of all that stuff that is.

what is wrong with me

i feel dreadful today and i must look not so good as well if church was anything to go by.
after dragging myself from my bed feeling dizzy and groggy i walked to church hoping that the fresh air would clear my head it didn't.
i sat in on the end of the bible class which was good a missionary from albainer had returned to the church and was talking to the young people about her last three months there.
James came in and the first thing that he said to me was basicly you look dreadful you should go home. i didn't i was determind not to let this thing beat me i mean i have been living it for more than a month now maybe more than two. but i think i should have tacken his advice really.
came home and now feel even worse than when i got up.
although am listening to a tale of two cities so it is not all bad.
talked to Gordon for some light releife which was nice.

Interdependace is a higher Vaule than independence

had such a mad day yesterday having abit of a none day today.
first it was raining when i woke up so my body desided that it was not leaving its nice warm bed had to get a taxi to school. were the commision for education the local edcuation mp and the richest man in glasgow were woundering around. and theres me wearing my hoodie and jeans ooops. when one of them talks to me he is completely confused by me and does not know what box to put me in.

then su and chris could not make it because he was waiting for the people to come and fix his window which had been vandelised. not really much of an issue exsept it was a gmaes day and chris was supposed to be coming up with the games it was alright we play squot and the hand clappy game all good. exsept a random photographer turned up to take pictures of efram intresting.

then i get a phone call from chris again he has to return to his house so ronda can go to the police and report it.
so i end up running around looking for a fellow youth worker to help lead the discussion group. on the one day when all the residents who fit this description are somewhere else and most of them with my boyfriend in town. Elain saved the day. although only barry turned up it was a good session.

had a lovley evening with Gordon we watched CSI, cuddled and eat choclate and ice cream bliss.

+ and -

bit of a productive non-productive day sorted out my desk which so needed doing and got a bit of an idea of what i am going to do for the camp worship sessions. got a load of books out of the libary and did read them and didn't get my reflections done (maily because the web-site apears to be down and so i cannot download the templates urg.)

the bible world bus people came it was quite intresting although it was mainly stuff i already new. but we got the minister of marters intresed which was possitive.

then came upstairs sat in the lounge for a bit cleaned the kichen talked to Gordon and am now on my way to bed

C+

got my essay back today got a C+ very pleased.
although Kens class was very heavy going and am feeling very low i think it is mainly due to the late night and the stupid illness i seem not to be able to shake.

oh well less than a week and a half till my doctors appointment Glasgow Doctors suck

i have my computer back

yay i can take notes in class again i can talk to the outside world again i can write essays till four in the morning again.
okay maybe the four in the morning bit is not so good but it was needed and that means i am up to date for last term which is a nice feeling although serouly early night tonight is in order.

i am in class the visiting leacture is quite good although we have a stupid book to read over this term which is serously out of date which is nothing to do with the leactura today.

had a good night at srg although we had to spend some time talking to one of our young leaders about why it is a good idea to go back to school maybe thats my que to have a look for other options in case he gets to the point were he just will not go back.

then i wrote my report of the resurch project till four in the morning admiadly part of that was taken up with downloading all the stuff that was lost from my computer. urg

still no computer

there is still no sihn of my laptop starting to really really get me down it makes my life so much harder not having taking notes in class yesterday was a nightmare espeshaly in the morning theology class. Linda lovely lady that she is has e-mailed me her notes but all the same. think it is something to do with my need to be inderpendant and do these things for myself i am not sur why i have this insain need to prove to the world i can do it on my own when i blantaly can't as my computer dieing has completly disrupted my intire life.
Suzie and i had a nice evening yesterday we did this silly thing that neil wanted us to do for class tomorrow which took all of 10 mins and we enjoyed a relaxed tea and chat very nice. Gordon came over to see linda so i got a nice goodnight kiss at the end of it the night although it was very late by that time and i had given up him coming back into the college and he went litraly 5 minits after he came through the door still nice.
today has been a bad day for getting things done mainly because i don't have my computer arrrrrrg hate using the computers downstairs it sucks.

crazy christmas tales

well this has the potental to be a very long post as i have a lot of catch up time but promis just to deal with christmas.

we had our leaders youth club which was good fun although the dizzness interfeared with my uni hoc playing such is life.

then the next day had a very nice if alittle dull journy down the country listened to radio four all the way down with the ear phone things on the vergin trains which was good.

sarah came the next day which was good

christophers birthday started off well he liked his persants and we laughed alot about the dog looking for his christmas persant under the tree he was confused and wrightly so.
mum had to go out for most of the day so i looked after sarah and wighted for antie rose and uncle clive to come and help me which they didn't manige to do until mum came back silly traffic but it was all fine sarah is hard work though.

few dull days of looking after sarah and trying to get some rst became very anti social and refused to see friends couse i just could not handel going out very sad that i didn't now but it was probley the best thing.

christmas was intresting ant woke me up which is not normal and we opened our stocking together which is a good family trodition then wile the carers arrived to get sarah up we went to rose chris the brick from his bed it took some time. waffels for brekie wile we still waited for sarah and then the feeding frenzy under the tree but i think i perfure taking christmas morening at that pace it was much more relaxed then normal. I got an IPOD yay and some GHDS exerlant.

auntie linda came over and we went out for christmas lunch which was not the best if we are totaly honist urk soggy carrots and not very well cooked anything else. but it took the presure of mum this year which was good.

Boxing day was quite again ant chris and i went for a walk down to rushden town which was nice.

Gordon and his Grandfather came to get me next day at lunch time we had carbinaria lovley for lunch and then we spent the afternoon at gordons grandfathers house and had an amazing tea at his arts and uncles very nice.
gordons sister was taken to hospital to have her baby and we cleaned her house and put some washing on for her as well.

the next day we took the kids out to the cinima and were horrifid when we arrived to find that it was all sold out so we had a pizza hut pizza and killed two hours with the video camera and teaching the kids how to do magic tricks it was a realy magic evening.

when we got back we got to hold baby Ryne awwwwwww and take him home.

next day we had lunch with Gordons grandfather and went to my dads which was nice. spent the evening chatting and drinking wine.
went to winsor on our full day there but it was rainy and horrid
and on the last day went to the windsor castle farm shop which was good.
then to gordons fathers nice journy again and a really nice place to stay we have reached new years eve which gordons family and us stayed up through playing risk i won which was a shock.
so tired the next day went for a walk up to the juberly tower and went to see the cathedral.
fell down the stairs in the evening no harm done though more embarrised than hurt felt particulay usless afterwould.
went to blackpool for the last day of our holiday and then back to glasgow i am sad that it is all over and i have to go back to the grind.